stautionary warning: dis post is going 2b reminiscence of my older post....old wine in new bottle types,nothin new in it.. jst dat hvnt posted 4 long so thot will post smthing :P
smtym during my junior school day i read dis amazing story wich still fascinates me .. the story of DR JEKYLL and MR HIDE.. tho i dnt remmbr d whole story but d idea f how 1 small portion can change d respctful educated doctor in2 a lost soul rathr a wickd creature at nite is evil.. awesum isnt it...tho 2day i wonder do v really need ne such portion 2 turn in2 1such creature,, b it day or nite?? or is it sm portion dat v require so dat v can b othrWISE... PHILOSOPHY :P .. i so love d subject..specially wen i get 2 gv it 2 ppl.. n bsyds been long now since i last posted smthing her on d blogsphere... (not dat i hv disappointed ne f my fans here :P.. but still) so thot y not jott dwn smthing... this track title seemd nice thot wud mk it d title 4d post..
its been awhile n nothin really has been coming 2my head.. well actually nothing really worthwhile posting here.. d head had hundreds f things flickering evyday.. jst not having d peace 2 sort dem out.. n no hope seems 2b on d way for dat in d near future.. so gota let things b n tym play its part.. v all want d perfect world 4 ourselves n keep searchin 4 it all d tym.. smtyms v evn think v jst myt hv got dat .. but b4 v realise its tym 2 move on... in practicalty dat perfect world doesnt exists.. no mattr how hard u try 2 find it u can nvr keep it d way it is... like dey say change is d only constant ,,, so b it.. i blv in d "tym cycle" or "samay ka chakra" shud i say,, 4 wenevr thing arnt goin d rite way 4 me.. i like 2 blv tym will show d way n der is nothing dat i can do 2 mk things rite... more or less d philosphy of let tym tk control f it , is wot keeps me goin.. but dunno wen d tym mite play d spoil sport n throw d short ball wich i wnt b able 2 avoid.. well as i blv ... tym will tk cr f evn dat :P :P..
nehw coming back 2d title f d post.. wot i thot f posting here...
now for smtym (shud hv named d post tym n again or smthing like dat mayb ,nvrdless) i hv been noticing or shud i say hv been made 2 notice or realise a certain trend dat i hv had in my life for long now... i like 2 blv dis is how i hv alwaz been... but off late 2 many ppl hv been tryin 2 mk me realise how i'v been (n do i care abt des suggestion n realizations?? well dnt think i do.. but still am posting here for it seemd nice topic 2 squeeze a post out f it :P.. so gota thnx dos ppl for dis...) i am made 2 blv or shud i say i blv ;p.. dat wid me arnd der is no conversation dat remains a conversation.. n more dan often it changes in2 an argument or debate.. n bttr still (4 me atlst) it winds up wid me having d last word ;p almost alwaz.. now is it dat am gud or is it dat am suferring 4m sm disorder 2 hv d last say all d tym .. or is it sm escape routine dat i mite b on2 widout realising it... phewww dats heavy.. nvr gave it a thot but writing here it seems scary,,,, but its more scary 4d ppl arnd dan me so all gud :P or is it??? ... not many r able r handle d pressure n more dan often dey tk d back seat... a frnd rathr EX frnd once said i'll keep losing all my frnds if i dnt stop dis habit f mine... for wich i blv if my frnds cant handle my flaw (like she wud hv had liked me 2 blv it dat its a flaw) den dey arnt my frnds in d 1st place... 4me its like if u wont ovrlook a persons flaws u can nvr bfrnd dem... d sole reason y v r frnds wid ppl dat v r frnds wid is becos v dnt mind der flaws or d odr syd.. but rathr blv in dem n njy d tyms wid dem... u wnt get d diamond till u dig deep in d coal mine :P.. off course u can get d polishd custom made 1 at d stores but u gota pay heavy materialistc price 4it n dey r polishd not in d raw form.... but d 1 u find in d coal mine by all ur efforts is d 1 u gona cherish evn more... dat cost wudnt b materialstc :P :P.. (and i cant help but tap myself on d back 4 dis philosophy :P :P,, excuse me 4 dat)
sarcasm n comments have become synonomous wid me now.. well dey hv alwaz been der wid me.. for me bsyds me ;p... but guess now its pinching ppl 2 much... n worst still as dey wud feel (bttr still like i wud say) it doesnt mttrs 2me if dey get pissed of... now i knw am gona get sm gyan 4 dis.. well hv been getin in d near past 2 (hmm near past sounds wierd..).. but still if ppl cant stop acting like morons n jackasses,, dey dnt expect me 2 stop torturing dem.. for dey get wot dey gv .... poor souls dey r ... for dey blv i can only strip ppl off der dignity... wot dey dont realise is .. dey alrdy r naked in dat deprtmnt... LOL n i dnt say it out f arrogance .. but i say dis 4 i hv ppl n frnds arnd who hv been der n ovrlookd d flaws (if it is i still wud say :P) n dey knw how it is wen i praise ppl.. like d post title says... MY JEKYLL doesnt HIDE... u act like an asshole arnd me n i'll b ur worst nitemare... u dnt b 1 n u'ill c i aint dat bad aftr all... well i wnt b bad but u still will b an asshole deep dwn insyd so no use...
