Saturday, September 26, 2009

the unforgiven II

"what i've felt , what i've known
sick n tired , i stand alone
could u there?
cos am d 1 who waits 4u
or r u UNFORGIVEN too"

well dats 1 f d songs 4m metallica dat i heard wen i started listening 2 d band.. alwaz loved d song n since d tym i started bloggin had dis in mind 2 use d title as name f ne f my post.. felt it looks fine 4 wot am thinking 2 type now so jst thot wud start it off wid few lines 4m d song only... hence d para in d start.. no pun intended der.. ppl need not mk horses up der brains run wild.. 4 d post is yet 2 begin :P :P

so nehw lemme get dwn wid d post.. now smtyms it hapns dat i write n talk irrelevnt stuff.. ppl evn hv hard tym readin or getin 2 understnd wot am tryin 2 say.. funny der r tyms wen i myself find it hard 2 understnd wot am i sayin or wot do i want in life... 4 smtym now my brain has been fcukd up..refusing 2 work at all... n evn if it has been working.. only d wierdest f not so hapnin thots hv been botherin me.. n 2 mk it all worse.. i hv been devoting tym thinkin ovr dem... d things wich hv been botherin n trblin me r d most irrelevnt f stuff.. but wen ur head is 2 go wrong .. nothin can help u out.. u get stuck in d quick sand.. n d more u try 2 get outta it d more u get stk in2 it.. u try n get urself out f a tangled web n d more u struggle 2 get out d more tangled up u r in it.. probably d same hs been my case off late... d more n more i try not 2 get my brain trbld d more worse it got n blew it away at d best of tyms 2 mk d worst of situations..

generally am not sm1 who thinks ovr certain things alot... 4me it hapns .. if its 4 my gud den alls well.. if not so gud den so b it... wud c wot nxt n gota move on, but wen d let go... n mv on phenomena keeps hapnin tym n again dats wen d funny thinking part of my brains get working.. or rathr shud i say d wierd mechanism up der starts workin.. it has been pretty rusty uptill now ,4 a long tym hasnt made use f it.. but wen it starts kickin... its like not willing 2 read dis post smwhr.. abt escapism n dunno y .. (probably i knw y) seemd as if am no gud but escaping all arnd me 2... n bein nothin but a coward by letting go n not caring much 4 all arnd me.. thot d move on n will c later attitude myt help but escapism is nvr d answer 2nething.. n extreme of nething is bein an escapist.... so got my share on tangling up in d web... n worse dat cud hapn... messd up few ,not so tangld up things n ppl arnd in d web...n dats wot makin me go mad... now dis post here is reminding me f d very 1st post dat i wrote.. d 1 wid wich i started off my bloggin career (:D ya ok... ) goin thru a similar phase den but still it ws diff .. only my fuckd up mood n irritable behaviour ws d same..

i pity my frnds n ppl who overlook such deeds of mine n still choose 2b my frnds... dey sure dint do no wrong 2 deserve my wrath(hmmm heavy word here .. got only dis at d tym , so will let it b).. 4 widout ne fault f ders i still go on 2 mk d atmosphere wierd 4 dem.... spoiling sm1s special day by bein d total jerk.. well not many can do dat.. but i can n hi did so wid d worst possble timings... cud i get bttr in bein worse ??? i dbt it... feel funny wen i say dis but things wich bothred me wud find appreciation in othrs eyes... now comeon how many of us wud get irritated at ppl 4 bein all mannerd n culturd n dignified.. or at d 1s who r greatest f souls arnd n overlook all flaws in ppl n still do gud evn 2 dos who do bad 2 dem?? now how many of us can get irritated 4m such acts n ppl wid such high standards in life?? well beat dis all such acts of mannerism n dignity got me iritated n 2 mk things worse.. i let it trbl me wd few of my frnds arnd... as worse as it gets .. i let my mood b fuckd up wid frnds who r in evry aspct of life far bttr souls dan me .. n if nethin i bttr get sm gud qualty f dem.. but no sir i rathr dcyd 2gt my brain fuckd up wid dem.....

