Sunday, May 16, 2010

My Jekyll Doesn't Hide

stautionary warning: dis post is going 2b reminiscence of my older post....old wine in new bottle types,nothin new in it.. jst dat hvnt posted 4 long so thot will post smthing :P


smtym during my junior school day i read dis amazing story wich still fascinates me .. the story of DR JEKYLL and MR HIDE.. tho i dnt remmbr d whole story but d idea f how 1 small portion can change d respctful educated doctor in2 a lost soul rathr a wickd creature at nite is evil.. awesum isnt it...tho 2day i wonder do v really need ne such portion 2 turn in2 1such creature,, b it day or nite?? or is it sm portion dat v require so dat v can b othrWISE... PHILOSOPHY :P .. i so love d subject..specially wen i get 2 gv it 2 ppl.. n bsyds been long now since i last posted smthing her on d blogsphere... (not dat i hv disappointed ne f my fans here :P.. but still) so thot y not jott dwn smthing... this track title seemd nice thot wud mk it d title 4d post..

its been awhile n nothin really has been coming 2my head.. well actually nothing really worthwhile posting here.. d head had hundreds f things flickering evyday.. jst not having d peace 2 sort dem out.. n no hope seems 2b on d way for dat in d near future.. so gota let things b n tym play its part.. v all want d perfect world 4 ourselves n keep searchin 4 it all d tym.. smtyms v evn think v jst myt hv got dat .. but b4 v realise its tym 2 move on... in practicalty dat perfect world doesnt exists.. no mattr how hard u try 2 find it u can nvr keep it d way it is... like dey say change is d only constant ,,, so b it.. i blv in d "tym cycle" or "samay ka chakra" shud i say,, 4 wenevr thing arnt goin d rite way 4 me.. i like 2 blv tym will show d way n der is nothing dat i can do 2 mk things rite... more or less d philosphy of let tym tk control f it , is wot keeps me goin.. but dunno wen d tym mite play d spoil sport n throw d short ball wich i wnt b able 2 avoid.. well as i blv ... tym will tk cr f evn dat :P :P..

nehw coming back 2d title f d post.. wot i thot f posting here...

now for smtym (shud hv named d post tym n again or smthing like dat mayb ,nvrdless) i hv been noticing or shud i say hv been made 2 notice or realise a certain trend dat i hv had in my life for long now... i like 2 blv dis is how i hv alwaz been... but off late 2 many ppl hv been tryin 2 mk me realise how i'v been (n do i care abt des suggestion n realizations?? well dnt think i do.. but still am posting here for it seemd nice topic 2 squeeze a post out f it :P.. so gota thnx dos ppl for dis...) i am made 2 blv or shud i say i blv ;p.. dat wid me arnd der is no conversation dat remains a conversation.. n more dan often it changes in2 an argument or debate.. n bttr still (4 me atlst) it winds up wid me having d last word ;p almost alwaz.. now is it dat am gud or is it dat am suferring 4m sm disorder 2 hv d last say all d tym .. or is it sm escape routine dat i mite b on2 widout realising it... phewww dats heavy.. nvr gave it a thot but writing here it seems scary,,,, but its more scary 4d ppl arnd dan me so all gud :P or is it??? ... not many r able r handle d pressure n more dan often dey tk d back seat... a frnd rathr EX frnd once said i'll keep losing all my frnds if i dnt stop dis habit f mine... for wich i blv if my frnds cant handle my flaw (like she wud hv had liked me 2 blv it dat its a flaw) den dey arnt my frnds in d 1st place... 4me its like if u wont ovrlook a persons flaws u can nvr bfrnd dem... d sole reason y v r frnds wid ppl dat v r frnds wid is becos v dnt mind der flaws or d odr syd.. but rathr blv in dem n njy d tyms wid dem... u wnt get d diamond till u dig deep in d coal mine :P.. off course u can get d polishd custom made 1 at d stores but u gota pay heavy materialistc price 4it n dey r polishd not in d raw form.... but d 1 u find in d coal mine by all ur efforts is d 1 u gona cherish evn more... dat cost wudnt b materialstc :P :P.. (and i cant help but tap myself on d back 4 dis philosophy :P :P,, excuse me 4 dat)

sarcasm n comments have become synonomous wid me now.. well dey hv alwaz been der wid me.. for me bsyds me ;p... but guess now its pinching ppl 2 much... n worst still as dey wud feel (bttr still like i wud say) it doesnt mttrs 2me if dey get pissed of... now i knw am gona get sm gyan 4 dis.. well hv been getin in d near past 2 (hmm near past sounds wierd..).. but still if ppl cant stop acting like morons n jackasses,, dey dnt expect me 2 stop torturing dem.. for dey get wot dey gv .... poor souls dey r ... for dey blv i can only strip ppl off der dignity... wot dey dont realise is .. dey alrdy r naked in dat deprtmnt... LOL n i dnt say it out f arrogance .. but i say dis 4 i hv ppl n frnds arnd who hv been der n ovrlookd d flaws (if it is i still wud say :P) n dey knw how it is wen i praise ppl.. like d post title says... MY JEKYLL doesnt HIDE... u act like an asshole arnd me n i'll b ur worst nitemare... u dnt b 1 n u'ill c i aint dat bad aftr all... well i wnt b bad but u still will b an asshole deep dwn insyd so no use...

all des philosphies hv been working fine 4 me uptill now... :-/ stepping in2 d corporate world has changed a thing or two in less dan 3 months... dunno how long n d jekyll 2 hide transition wud b complete on me... playin ofyc ofyc sure isnt easy... getin in d mud 2 wrestle d pig u hv 2 get dirty .. evn if u try 2 stay out f it.. still ur arnd n d splashes will get u dirty... no mattr where u plan 2 run away its all arnd... only d mud puddle n pigs r diff... n dey r literally licking d arse f ones in front f dem... not a game am gona play... nvr played it nvr will... dey say survival f d fittest .. u not gona get fit by licking assess assholes..