all des philosphies hv been working fine 4 me uptill now... :-/ stepping in2 d corporate world has changed a thing or two in less dan 3 months... dunno how long n d jekyll 2 hide transition wud b complete on me... playin ofyc ofyc sure isnt easy... getin in d mud 2 wrestle d pig u hv 2 get dirty .. evn if u try 2 stay out f it.. still ur arnd n d splashes will get u dirty... no mattr where u plan 2 run away its all arnd... only d mud puddle n pigs r diff... n dey r literally licking d arse f ones in front f dem... not a game am gona play... nvr played it nvr will... dey say survival f d fittest .. u not gona get fit by licking assess assholes..
its funny how ppl change der colors in a split sec ... dis art has baffeled me alwaz.. but i nvr had 2 tk such crap in life... n now gota think 2wc b4 getin d thots across... dat scares me... gota device d ways 2 b mr hide wen in d corporate n dr jekyll wen out in d normal world... but often d portion plays 4 long n b4 v knw its mr hide who has taken ovr in all aspects f life....
evry1 has sm1 sitting on top of dem wid a stick in hand 2 spank (:p) or d way it goes 2day bamboo 2 ahhmmm ahhmmm... nehw dats not imp how u address d issue.. wot imp is y tk dat bamboo or stick or any crap... ?? nw here d old refuge "tym "comes in2 its tricky mode n mks u do wot u nvr thot u will... all our lives v keep working hard 2 get in2 d corporate n once in der it gets evn worse.. atlst dats wot my 2 odd months f corpor8 life suggets.. now its not dat bad eithr... for i like 2 blv things cud hv been evn worse... n alwaz picture d worst case scenario 2 mk myself content wid wot is arnd... but den nostalgia f d tyms n ppl 4m dat once existent perfect world mks me wonder where am i n doin wot??
hmm how did i start n where am i goin now... (i mean 2 say dat 4d flow f d post :P) guess shud stop now.. else i'll get bored writing 4gt abt ppl reading dis... so gues aftr a long hibernation like a fellow blogger said... here is my latest post :P... dunno wen d nxt instalment wil surface.. tho ending dis smthing has alrdy croppd up in d mind.. not on des lines smthin dat most f d ppl who read my posts knw... but still myt b fun givin d photographc insite on it... chalo till den dis is all i got...
P.S. i dnt think i can stop d habit f commenting .. its deep down insyd f me ;p... bsyds i blv d 1s who cant match d wit end up sulking sayin evrything is a topic f debate or argumnt 4me.. for der r d 1s who njy des discussions n more dan often end up outwitting me n having d last words.. :P
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! congratulations n celebrations....
well had nothin 2 blog of late things arnt such dat need 2b blogged down... rather dey shud disappear smwhre in d long lost world but still dats how life is goin 2b still 2 start 4 most f us
nehw dis post isnt meant 2b abt me or how things r wid me... dis is 1f a kind u'il find on my link here..
happy brithday 2 my neice :D...