remmbr last tym u were mad at sm1 n dat got u mad at ur own self .. 4 u knew dat it ws u who ws behavin wierd at bein trbld by d sincerity(or wot shud i write here??) of ppl arnd... yes i write wierd stuff.. dunno wot comes nxt aftr wat n der is no flow n probably no sense in certain statemnts i type.. but its still gud 4 i can b far more fuckd up dan dis.. so my brain goes off ...n l8r i realise how big a jackass i am by bein mad at ppl who hvnt done no wrong ... n den it gets me mad at myself 4 y am i bein such a jerk ..... spins ur head readin dis... well jst think wot i hv had  been thru.... ur mad ur frustated but d only person u can tk it out on is urself.. so eithr ways ur not goin 2 get away wid dis frustations n ugly air arnd.. 4 ur d 1 havin it.... ur d 1 2b blamed 4 it ... n probabaly ur d only 1 who desrves all dis crap ... wid all dis arnd ... i start 2 wonder wot hv d 1s arnd done 2desrve all dis?? guess only fault of ders wud b dat dey knw me n still hv der concern 4 wots trblin me... now wot am i suppsd 2 say.. its my own insignificant n disturbing thots ... n if any1 needs 2b blamed its me... smhw feel its d funda of attachmnt n detachmnt dat gets my head go round n round at tyms... not many dat am attchd 2.... its not easy 4me 2gt atchd eithr.. but detachmnt is smthin dat mks it all ugly.. n if 1 cannot get detachd 4m his attchmnts den its hell waitin 4u ...

evry1 has der weak points n low in life.. probably i went thru 1f d lows f my life in d past week... now dey say no1 is perfct..well hence proved am not evn near 2 bein perfct 4 sure.. only thing i myt b perfect at wud b imperfection... but den again aint dat bad eithr.. have seen worse souls arnd.. but wen v r no gud ourself v dnt hv d rite 2 point fingers at othrs.. do v?? no v dnt..cos blame game is easy ...sit dwn n analyse stuff n it all comes dnw 2 bein ur own fault... atlst d case wid me dis tym ... goin thru such lot 4 no rhyme or reason i ended up realising jst 1 thing.... its nvr ne1 elses fault... no1 can mk ur life miserable but u urself.... if ne1 is 2b blamed 4 ur plight its u again... in d weak moments d decisions dat v tk thinkin v r strong enuf r d worst f decisions n dey only mk us realise how weak v r.. n pretending 2b all strong n unmoved by all arnd v only blow away d few who actually r d support dat v hv... but does all dis keep any meaning aftr u hv been a fool??.. spoil up things 4 ppl n den realising ur mistk wich all d tym u were aware of ,, does sayin sorry help?? very convinient word SORRY... but if v really mean it ... den y gv a chance 4 othrs 2 hear it 4m u ... cos d sorry state can nvr b gud.. n if v r in it den v r all total waste..

behve like jerks n end up disappointing ppl... der r levels in life dat ppl maintain n if v think evn 1 level below of our mental state den v r doomed bad... imagine bein messd up wid d stuff dat u alwaz detest .... dey say dont stoop dwn ur own level but in d weakest of moments u nvr knw were u end up... probably cursing urself by d end f it all 4 bein such a trash... but no1 is perfct n its only in tyms like des wen u need 2 sit dwn n recollect urself 2b able 2 hold ur head still high.. irrespectv of wot u hv been thru 4 no fault f ne1 but ur own.. not evn a fault but only random wierd irrelevnt thots ..... so goin thru all dis i cud only gt 1 thing outta it..(wid help f few frends) 2 much of thinkin can get u mentally disturbd... 2 survive in d world u gota b able 2 maintain ur own kool n if any distrbance is 2 hapn... it bttr not involve u... nothing is permannt n humans beins r weak... u can nvr hold on2 ne1 or nething... so no point wonderin ovr wot wen u mite lose it.. thinking ovr it n losin wot u hv at present rite now 4d momnt ... damn u spoil d present 4 thinking ovr d future ,, d othr way round.. wid past exprnce ,,limiting urself in d presnt,, again so not hapnin... now i hv alwaz been told by ppl dat am jst 2 cautious at tyms n in order 2 not hurt sm1 n mk sure nothin goes wrong.. hahaha..dat extra effort screws it all up... assumptions on baseless issues mk me tk steps wich jst dnt mk no sense... n d ppl arnd me... well dey only wonder wots trbling me... while am only tryin 2 mk sure nothin is trbls dem... d problem is .. if i get slightest d idea or hint dat sm1 arnd me is not vry comfrtablr ...b it any reason.. i tend 2 gt on d backfoot n b all cautious... n being so i get uncmfrtble myself.. so ne1 arnd feeling uncmfrtble..mkes me uncmfrtble... n dat mks d air arnd wierd... n funny seems d uncmfrtin issues r only baseless n non existant.. only dat ovrcautious attitude often mk me bein a total fool... tym n again i felt it is lyk dat.. but dint made sense 4 i ws pretty convncd of wot i do is rite.. but wen 1 n all hv d same opinion n say no1 can understnd d sudden chnge of behaviour.... i smhw felt probably alil dif appraoch in life wont hurt... cos its des vry ppl 4 whome i smtyms act diffrntly.. but dat dey find it wierd n dis seems wierd 2me.. 4 its all 2 mixd up... heads spinning again?? dnt wory gues am abt 2 get ovr now... so nehw... i guess i wrote wot i wanted 2... not many can mk sense of it ... n if u can den u mite b left wondering.. wotevr b d case... d gud thing is.. its d week gone by... as 4me.. wot all i typed here is only makin me smile looking at it.. have had d wierd issues screw me up enuf .. so no more its an issue... got my head all cleared up... in d process ended disappointed a few .. but feel dat disappointmnt gt dem thinkin 2 blog :P :P so hahaha... its all gud.. as 4 me yes evry1 goes thru der bad n weak phases.. i went thru mine... but now am gud again... it feels gud once again making fun f ppl :P :P.. getin 2 sport dos mean grins n finding humuor in almost abt evrything..( sm f u mite find dis wierd n read pyscho.. but haha ur free 2 think wot evr.. dnt care)