its funny how ppl change der colors in a split sec ... dis art has baffeled me alwaz.. but i nvr had 2 tk such crap in life... n now gota think 2wc b4 getin d thots across... dat scares me... gota device d ways 2 b mr hide wen in d corporate n dr jekyll wen out in d normal world... but often d portion plays 4 long n b4 v knw its mr hide who has taken ovr in all aspects f life....

evry1 has sm1 sitting on top of dem wid a stick in hand 2 spank (:p)  or d way it goes 2day bamboo 2 ahhmmm ahhmmm... nehw dats not imp how u address d issue.. wot imp is y tk dat bamboo or stick or any crap... ?? nw here d old refuge "tym "comes in2 its tricky mode n mks u do wot u nvr thot u will... all our lives v keep working hard 2 get in2 d corporate n once in der it gets evn worse.. atlst dats wot my 2 odd months f corpor8 life suggets.. now its not dat bad eithr... for i like 2 blv things cud hv been evn worse... n alwaz picture d worst case scenario 2 mk myself content wid wot is arnd... but den nostalgia f d tyms n ppl 4m dat once existent perfect world mks me wonder where am i n doin wot??

hmm how did i start n where am i goin now... (i mean 2 say dat 4d flow f d post :P) guess shud stop now.. else i'll get bored writing 4gt abt ppl reading dis... so gues aftr a long hibernation like a fellow blogger said... here is my latest post :P... dunno wen d nxt instalment wil surface.. tho ending dis smthing has alrdy croppd up in d mind.. not on des lines smthin dat most f d ppl who read my posts knw... but still myt b fun givin d photographc insite on it... chalo till den dis is all i got...

P.S. i dnt think i can stop d habit f commenting .. its deep down insyd f me ;p... bsyds i blv d 1s who cant match  d wit end up sulking sayin evrything is a topic f debate or argumnt 4me.. for der r d 1s who njy des discussions n more dan often end up outwitting me n having d last words.. :P

9 comments:

monica said...

Way tooo long...but that is ur style...take it or leave it right! Statutory warning does not hold...i think this was a new wine in new bottle. Your philosophical doses jolt one out of the fanatical slumbers."samay ka chakra" funda is a nice one..jst witness the theatrical life and let it take its turns and overcome speed breakers smoothly.

I guess even i have pointed out this debate thing to you at times. It's a talent i believe and am awed by it. Wish i could argue and put forth my points every time rather than taking a back seat.

monica said...

The pig and 'licking asses' para is amusing. I have seen it all around in schools, colleges and now office but the way you have give words and phrases ahemm...liked those.

Sahi ha...this one did jolt me out of my carbo induced laziness and hence am commenting on it.
Want these doses every weekend :)

Puneet said...

Welcome back man! It has sure been long. And by the look of it, you've gone through some tough shit since you last wrote. Ah well, all I can say is, welcome to the ass licking, mud slinging, jealousy enriching, abuse hurling, life hating monotony called office life! heh, maybe not all of that is true (because it could be worse). My remedy: Get hold of an awesome lookin chic in office. Eat with her, drink with her, drool at her, jointly throw abuse at your boss with her, and then just hope that things become likable in office. (I bet it will, If the girl is super model material)

sobhit said...

@monica - samay ka chakra ki itni analysis toh mujhe bhi ni pata thi.. tune insight de di isme mujhe toh :P.. n u sure were lazy in commnting.. eat less f d carbs.. n pigie pigies toh ppl playin 4 long now .. only cud stay away as yet but not now.. as 4u n debating thing.. dats wot i metioned in d PS section... ur f d very few who can hv a last word n mk me tk d backseat :P

Roshmi Sinha said...

Finally you have come out of hibernation with a signature post!

And quite a philosophical one too... but then that is life. Without all its contradictions and negativities it would be quite boring, no??? ;)

"if u wont ovrlook a persons flaws u can nvr bfrnd dem"

Very apt!

P.S. Hope to see you more regularly @ blogersville going forward :)

suruchi said...

Hi Sobhit...
We don’t really need to change if we think and believe that we are right!
A good conversationalist is hard to come by...
Most people don’t know what to say after they have used their monosyllables...
So be proud of the fact that you strike up some spark with what you say...
And regarding you having the last laugh...
Maybe you are good and made a more valid point!
If you think not....then give the other some space...

If you think you do...give a damn to what others say!
True friends anyways, don’t mind how we are!
They are just there...no matter what!

Great to see a post after so long...I hope the trend continues!

Parul said...

Sorry for the delay ya... Dont even deserve to say that i guess. Have missed out on posts and all because of my lazy old self. Anyhow better sometime than never.. :)

So, for starters :P Long it is :P But a great read! Marks your comeback. A very philosophical post, kafi baatein to aisi kar jata hai jo mere level se toh upar hoti hai. About the problems at work place who better than you can guide, m witness to it :P Its helping me, honestly ;)
Try ignoring things, if they bother you so much be it your workplace or somthing else, thats my funda for life. Baki ye office politics i dont like to comment on it all :P been there seen it :P
So hav fun, and post regularly unlike me :)
Cheers!

Vip said...

bai waah. Phir haath mein sharaab hai, sach bolta hoon main!

Rajat Anand said...

good..get rid of this sms style writing..baaki content toh achha hai..

aur corporate world ke baare mein i told u...u remember wo mere manager ki C****panti n all...

totally agree with puneet's comments