18th jan dis year she turned a whole year old :)... seems like jst yestday she ws brand new looking like dis
n now jst 2 days ago she ws cutting her 1st beday cake.. well not really d 1st 1.. she has been cuttin cakes 4 each month of completion so guess dis ws 1 thing she hs alrdy perfectd 2 perfection :P
now i can still remmbr her 4m d days she wud lie curled up, n evry1 arnd wud b waiting 2 get 1 glimpse f her wen she opens d eyes, 4 most f tym early dos days she wud b sleeping curled up like all d kiddos... infants rathr
am scared of kids, n vice versa, we have dis mutual thing dat dey r scared f me n am not very comfrtble arnd dem eithr, n it ws d same wid my neice 2, i dint gathred d courage 2 pik her up in my arms .. not b4 she ws 6months old... dat to 4 a min or so i held her , trust me dat ws one f dos very tense minutes f my life, now am not gud wid delicate things.. n wot more delicate dan a cute lil kiddo, ws so scared if i wud drop her or held her 2 hard dat she mite cry... so alwaz admired her 4m a certain distance dat made me n her comfrtable, i said mutual 4 she 2 wud run away n hide herself in comfrt f her mommy or her mommy's mommy .. i dnt blame d poor kid 4 dat, 4 often evn grown up adults get intimidatd by me leave asyds infants... n am not jst sayin dat.. it is d case,,, i remmber meeting an old tym school frnd aftr 3 4 yrs while she ws takin a stroll in d park... n d way her mom gt scared thinking who is dis guy n y does my daughter knw his :P haha ya dats wot ws written on her face... tho smhw i find dat amussing :P ..i still do
so nvrmind d frnd's mom 4 d lady f d moment is sm1 else,,, sm1 who now is not scared f me anymore,, guess she has matured enuf n accptd d fact dat her uncle (mama) is alwaz goin 2b wierd like dis :P so now she does runs away rather sports a wide spread smile looking at me.. dat 1 smile of a child ,,wot wonders it does v all knw... only wen u knw d kid is smiling 4u it mks ur day evn bttr :D...
ws fun 2 watch her try n sit in her early day(well evn still she in in early days but a yr old nvrdless) but fall 2d side like dat humpty dumpty toy :P.. i knw sm mite say how rude or mean 2 compare her like dis but d fact is it ws so CUTE... ,,, wen she startd goin wayward in her walker jst bumping in2 random stuff n still b laffing cheerfull... no wonder d expression" laf like a child ".. i smhw relate 2d expression more now... cos seeing is blving :P... wonders happn n sure dey keep on hapnin wid a kid arnd... her 1st brday n she ws standing (wid a lil support negligble tho)by herself.... waiting 4d day her crawls wud b convertd 2 lil walks... d small lil words she has learnd 2 mummble... MAMA ..PAPAIYA... BUA NANA... words v hear all our life but d same coming out f her mouth makes dem priceless,, my folks sit 4 hrs ovr d fone wen she is not arnd jst 2 listen 2 des small words 4m her n dat brightens d atmosphere arnd.. tho i find dat pretty lame :-/.. still dat lil voice on d speaker makes me smile 2 :D.. n ya i jst love n cant find nething more adorable wen she sneezes :P :P...its awesum... tho wish d cold (n odr such stuff)stay away 4m her
1 lilttle kiddo n she can capture any no f ppl in d house ,she sits in d middle n has all arnd her jst wantin 2 say der name or mk a gesture 2wrds dem or jst smile at dem.. am lucky 2 get alot f smiles 4m her... :) n often she mks u laf hard loud... does her routine of poo poo n pee pee n wen her mom will scold her 4 spoliling d clothes she wil laf n hv dat glint in d eye ..as if sayin hehe u clean my poo poo i'll jst lie here n laf :P... smtyms feels she is goin 2 grow up in2 very mischievious kiddo n y not she is alrdy pamperd 2 ervy possble extent .... loves d outdoors, jst any1 who can tk her out 4a walk,,she literally jumps in2 der arms.. n refuses 2 get dwn,, also will start crying if u stop roaming n sit dwn or stand still...
dey say kids knw all d secrets f life n death n till d tym d kiddo starts 2 speak he/she remmbers al f his/her pastlife.. evry act dey do, evry way dey behave dey r very much aware of wot dey r up2.. only cant express in words,, n slowly dis memory starts evading dem n b4 dey start 2 speak dey have der brains as brand new hard disk wid no bakcup.. dunno how much fact or fiction is associated wid dis funda.. but 1 thing 4sure kids sure knw n can sense d atmosphere arnd dem... 4 if dey knw dey r bein scolded in real dey mk d puppy face or der innocent face.. well kids alwaz look innocent .. only wot do i say wen talkin f 1.. nehw whtr der memory holds d secret or not.. 1 secret dey sure hold ,, d secret f makin ppl arnd happy on any occassion n in any circumstances.. 4 1smile n d day is goin 2b fine.. any tym f d day things go dwn jst gota b reminded f dat smling toothless jaw :P... n ya she has 6 teeth now btw..4 in d upper jaw n 2 in d middle of d bottom 1... no more d POOPLI smile...... still it does wonders :)
well c told u i did manage 2 hold her now.. only in dis particular pic she refused 2 smile :(... seems still gets scared wen comes 2 close in proximity wid my beard mayb... cos she smiles really big jst looking at me.. or mayb laffs thinkin "kya mama insaan ban jao :P apke baal toh mujhse bhi lambe hai hehe"
dunno wot goes on her mind
another picture f her ... wid d tongue teasing all arnd sayin am d kiddo :P :P... LUV U KIDDO
she is goin 2 celebr8 her day dis saturday nite big tym only i guess i'll miss dat :(... but looking at d postv side its jst 1f d starting brdays 4her ... but she is goin 2b special on all her brday 4vr... GOD BLESS n damn am growing old....