i still get 2 b wid my frnds..who hv been mature enuf n tolerated me evn in my worse of moods.. hats off 2 u guys... am pleasently surprised at how ppl can ovrlook n b all dignified.. hmm smthing i said b4 in d blog 2 dint i ??? :P :P.. d optimistc n living life d fullest is smthing i gota pik up 4m u guys... tho still i wud prefer goin on 2 mk fun f ppl.. 4 like i said no1 but ourselves n responslbe 4 our plights,.. no1 can mk fun f us unless v allow it 2 hapn ourselves... now jst 2 mk sure i dnt get attacks 4m social workers ... i dnt mean 2 disrescpect n rub ne1 of der dignity while makin fun f dem... no no not d case... but wen i comes 2 njoyin life 2d fullest.. i mite b alil mean in my own ways..... so d week gone by is past 4 me... present is all gud.. n dnt care abt d future..i'v 4goten all my stupidity... few frnds hv been mature enuf 2 let go n 4gt it 2.. alil request 2 othr few 2 4gt it n not talk abt it n keep d air heavy still.. i behvd like a total moron.. not neccsary 4u 2 behve like 1 :P :P... u alrdy gt ur point across n i understood no matter wot "widout GOPALJI koi VIKAS ni hoga" :P :P.... n othr way round "VIKAS ke liye GOPALJI zaruri hai"... hahahahhahahhaha ... lol well dis wud not mk sense 2 few... but i 1s who can understnd d lines wud defin8ly knw wot am sayin :P :P.... its has alwaz been like dat since centuaries... n will remain like dat 4 tyms 2 come....

am glad 4 i feel i wud have had done alot of gud karmas in my past lives ..:P:P 4 in dis life i can find company f d few elite n dignified ppl who r way beyond d normal human dimensions... havin such souls as frnds is a blessing n if i cud b evn slightly like dem.. my life wud b way neat n millions f notches up 4m wot i hv... but hi not complaining... wot all is hapnin 4me is still 2 gud 4me.. n dey r d uplifted souls.. i need 2 work my way 2 match der levels... till den am glad bein stuck in dis mean bad world... 4 evn tho d world mite d evil infested .. i hv my angels arnd me 2 tk gud care f me :P :P... wid guardians like des... my life is gud... so gota cherish wot all i hv in present n not b bothrd of wot mite hapn in future wen dey wont b arnd... y think so, i say.... dey say all gud things come 2 an end.. so do all bad things.. 2 side f d coins.. y flip it n get dat 100% of d 50 %.. i say rathr roll d coin along n let d gud n bad roll along wid u... its lot eaiser 2 let d coin roll n let it dcyd 4 itself wot side its goin 2b 4us den flipping it n d thots d getin bad 1 trbling u al thru.... now i read dis msg smwhr n loved it.. cudnt b bttr timing 4me 2 come across dis... evn used it as a status msg on facebook.. n here m ending my post wid it cant say hope u guys had fun readin it.. but alls well dat ends well .. quotes mk it so much easier it say stuff :P:P....

P.S. (using it 4d 1st tym in my post :P :P)thot aftr all des awrds n tags my next post wud b smthin wer i wud talk abt d tags n awrds,, but den dis post came up.. but no worries i'll probably get dat 1 here soon... cos wid tags n awrds smwhr it seems blogger has become tagger .. not dat am criticizing dat... but den again wid d amt f tags smwhr it kills d spirit of blogs .. 4 tags get u write certain formulated stuf.. n wot all i mean by dat wud get 2it later... till den i leave u wid dis

"Doubt holds you landlocked in paralysis unable to move either way. The time you spent doubting is the time you are not So, rid yourself of the doubt, take that step one way or another, your heart knows what is best, but take it right now"

Saturday, September 19, 2009

AWARDS SEASON in d blogsphere....

