Saturday, November 7, 2009

liFE biRtH bLoOd DooM

"what is life, except excuse for death... n death is nothing but an escape from life"

some quote i found online... d circle f life n death... well known topic.. nothin new u guys gona find in dis post..

random n irrelevent connction between sm lines u myt feel.. but kept dis in drafts 4 long ... certain hapnin in d past got me started writin dis post.. so wot evr gets 2d brain.... , am jotin it dwn... all need not b related well .. jst d idea of life n death mite revolve thruout.. so hv fun

reading dis post u mite jst feel sad n go back in tym not like d feeling... but dats not my intention here.. tho i knw its no gud writin dis post .. i personally dont like readin such works wich r talkin abt reality n philosophical stuff.. rathr wud njoy readin smthing dat can mk me smile n get me laffing.. only felt like postin here .. so got down doin dis... now d concept f evrything dat starts gota end... all is perishable, nothin remains 4vr. how many tyms v hear dis n get across such fundas in life.. but still dnt want any such thing 2 hapn wid us.. v loose wots close 2 us .. smthin or sm1 v cant think f life widout.. but d fact is v still continue 2 live ... our tym is still not ovr.. n hence v gota go on till d tym is up 4 us...

d concept of attachment detachment is funny 4 me, smhw feel dat v human being as per our convnience get attachd n detachd as n wen requird... myt not b d case wid all , but most f us n dat % f ppl including me i feel ,r nothin but polishd hypocrites ... hw does hypocrcy works here,, i dunno.. probably foolin our own selves f how detachd v r .. while d truth mayb d othr way round... i personally am kind f a person who wont b affected much or b moved by news of death n all.. smhw it seems 2me dat evntually its gona hapn.. i dunno how 2 react if sm1 says der so n so died.. i dnt understnd y ppl say sorry wen dey hear f such news?? ok u feel sory 4d persons lose, but den again u dint do no nothin n der ws nothin u cud have had done 2 stop it.. y r v sory den??is dis has now become a standard way of behaving wen smthin like dat hapns... i 2 wud jst say d same thing probably cos v realy dnt knw wot 2 say... do v say 'dats sad'.. yes it is.. is der a point askin 'r u ok'.. no u fool defintly d person is not ok... n worse still evry 3rd person walkin in ask d same ques of 'how n wen ' it hapnd

d person is alrdy messed up in der grief n u wana knw how it all hapnd? y is dat?? guess wot else do v ask den.. so standard set things ppl say n do at such situations n dats how it all goes...

now ppl wont eat, as in wen sm1 expires arnd dem.... dey wont feel like goin ne whr aftr getin 2knw such news... dey instantly get sad n feel its all over ... n dis is not dat sm near n dear 2 dem died.. but any1 dey knew 4m smwhr... dats bein sensitv 2d news n behaving like a human being i guess... but dis is wot gets me wondering... mayb smthin wrong wid me?? am i 2 insensitve 2wards ppl n life ?? cos if i get 2 hear such news .. i tend 2 b in d same frame f mind dat i ws proir 2 it.. i wnt stop eatin.. or stop wot i ws goin 2do d next moment...well dats me....

dey say as v grow up, v ourselves start understndin wots hapnin arnd.. v become more n more sensitv 2 such tyms.... but dunno wots wrong wid me.. i hear news of sm1 passing away n am unmoved... b it sm1 i barely knew.. or sm1 i knew well.. or sm1 i dint know at all.. its d same reaction 4 me... 'OK' .. does dat means am 2 insensitv 2b a human bein ?? i hope not... does dat means losing ne1 close 2me wont affct me eithr.. i feel not... cos d idea f losing sm1 who mttrs 2me,, mks me jittery.. knowin its all gona end n death is d final destination of life.. wich v all will 1 day or d othr reach,, but d only way i feel i can cope up wid losing my dear 1s is dat i die b4 dat.. dats how strong n detached i am... or how insecure n weak i am.. hmm dats only 4 tym 2 tell..... but its funny cos smhw i cannot relate 2 any situations or ceremonies wich mk ppl go on extremes... i dnt like goin 2 cremenations.. n i dnt like attendin marriages eithr.. but at tyms v r complied 2do so... der is no comparison btween d emotions invld in d 2 ceremonies.. but neithr of dem mks me feel like bein der.. call me weird but dat hw it is 4me...antisocial mayb.. but wot can i do if such emotions dnt come natural 2me.. or mayb i'v conditiond myself wid tym..not 2 react much n b cold 2 all such evnts... tho smtyms it shakes me bad.... imagine v decide not 2 get in touch wid sm1 again in our live n less v knw , it jst mite b d case... how does it feels wen u hv argumnt wid sm1.. u develop  grudges 4 certain ppl n decide 2 stay away 4m dem 4 alwaz... but if it so hapns dat u get d news d der demise .... how do u feel.. its like d last confrontation wid dat person ws a fite.... now d person is gone 4 real n in dis life v arnt getin in touch again wid dem.. (xactly wot v decideed,, only not dis way),wot if v feel smwhr it ws our fault n shud hv got d records strait wid dat person.. or evn if it ws dat both d parties were at fault, wot gud is it doin 2 dcyd not 2 get in each odrs way in dis life tym ?? so v dcyd 2 set things asyd but b4 v knw.. its 2 late now.. n wot r v left wid,,, a guilt insyd cursing our ownselves ..d last words u had wid d person were smthin dat jst myt haunt u 4evr.... so jst 2 mk sure no such thing hapns..shud v b leting morons be demselves d bearing wid dem.. cos v dnt want 2 regrets later??? or do v doom dem 2 hell n keep dem asyd , live our lives peacefully???   den der r chances f u hatin a person n evry1 knws wot d jerk he/she ws in der lifetym but wen dey die.. well ,,,all go on sayin wot a wonderfull person he or she ws.... n how dey wud b missd.. but bringing forth d truth wud b rude n bad.. 4 not 2 tk bad of sm1 who is dead... isnt it so? but wen d person ws alive.. curse him/her like hell.. wot a wonderfull concept v ppl have... respect d dead n mock d living...

sm say d ultimate way f life is bein detachd n not feeling nethin.. but lyk i said v nvr knw wen n wot will get us attchd 2 it or dem.. lookin at d world arnd wot do v get 2 keep wid us... wot all can v possbly gain... in d same aspct... wot can v possbly loose....hmm heavy stuff isnt it ... n dnt v all like 2 talk n sound philosophical.. but hw many f us practice wot v preach?? i dbt not many.. 

dnt hv much 2 rite now... guess wud leave dis here only.. dis mite b 1f d short post 4d readers .. so wont get dem complaining...