AND also... dis is not jst 1 reason 2 post 2day.. remmberd a song 4m school tym it went
if ur happy n u knw it clap ur hands
if ur happy n u knw it clap ur hands
if ur hand n u knw it n u really wan2 show it
if ur happy n u knw it clap ur hands...
CLAP CLAP CLAP
2 of my dearest friends got placed 2day :D... CONGRATULATIONS 2 both f dem ... u mk me proud:P :P...it feels happy wen ppl who deserve things n r well worthy f dem get dem...n am really glad 2day 4 not only des2 desrvd being placed dey r cpl f close few 4m d colg 4me... both f dem placed 2ghtr at d same firm n wot bttr finally a workplace near der home :P all des yrs dey had 2 travel places 2 reach colg n made words like puntuality n regularity mk sense 4me.. tho i still cudnt mk use f dem evn aftr getin d meaing well :P :P....
well congrats ladies n keep smiling :D so,
CLAP CLAP CLAP
STOMP STOMP STOMP
TURN AROUND 3 times...
well d 1s who knw d song will knw wot am sayin rest can clap stomp or turn arnd or jst leave a commnt readin dis :P :P...
so congratualtions 2my sweet little kiddo 4 turning an yr old,,, n congrats 2d 2 ladies 4 turning a new stone in der lives n makin a new start 4 dem selves... celebration 4 dem n ME 4 having such wonderfull ppl arnd
3 CHEERS!!!
Saturday, November 7, 2009
liFE biRtH bLoOd DooM
"what is life, except excuse for death... n death is nothing but an escape from life"
some quote i found online... d circle f life n death... well known topic.. nothin new u guys gona find in dis post..
random n irrelevent connction between sm lines u myt feel.. but kept dis in drafts 4 long ... certain hapnin in d past got me started writin dis post.. so wot evr gets 2d brain.... , am jotin it dwn... all need not b related well .. jst d idea of life n death mite revolve thruout.. so hv fun
reading dis post u mite jst feel sad n go back in tym not like d feeling... but dats not my intention here.. tho i knw its no gud writin dis post .. i personally dont like readin such works wich r talkin abt reality n philosophical stuff.. rathr wud njoy readin smthing dat can mk me smile n get me laffing.. only felt like postin here .. so got down doin dis... now d concept f evrything dat starts gota end... all is perishable, nothin remains 4vr. how many tyms v hear dis n get across such fundas in life.. but still dnt want any such thing 2 hapn wid us.. v loose wots close 2 us .. smthin or sm1 v cant think f life widout.. but d fact is v still continue 2 live ... our tym is still not ovr.. n hence v gota go on till d tym is up 4 us...
d concept of attachment detachment is funny 4 me, smhw feel dat v human being as per our convnience get attachd n detachd as n wen requird... myt not b d case wid all , but most f us n dat % f ppl including me i feel ,r nothin but polishd hypocrites ... hw does hypocrcy works here,, i dunno.. probably foolin our own selves f how detachd v r .. while d truth mayb d othr way round... i personally am kind f a person who wont b affected much or b moved by news of death n all.. smhw it seems 2me dat evntually its gona hapn.. i dunno how 2 react if sm1 says der so n so died.. i dnt understnd y ppl say sorry wen dey hear f such news?? ok u feel sory 4d persons lose, but den again u dint do no nothin n der ws nothin u cud have had done 2 stop it.. y r v sory den??is dis has now become a standard way of behaving wen smthin like dat hapns... i 2 wud jst say d same thing probably cos v realy dnt knw wot 2 say... do v say 'dats sad'.. yes it is.. is der a point askin 'r u ok'.. no u fool defintly d person is not ok... n worse still evry 3rd person walkin in ask d same ques of 'how n wen ' it hapnd
d person is alrdy messed up in der grief n u wana knw how it all hapnd? y is dat?? guess wot else do v ask den.. so standard set things ppl say n do at such situations n dats how it all goes...