2 more awards... ok... am starting 2 wonder how gud my blogs r... or r dey?? cos off late its not much of blog but tags n awrds.. so d real bloggin is not here ,only posting... smthing cooking up in d mind so probably wud mk it in a post soon...

well coming 2 dis.. pleasent surprise.. only recently came across dis fellow blogger n she has been generous enuf 2 gv me 2 awrds so am flatterd... like i said b4.. many more desrving bloggers.. (hmmm will mk a post soon on all dis...) ya ok... but appreciation in any form in welcome.. infact appreciatd i dnt mind getin awrds but its intersting wen u gt 2knw wot post or posts made sm1 gave u dat awrd.... cos den it wud feel more deserving .. but a n awrd is an awrd after all... so will accpt it wholeheartedly n a big :D... it feels nice ..tho my brain n funny way f thinking alwaz makes me c an opinion not many wud agree on or like... so dat opinion n dos thots wud b up in some post soon.... 4d tym am gona proudly display d awrds on my page n thank hapibirdie 4 bein so kind.... n will tk d opportunity 2 gv it away 2 sm i find desrving of dis awrd far more dan me .. tho dey alrdy mite hv it ..still gota pass 2d blogs dat mk me feel dey gota hv dis on der display...
n thnx 2d birdie again..b hapi alwaz

And The Rules

Link the person who tagged you.
Copy the image above, the rules and the questionnaire in this post.
Post this in one or all of your blogs.
Answer the four questions following these Rules.
Recruit at least seven (7) friends on your Blog Roll by sharing this with them.
Come back to BLoGGiSTa iNFo CoRNer(PLEASE DO NOT CHANGE THIS LINK) at and leave the URL of your Post in order for you/your Blog to be added to the Master List.

Questions & Your Answers:

(i) The person who tagged you: happy birdie
(ii) His/her site's title and url:
(iii) Date when you were tagged: 17 September 2009

1) monica @ most deserving candidate in my list
2) sugandha @ funny blogs she rites at tyms.. n fun blogs r best read 4me
3) parul @ not many blogs by her.. but fun she is... n ya her brday here is alil gift :P :P hapi brday.. n get more motivated by dis n start up sm serious fun bloggin
4) roshmi @ mythology n history ... dis is ur link
5) kasab iangurl @ now dats a hardcore blogger... alrdy many awrds 4 her... probably dis 1 mite b repeated .. but all gud
6)hapibirdie @ giving it back 2 whome i gt it 4m... read a few post f her n dey were fun.. so nw dat i can gv away d awrds... she gets it 4m me 2
7) rane @ .. now amm not much in2 reading poetry .. but certain posts f her made me go hahaha.. well i hv dis nack of goin hahahaha on almost evrythin .. n nething wid few obvious excption.. so guess wud gv her d awrd 2..
8) grl nxt door @ now few f her posts dat i read , gv a picture of how it is 2b getin in d corporate world n workin out der... n ne awrd wich can mk me :D.. gets sm appreciations 4m me..
n now d awards dat d birdie gave 2me


:P :P .... dis is kool.. 2 in 1 awrds.. kinda excited how gud a blogger i am :P :P 4 ppl deceiding 2 gv such awrds.. indeed it seems lyk an awrd season in d blogsphere 2me...

Saturday, September 12, 2009

superior scribbler

not bad ... geting awards on d blogsphere if not smwhr else :P :P .. not used 2 getin awards tho.. but all gud .. now MONICA( has been generous enuf on awarding me wid dis 1 n few b4.. but dis is diff 4m d 1s b4 4 it seems only lucky few hv been getin dis 1 :P :P (chalo sm apne muh miya mitho hapnin here... no worries :P)  but seriously i feel wid such awrds...  der r many who desrve it far more n bttr dan me.. ppl r dedicatd n so  attachd 2 der blogs.. d way dey tke effrt in makin a gud post n working on der pages... i dnt feel i can match der intensity.... now reasons 4 y i wud b bloggin here is wen i feel like takin d fuckd up part f my brain out n den wen i wud c wot i hv jotted dwn i wud realise wot d heck.... its all not dat bad aftr all..its only dat am feelin its all gud .. besyds geting 2 cmmnt on posts  :P :P well dats i thing i like 2do .. .. so blog awrds r welcome only der r ppl more deserving .. but if ne1 feels i cud get 1 ... hi i dnt mind :P :P so thnk u monica.. i like d secnd haf f d awrd more tho.. scribbler ..ohh yes dat sounds like me.... superior,... hmm if u say so.. tho am jst like an averge joe.. nothin superior... :P :P.. but still wud b glad 2 display it on my page...

now 4d awrd n its rules

* Each Superior Scribbler must in turn pass The Award on to 5 most-deserving Bloggy Friends.