now ppl wont eat, as in wen sm1 expires arnd dem.... dey wont feel like goin ne whr aftr getin 2knw such news... dey instantly get sad n feel its all over ... n dis is not dat sm near n dear 2 dem died.. but any1 dey knew 4m smwhr... dats bein sensitv 2d news n behaving like a human being i guess... but dis is wot gets me wondering... mayb smthin wrong wid me?? am i 2 insensitve 2wards ppl n life ?? cos if i get 2 hear such news .. i tend 2 b in d same frame f mind dat i ws proir 2 it.. i wnt stop eatin.. or stop wot i ws goin 2do d next moment...well dats me....
dey say as v grow up, v ourselves start understndin wots hapnin arnd.. v become more n more sensitv 2 such tyms.... but dunno wots wrong wid me.. i hear news of sm1 passing away n am unmoved... b it sm1 i barely knew.. or sm1 i knew well.. or sm1 i dint know at all.. its d same reaction 4 me... 'OK' .. does dat means am 2 insensitv 2b a human bein ?? i hope not... does dat means losing ne1 close 2me wont affct me eithr.. i feel not... cos d idea f losing sm1 who mttrs 2me,, mks me jittery.. knowin its all gona end n death is d final destination of life.. wich v all will 1 day or d othr reach,, but d only way i feel i can cope up wid losing my dear 1s is dat i die b4 dat.. dats how strong n detached i am... or how insecure n weak i am.. hmm dats only 4 tym 2 tell..... but its funny cos smhw i cannot relate 2 any situations or ceremonies wich mk ppl go on extremes... i dnt like goin 2 cremenations.. n i dnt like attendin marriages eithr.. but at tyms v r complied 2do so... der is no comparison btween d emotions invld in d 2 ceremonies.. but neithr of dem mks me feel like bein der.. call me weird but dat hw it is 4me...antisocial mayb.. but wot can i do if such emotions dnt come natural 2me.. or mayb i'v conditiond myself wid tym..not 2 react much n b cold 2 all such evnts... tho smtyms it shakes me bad.... imagine v decide not 2 get in touch wid sm1 again in our live n less v knw , it jst mite b d case... how does it feels wen u hv argumnt wid sm1.. u develop grudges 4 certain ppl n decide 2 stay away 4m dem 4 alwaz... but if it so hapns dat u get d news d der demise .... how do u feel.. its like d last confrontation wid dat person ws a fite.... now d person is gone 4 real n in dis life v arnt getin in touch again wid dem.. (xactly wot v decideed,, only not dis way),wot if v feel smwhr it ws our fault n shud hv got d records strait wid dat person.. or evn if it ws dat both d parties were at fault, wot gud is it doin 2 dcyd not 2 get in each odrs way in dis life tym ?? so v dcyd 2 set things asyd but b4 v knw.. its 2 late now.. n wot r v left wid,,, a guilt insyd cursing our ownselves ..d last words u had wid d person were smthin dat jst myt haunt u 4evr.... so jst 2 mk sure no such thing hapns..shud v b leting morons be demselves d bearing wid dem.. cos v dnt want 2 regrets later??? or do v doom dem 2 hell n keep dem asyd , live our lives peacefully??? den der r chances f u hatin a person n evry1 knws wot d jerk he/she ws in der lifetym but wen dey die.. well ,,,all go on sayin wot a wonderfull person he or she ws.... n how dey wud b missd.. but bringing forth d truth wud b rude n bad.. 4 not 2 tk bad of sm1 who is dead... isnt it so? but wen d person ws alive.. curse him/her like hell.. wot a wonderfull concept v ppl have... respect d dead n mock d living...
sm say d ultimate way f life is bein detachd n not feeling nethin.. but lyk i said v nvr knw wen n wot will get us attchd 2 it or dem.. lookin at d world arnd wot do v get 2 keep wid us... wot all can v possbly gain... in d same aspct... wot can v possbly loose....hmm heavy stuff isnt it ... n dnt v all like 2 talk n sound philosophical.. but hw many f us practice wot v preach?? i dbt not many..
dnt hv much 2 rite now... guess wud leave dis here only.. dis mite b 1f d short post 4d readers .. so wont get dem complaining...
some quote i found online... d circle f life n death... well known topic.. nothin new u guys gona find in dis post..
random n irrelevent connction between sm lines u myt feel.. but kept dis in drafts 4 long ... certain hapnin in d past got me started writin dis post.. so wot evr gets 2d brain.... , am jotin it dwn... all need not b related well .. jst d idea of life n death mite revolve thruout.. so hv fun
reading dis post u mite jst feel sad n go back in tym not like d feeling... but dats not my intention here.. tho i knw its no gud writin dis post .. i personally dont like readin such works wich r talkin abt reality n philosophical stuff.. rathr wud njoy readin smthing dat can mk me smile n get me laffing.. only felt like postin here .. so got down doin dis... now d concept f evrything dat starts gota end... all is perishable, nothin remains 4vr. how many tyms v hear dis n get across such fundas in life.. but still dnt want any such thing 2 hapn wid us.. v loose wots close 2 us .. smthin or sm1 v cant think f life widout.. but d fact is v still continue 2 live ... our tym is still not ovr.. n hence v gota go on till d tym is up 4 us...
d concept of attachment detachment is funny 4 me, smhw feel dat v human being as per our convnience get attachd n detachd as n wen requird... myt not b d case wid all , but most f us n dat % f ppl including me i feel ,r nothin but polishd hypocrites ... hw does hypocrcy works here,, i dunno.. probably foolin our own selves f how detachd v r .. while d truth mayb d othr way round... i personally am kind f a person who wont b affected much or b moved by news of death n all.. smhw it seems 2me dat evntually its gona hapn.. i dunno how 2 react if sm1 says der so n so died.. i dnt understnd y ppl say sorry wen dey hear f such news?? ok u feel sory 4d persons lose, but den again u dint do no nothin n der ws nothin u cud have had done 2 stop it.. y r v sory den??is dis has now become a standard way of behaving wen smthin like dat hapns... i 2 wud jst say d same thing probably cos v realy dnt knw wot 2 say... do v say 'dats sad'.. yes it is.. is der a point askin 'r u ok'.. no u fool defintly d person is not ok... n worse still evry 3rd person walkin in ask d same ques of 'how n wen ' it hapnd
d person is alrdy messed up in der grief n u wana knw how it all hapnd? y is dat?? guess wot else do v ask den.. so standard set things ppl say n do at such situations n dats how it all goes...
now ppl wont eat, as in wen sm1 expires arnd dem.... dey wont feel like goin ne whr aftr getin 2knw such news... dey instantly get sad n feel its all over ... n dis is not dat sm near n dear 2 dem died.. but any1 dey knew 4m smwhr... dats bein sensitv 2d news n behaving like a human being i guess... but dis is wot gets me wondering... mayb smthin wrong wid me?? am i 2 insensitve 2wards ppl n life ?? cos if i get 2 hear such news .. i tend 2 b in d same frame f mind dat i ws proir 2 it.. i wnt stop eatin.. or stop wot i ws goin 2do d next moment...well dats me....
dey say as v grow up, v ourselves start understndin wots hapnin arnd.. v become more n more sensitv 2 such tyms.... but dunno wots wrong wid me.. i hear news of sm1 passing away n am unmoved... b it sm1 i barely knew.. or sm1 i knew well.. or sm1 i dint know at all.. its d same reaction 4 me... 'OK' .. does dat means am 2 insensitv 2b a human bein ?? i hope not... does dat means losing ne1 close 2me wont affct me eithr.. i feel not... cos d idea f losing sm1 who mttrs 2me,, mks me jittery.. knowin its all gona end n death is d final destination of life.. wich v all will 1 day or d othr reach,, but d only way i feel i can cope up wid losing my dear 1s is dat i die b4 dat.. dats how strong n detached i am... or how insecure n weak i am.. hmm dats only 4 tym 2 tell..... but its funny cos smhw i cannot relate 2 any situations or ceremonies wich mk ppl go on extremes... i dnt like goin 2 cremenations.. n i dnt like attendin marriages eithr.. but at tyms v r complied 2do so... der is no comparison btween d emotions invld in d 2 ceremonies.. but neithr of dem mks me feel like bein der.. call me weird but dat hw it is 4me...antisocial mayb.. but wot can i do if such emotions dnt come natural 2me.. or mayb i'v conditiond myself wid tym..not 2 react much n b cold 2 all such evnts... tho smtyms it shakes me bad.... imagine v decide not 2 get in touch wid sm1 again in our live n less v knw , it jst mite b d case... how does it feels wen u hv argumnt wid sm1.. u develop grudges 4 certain ppl n decide 2 stay away 4m dem 4 alwaz... but if it so hapns dat u get d news d der demise .... how do u feel.. its like d last confrontation wid dat person ws a fite.... now d person is gone 4 real n in dis life v arnt getin in touch again wid dem.. (xactly wot v decideed,, only not dis way),wot if v feel smwhr it ws our fault n shud hv got d records strait wid dat person.. or evn if it ws dat both d parties were at fault, wot gud is it doin 2 dcyd not 2 get in each odrs way in dis life tym ?? so v dcyd 2 set things asyd but b4 v knw.. its 2 late now.. n wot r v left wid,,, a guilt insyd cursing our ownselves ..d last words u had wid d person were smthin dat jst myt haunt u 4evr.... so jst 2 mk sure no such thing hapns..shud v b leting morons be demselves d bearing wid dem.. cos v dnt want 2 regrets later??? or do v doom dem 2 hell n keep dem asyd , live our lives peacefully??? den der r chances f u hatin a person n evry1 knws wot d jerk he/she ws in der lifetym but wen dey die.. well ,,,all go on sayin wot a wonderfull person he or she ws.... n how dey wud b missd.. but bringing forth d truth wud b rude n bad.. 4 not 2 tk bad of sm1 who is dead... isnt it so? but wen d person ws alive.. curse him/her like hell.. wot a wonderfull concept v ppl have... respect d dead n mock d living...