* Each Superior Scribbler must link to the author & the name of the blog from whom he/she has received The Award.

* Each Superior Scribbler must display The Award on his/her blog, and link to This Post, which explains The Award.

* Each Blogger who wins The Superior Scribbler Award must visit this post and add his/her name to the Mr. Linky List.

* Each Superior Scribbler must post these rules on his/her blog.
(now am alil confused  4 it says most deserving bloggy frnds?? cos dat ways den few alrdy havin dis awrd r getin it again... fair enuf?? or shud it b like 5 new 1s in d list??? am confsd guess will gv 2d most desrving who i find r desrving on d blogsphere.. n ya wots wid d mr. linky list??? wots dat n how 2 add name der?? help me out ppl.. )
1. monica at no surprise der... (tho it shud b superior writer n not scribbler 4 her)now she ws my inspiration behind starting up dis bloggin n all.. n also d 1 thru whome i came across dis blogging world ..d 1st blog i evr read if at all any1 likes my posts n wot i write ,..den i owe it 2 her... so gota gv her sm credit f getin me across d blogsphere  ... its fun out here.. or rathr in d blog world :P :P thnx ... gues alrdy u ppl hv read her posts.. if not u shud do dat, simple living high thinking... dats her as 4 her blogs... read n u wud knw bttr
2. puneet at .. he's a childhood frnd... very naive 2d blogging world...(saale ko bool bool ke suru hi karva di blogging) n its not dat he's a frnd n dats y am givin him dis awrd... i genuinly like wot he writes.. he's alwaz at his witty best.. jst like he is as a person... am sure very soon he is goin 2b a big star in d blogsphere.. CHEERS brother
3.roshmi at (again not a scribbler)now her post r alwaz interesting 2 read 4 d facts dat she gathers n puts up.. probably she has a lot f vedic knwlgde n smtyms searchs on net alot.. now u can find such stuff on net 2.. but she compiles it well .. tho hers r post evn more lenghty dan mine... u gota sit dwn 2read dem.. but once thru u sure wud b gaining alot f knwlgde 4m it.. so yes its fun 2 read her posts.. its like a google in its own :P :P..
4.sugandha at once in a while visit her posts n i hv fun reading dem.. got 2 read alot f funny stuff on her pages(besyds f othr not so funny..4 intellctual ppl who like posts wich mk sense... not much f a fan of thot provoking posts tho... not against dem eithr..only prefer d lite hearted 1 more)... including THE BRO CODE.... a whole post devoted 2it.. wot can i say.. i got speechless... 4 ws laffing out loud :P :P..n few f her baba bashing post ..u bet dey r thot wud drop her d scrbbler awrd...
5.parul at
ok now she doesnt writes much.. but dats probably bcos she made 3 diff pages n writes only on 1 n has 4goten othrs links of hers :P :P..but d scrbbler awrd sure 4 her....not becos she is a gud frnd..well mayb cos f dat 2 :P :P..but knowing her in person 1 can find her presence in d posts she writes.. alwaz smiling n all chirpy ..hmm guess superior smile awrd wud do more justce 4 her.. but nvrdless she gets dis 4m me 2...
DISCLAIMER: now me awarding dis 2 des 5 doesnt means dat d othr r not scribbling well in d 1s i like 2 read... only mayb d 1st 5 names wich got 2 my head got d HONOUR :P :P... so evry1 reading dis n provided u blog .. or rathr scribbler u r a winner of dis prestigious awrds... n i'll b glad 2 awrd it 2 u,,,:P :D hahahahaha
but d fact remains... best 5 in my list u got ur name in my post.. so CHEERS!!!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

the 8 + 1 tag...

another tag i gota 2... 2nd 1 4m d same i dnt find it easy 2do des tags but like mst f d ppl i 2 njoy reading tags.. so guess i'll do it nehw ..besyds seems ppl find it easier 2 read d tags dan my posts... but dats not really a reason y i am doin dis....probably its cos wen a gud frnds tags u,it ought 2b done sooner or later... moreover felt lyk completing it 2day so here it goes..n yes its a frnds brday n 09/09/09.... so mayb shud add 1 more point at end of each1 heren makes it 9 tags....hmm ya shud do dat n will tk d liberty f doin it

9 favorite dishes I love to eat

1. Chicken salad-works 4me all d tym provided its made as per d taste.. seldom ne1 mkes a salad bad.

2. Rajma chawal-1 dish can savour all d tym.. 1f d most sought aftr lunch dishes.

3. Chocolate truffle- funny am writing it as number 3.. but its jst dat randomly wots gets 2 my head... now d numbers r not d dark rich alil bitter chocolate is game 4 me

4. Tandoori chicken-n let me include all d tikkas n kababs in it.. so its lyk d chicken coming outta tandoor....

5. A certain FISH dish d name seems 2 escape me rite now...but it sm white fish wid gud marination..n not all fish dishes dat i like...jst dis 1

6. KIWI- dats 1 fruit i love 2 eat... diff 4m d usual 1s

7. d typical butter chicken daal makhani n missi roti combination..wid obviously diff types f chicken preparations.