sm say d ultimate way f life is bein detachd n not feeling nethin.. but lyk i said v nvr knw wen n wot will get us attchd 2 it or dem.. lookin at d world arnd wot do v get 2 keep wid us... wot all can v possbly gain... in d same aspct... wot can v possbly loose....hmm heavy stuff isnt it ... n dnt v all like 2 talk n sound philosophical.. but hw many f us practice wot v preach?? i dbt not many..
dnt hv much 2 rite now... guess wud leave dis here only.. dis mite b 1f d short post 4d readers .. so wont get dem complaining...
Saturday, October 17, 2009
d TAG of innocent guilt...
anothr of tags i got, kinda strnge dis 1 .. did not get it in d 1st go.. aftr askin d tagger it seems here v hve certian questions n gota gv 1 word ans 2 dem...where innocent says no n guilty means yes in d tag... so will get ovr wid dis now.. not much 2do in dis tag... dey say tags r gr8 way 2knw more f ppl... well go ahd knw more f me..
MONICA @ http://ruminationsmyspc.blogspot.com/ tagged me.
RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.
Asked someone to marry you? Innocent.
Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent.
Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent.
Ever told a lie? Guilty.
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty.
Kissed a picture? Innocent.
Slept in until 5 PM? Guilty.
Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty.
Held a snake? Innocent.
Been suspended from school? Guilty.
Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent.
Stolen from a store? Guilty.
Been fired from a job? Innocent.
Done something you regret? Guilty.
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent.
Kissed in the rain? Innocent.
Sat on a roof top? Guilty.
Kissed someone you shouldn't? Innocent.
Sang in the shower? Guilty.
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.
Shaved your head? Innocent.
Had a boxing membership? Innocent.
Made a boyfriend cry? Innocent.
Been in a band? Innocent.
Shot a gun? Innocent.
Donated Blood? Guilty.
Eaten alligator meat? Innocent.
Eaten cheesecake? Innocent.
Still love someone you shouldn't? Innocent.
Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.
Liked someone, but will never tell who? Innocent.
Been too honest? Guilty.
Ruined a surprise? Guilty.
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn't walk after wards? Guilty.
Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty.
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent.
Joined a pageant? Innocent.
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Innocent.
Had communication with your ex? Innocent.
Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Guilty.
Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty.
as 4 taggin ppl... guess whosoevr wants 2 do it...
MONICA @ http://ruminationsmyspc.blogspot.com/ tagged me.
RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.
Asked someone to marry you? Innocent.
Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent.
Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent.
Ever told a lie? Guilty.
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty.
Kissed a picture? Innocent.
Slept in until 5 PM? Guilty.
Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty.
Held a snake? Innocent.
Been suspended from school? Guilty.
Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent.
Stolen from a store? Guilty.
Been fired from a job? Innocent.
Done something you regret? Guilty.
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent.
Kissed in the rain? Innocent.
Sat on a roof top? Guilty.
Kissed someone you shouldn't? Innocent.
Sang in the shower? Guilty.
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.
Shaved your head? Innocent.
Had a boxing membership? Innocent.
Made a boyfriend cry? Innocent.
Been in a band? Innocent.
Shot a gun? Innocent.
Donated Blood? Guilty.
Eaten alligator meat? Innocent.
Eaten cheesecake? Innocent.
Still love someone you shouldn't? Innocent.
Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.
Liked someone, but will never tell who? Innocent.
Been too honest? Guilty.
Ruined a surprise? Guilty.
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn't walk after wards? Guilty.
Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty.
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent.
Joined a pageant? Innocent.