8. daal ka halwa-1f d very few indian sweets i like.. 4 rest r a lil 2 sweet

9. Sprouts- healthy n lite.. tho i dnt hv dem regularly n its rathr junk dat i eat... but still i like 2 eat dem tym n again... mks me feel gud abt a healthy leats 4 once

(now der r many dishes n i cant fit in wid jst 9 options.. at d same tym writing des 9 were no easy eithr...)

9 things bothering me right now

1. the knee injury n 4 how long its gona keep me on back foot.

2. not being able 2 set my priorities n makin a complete fool f self 4 nothing..its like gota get d frustations out but its no gud n only mks tyms worse 4me (n few who i care abt arnd me)...well still cant help dat..dats hw its goin 2b.

3. not bein able 2get started wid working out.. jst wen i got goin.. gt bed ridden n dat2 4 long....

4. d hipocrisy n pretentious air arnd.. gets me suffocating n feel like ending it all .

5. not bein able 2 drive on my own .. n a fact of not bein able 2 ride my bike 4 a yr ... dat hurts.

6. not bein able 2 get all serious n using d who cares attitude 2much in my life.. probably shud b alil more serious.. but damn who cares.

7. being unable 2 mk my mind free f all arnd me 4 sm tym n getting sm peaceful relaxing thots... its all 2 jammed up rite now....

8. disgusting ppl who think dey r oversmart n can get der things done n probably mk use f ur resources 4 der own benefit.... knwin dis n still not being able 2 get rid 4 such ppl... 4 if its not much f a trbl 4 me will still do dem a favor evn knowin wot jerks dey gona turn out 2b later....

9. d exmz coming up n no preparation..besyds d final semester jst not seem 2b gettin ovr.. gota get ovr wid dis MCA n wid studies now... damn.. hv been studyin now 4 more dan 20 yrs now.. n still no gud... wot crap

(wonder y i let such stuff bother me but tym n again d stupid lil thigs come back 2 haunt me n feel lyk running away .. but dats no options eithr ...evry1 gta go thru der share f shit.. so do i)

9 Movies I would never say no to

1. notting hill- 1f d sweetest movies evr made...

2. tropic thunder- amazing comedy... probably d best ben stiller evr did...

3. dil chahta hai- dnt think need 2say nething abt dis 1

4. andaz apna apna- all tym fav.. dunno how many tyms hv watched it.. still find it funny

5. hmm now not technically a movie here... but d edward noton movies... from 'american history x' to 'the illusionist'.. dis guy does great work.. b it primal fear or the score or fight club .. u name it...

6. the departed- kill dicaprio n d movie is a sure shot hit... n jack nicholson is top notch in his costella act

7. the dark knight- probably d only batman movie dat i like

8. rock n rolla- talk style n dis is ur movie

9. BORAT- now dis is undbtedly 1f d most disgusting comedies evr made,, but get a grp f frnds n u gona hv a lafter roit watchin dis 1...n d guy who did dis borat act is ourstanding...

(again jst dat des movies came up in mind so jotted dem down here... bet der r many more.. specially d spoofs.. not all f dem but few r jst awesum)

9 things I plan to do in this week

1. well get over wid dis tag.. n am abt 2do dat so all gud.

2. kick off wid studies n do sm serious work.

3. get sm aim in life n decide wot i wan2 do wid it.... (well dats a thot not jst 4 dis week but rather 1 wich has been in n out f my mind tym n again...)

4. start up a healthy eating habit n cut out on d junk( again a life long funda n not jst 4d week).

5. not b botherd f d things(ppl) dat(dos) hv been or do bother me n b able 2 exist peacefully wid evry1 arnd.

6. catch up wid few close frnds n hv a gud tym wid  dem ..4getin all dat has been trbling n fucking up my brain(dis is 1 dat needs 2b done almost each week )

7. eat n drink n talk loud ...

8. well aftr cmpleting dis tag n wid certain ppl reading it.. myt jst gv me sm peice f der mind or rathr dey wud chose not 2 speak at all.. not dat am lookin 4wrd 2 it... or plan 2do.. but things mostly dnt hapn d way i plan dem 2b so... will c ...wot reactions i get... or get nothin at all.. probably loose wot i hv...

9. b a gud person n not bother n b rude 2 othrs.... (again smthing not only 4d week but 4 alwaz.. but dunno wen dat gona hapn)

9 sounds that annoy me

1. continuos honking wid stupid so calld fancy horns... irritate n annoy me like hell..feel like getin out n beating up dat fool

2. d tone f certain ppl speakin... der voice is really annoyin.. probably rude on my part but dats how it is.

3. d sound f paper rubbing of d chalk of blackboard.

4. d disturbance on d fone due 2 netwrk trbl n all.

5. d noise dat a crow makes.

6. newborns crying continuosly 4 no ryhme or reason.

7. d screeching sound f a table or chair bein dragged along d floor.

8. d noise f old furniture ..probably rusty old staircases.

9. loud n noisy snores...

9 reasons I love life right now

1. for wot all i hv in life..look at many arnd n feel am so privilgd 2hv d things ppl n life dat i hv.

2. gota go 2d colg as lil as possble n stay home sleep eat n rest.... feels gud.

3. hainvg frnds who r der 2 lift up my spirits wenevr am donw n out... n who dont botr 2 pik n drop me evn if dey gota go in cmplete oppo direction.. well dis is 1 thing wich mks me feel gud 4 der r ppl i can count on.. at d same tym feels bad 4 bothering dem so much all 4 my trbls.

4. d food n beverages dat r der 4me 2 savour..wot wud life b widout such delicacies arnd.

5. look 4 1n u will find many fools arnd who make dis life worth while living.. widout dem it all wud b so boring, again a rude thing 2 mk fun f ppl but den again wen ppl demselves act stupid n wierd ..der is not much u can do but hv a gud laf..

6. 4d family i hv n d frnd who r a family 4me outsyd my home.... cant think of life widout dem... 4 dey r d reason who keep me goin on

7. hv been in a pretty fuckd up frame f mind wid few f d most precisous ppl of late.. but wid things sorted out,, it feels gud...

8. being able 2 accompany ppl who r gems in evry aspct f life n getin 2 bfrnd dem..well certainly not smthing i wud hv thot of..(lets c 4 how long).

9. funny but true ..certain ppl at tyms seek my advc.. makes me feel gud,, as in can b f help 2 sm1.. it seems nice

(not bad actually came up wid 9 points)

9 traits I really admire in people

1. Honesty & loyalty- bein in ur face be it gud or bad... it means alot.. 2 speak in front f d person

2. respecting others n 1self...many arnd in order 2 respct n mk othrs feel gud... smtyms lose respct in der own not hapin

3. d quality f treating all alike irrespectv f who n 4m where dey r....

4. humility- again more or less like d previous 1s ...

5. strong character- no matter how stupid n funny 1 behaves ..but wen it gets dwn 2 character ... d1 who can hold der head up high ..hv gr8 amt f respct in my eye

6. friendliness- being able 2 mix up wid ppl easily n making new 1s arnd u comfrtable instantly is smthng not many can do.

7. a gud sense f humour- its needed 4d kind f life n tyms v r living in... genuine gud n not so ugly humour wich wont hurt sm1 is 1 qualty vry few ppl have... now laffin at cost f othrs.. not a humuor many wud approve of (hmm well i aint got no rite 2 say dis 4 i do it all d tym)

8. sm1 who can hold a grp of ppl togthr is sm1 i respct alot 4d person can mk ppl who r way apart 4m each othr 2gt along.. not an easy task

9. well dis 1 lemme say 4 frnds n not generally 4 ppl arnd me.. i genuinely respct n feel comfrtable wid frnds being alil informal wid each othr n not alwaz behavin in a vry dignified manner come on wid frnd u gota get lose n not b formal n cautious.. yes der r limits up2 wich u gota go.. but dats wot depends person 2 person... but at tyms cpl f frnd behve so formal dat it seems its jst a formal hi hello thing v hv arnd n wid such formality it makes me uncomfrtble n wonder if v r frnds or jst bunch f ppl hanging 2gthr.... 1 quality wot i admire in ppl who r 1 way or d othr  my gud frnds is dat dey can b free n informal n b cmfrtable wid me arnd dat i can b cmfrtble 2 .. at tyms it gets 2 formal n d fact dat v r frnds seems like an obligation.... on d contrary der r fools who r obligation 4me talk as if dey r d best f frnds n it pisses me off like hell...

9 things I see myself doing in the next five years

1. givin shit 2 ppl in der face as n wen i feel like.

2. havin d grp f frnds i do n cherish at d moment 4 5 yrs 4m now n alwaz.

3. being able 2 decide finally wot i wan2 do in life(probably shud do it b4 d tym f 5yrs)

4. earning gud money doin smthing dat i wud like 2do n am gud at.(stil dunno wot dats goin 2b)

5. becoming a gud person n having more peace widin.

6. finding dat 1 perfect woman n settling dwn in anthr 4 5 yrs.

7. being happy in evry aspect f life n getin 2c all dos who i care abt arnd me happy.

8. probably blogging evn more n more stuff .

9. havin d same ease n comfrt wid certain frnds dat i do now... hope it all remains d same...

9 things that annoy me

(now am adding dis on my own..jst feel like so here i tk d liberty again.. mayb not d best f things 2do.. but freedom f speech .. am makin use f it...)

1. ppl being all gud on ur face n talking shit behing u... hv balls dude.. talk on d face... ugot a problme wid    
    me... try talking 2me dan behind me

2. well said dis b4... frnds acting 2 formal n dignified,,, irritates me smtyms... but den wot am i sayin here ..dat d elegance n class ppl hv.. dey gota get rid f it?? ...yes dey do wen wid frnds... i dnt think 2wc at tyms 4 askin or rathr i tell my frnds 2 do stuff 4me.. funny thing... d more informal i can get.. d btrr is d frndship 4me... now dat doesnt means ppl shudnt b respcting each othr.....hmm nehw guess d1s who knw wot am speaking f will understnd, rest can remain all formal n classy... not smthing i fancy in frndship.. tho respct it immensely as a charactr in ppl as a person

3. ppl acting wierd wen photographs r bein taken n claiming of not bein so fotogenic.. well u aint gota b fotogenic 2 get clickd ..its abt d memories n tyms ppl capture in pic dan whtr u look gud or bad.... n go ahd n delete ur clickd pic... well annoyin n can b irritating.. but den again wid memories 2b captured... formalities need 2b kept aside n ppl gota b der free selves.. else d idea f clickin d keepin memories is nothing more dan a formality itself

4. ppl taklin f 1 thing n only 1 thing all d fuckin tym... 4 exmple say all u hv in life is dance dance dance.... seriously der is much more in life.. now i hv jst used an exmple nothing more.. no pun intended here

5. mean jackasses who act smart n think othrs dnt knw wot dey r up2.. u fool its evident n stop behavin like a jerk.

6. gud 4 nothin ppl showin der importnce in petty things dey hv control ovr.. bugger get out of d small pond ur living in n der is a world outsyd.

7. d fake attitude n d act f tryin 2b kool.. dunno wot gets 2 head f ppl n wot all dey will do 2 categorise demselves as kool.... but reality is u end up being fools.

8. ppl showin how busy dey r n workin4 othrs while d truth is dey r doin nothin d jst acting pricey.... go fuck urself morons...

9. finally d mr dude m miss dudette characters.... get a life

(now dey say dat am 2 rude n annoying at tyms myself n need 2 improve on dat... wid so many such advices arnd ... probably dey r correct in sayin so... but dats hw it is wid me.. a few readin des specifc 9 things mite jst feel like hitting me in d face or getin annoyd by me.. u hv all d rite in d world 2 do dat so go on my part no bad blood in it)

9 Bloggers I  tag

(now dis is again a task 4me.. 4 dunno who 9 am goin 2 tag.. cos most f d followers i hv seem 2hv alrdy done dis tag.. but still funny thing,, cos here i can den tag few ppl... who atlst r gud 4 smthing... cos few hardly seem 2b readin d post,,, it seems like its, u follow me n i follow u world rathr dan follow n read wot u like.. so am glad ...if not 4 readin d post... i can mk use in such tags f few bloggers here... now i follow sm blog 4 i like 2 read d post f d author n not 2 get d person 2 follow my links... so genuinly its not d i follw u n u follow or vice versa philosphy wid me.. ne1 doin dat is more dan welcome 2b offended by my rudeness n do as dey like...)

1. Puneet at

2. megha at

3. pooja at
4. girk next door at

5. rane at

6. vj sophie at

7. swati at

8. roshmi at

9 aditi at

(n c i cud tag 9 ppl... dats not bad at hv fun ppl..if u wan2 do d tags.. or ur free not 2do dem...jst dat i had 2 tag 9 n i did so.. now its ur call)

now am taggin few other ppl..or rather ne1 i follow or ne who follws me... in dis..... 4 its not d 8 tag rathr 9 tags :P :P... as 4 dos who hv alrdy cmpleted it well u can only do d part u hvnt in d previous post.. but u gota mk all ur 8 to hahahahahaha.. hv fun ..n am not givin any number now so as 2 keep d figure 9 intact... njoy

*monica at
*parul at
* happy birdie at
*kasabiangurl at
*sugandha at
*jalpari at