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Innocent.
Had communication with your ex? Innocent.
Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Guilty.
Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty.
as 4 taggin ppl... guess whosoevr wants 2 do it...
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
DUMB DUMB DUMB....
THE dUMB dUMBER dUMBEST QUIZ. seems like d funny quizzes have had alrdy made der way in2 blogger 4m facebook n all.. got 2do dis 1 by monica... lets c wot i score
Here's the quiz
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking
(worse still d gum got stuck in my hair, hair on d head, thot shud specify :P...)
[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking
[ ] You have ran into a glass/screen door
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle
(jumping of d moving bus qualifies i guess)
[x] You have thought of something funny while walking by yourself
(hapns alot..)
[x] Laughed, then watched people give you weird looks
(hapns all d tym)
[x] You have run into a tree/bush.
[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
(hahaha dint knew dat.. )
[x] You have tried to lick your elbow… a few times
( :P jst tried after reading d above statement, no success tho)
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little star have the same rhythm.
[x] You just tried to sing them.
(hi dey do kinda hv d same ryhme,, not dat dumb a quiz i guess,, only makin ppl smarter)
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[ ] You have choked on your own spit .
[x] You have seen the Matrix and still don’t get it.
(got d 1st 2 parts... d 3rd 1 got way 2 wierd)
[ ] You’ve never seen the Matrix.
[ ] You type only with two fingers.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
(now d water gt in2 nose cos f stupid lafs)
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x] You have fallen asleep in class and fell outta your chair
(fallen asleep yes,, fell outta chair yes... but not both at d same tym.. )
[x] You stared hard at someone trying to figure whether the person was he or she
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking
[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
(some evn shake der heads wen dey knw dey gota talk 2me now :P :P)
[x] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
(dont understand d concept f inside voice tho.... depends tym 2 tym it seems)
[x] You use your fingers to do simple math
[x] You have eaten a bug
(not knowingly.. myt hv munched few at nites wid d food)
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important
(not exactly... got nothing bttr 2do if think in 1 way...n have alot f stuff 2 tk care f if think d othr way)
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it
[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand
(in hands ?? hahaha evn more funny ..as a kid wen got 2 wear d specs initially ws searching 4 my specs all arnd only 2 find myself wearing dem on d eyes wen searchin 4 it in front f d mirror :P :P... wow d quiz is made 4 me it seems :P :P)
[ ] You have ran around naked in your house.
(hahahahahha ok... hmm probably one day wen i'll hv my own house n live alone den jst myt do dis :P :P.. not run arnd tho.. walkin wud b jst fine)
[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t.
[ ] You break a lot of things.
(not alot .. but things keep breakin here n der ...)
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
(wot type of big words??..askin dat question dumb?? but still big words differ 4 all)
[x] You tilt your head when you’re confused
(well can tilt or do othr random stuf wen confused n helloo wen confused ur supposd 2do random stuff)
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before
[ ] Mistook your teacher to be a student
[x] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling or wall
(hmmm well need not specialy be lyin in bed... jst gota b vela n nothin 2do like rite now :P :P)
[x] The word “ummmmm” is used many times a day.
(it hapns most wen in viva n interviews i guess :D)
[x] Have you opened your mouth to say something but then you pretended as if you were yawning because you forgot what you wanted to say.
(smtyms not dat i 4gt but lookin at d person 2 whome ws goin 2say... decyd against sayin it ..hence d yawn or smile or random face)
TOTAL 29
I am (29/40)*100 = 72.5% DUMB!!!
chalo if not d academics ... getin a score f 70 + not bad... probably my dad wud b hapi ... hahahahhahahahah
n who i wud like 2 compare my dumbness wid... hmm guess all in d list f followers n whosoevr reading dis.. n do lemme knw once u thru wid d dumbness :P :P... n complete it soon.. d sooner u knw d bettr it is 4u my frnd,,, go chk ur dumbness... BE A MAN... or WOMAN... wotevr b ur case
Here's the quiz
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking
(worse still d gum got stuck in my hair, hair on d head, thot shud specify :P...)
[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking
[ ] You have ran into a glass/screen door
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle
(jumping of d moving bus qualifies i guess)
[x] You have thought of something funny while walking by yourself
(hapns alot..)
[x] Laughed, then watched people give you weird looks
(hapns all d tym)
[x] You have run into a tree/bush.
[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
(hahaha dint knew dat.. )
[x] You have tried to lick your elbow… a few times
( :P jst tried after reading d above statement, no success tho)
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little star have the same rhythm.
[x] You just tried to sing them.
(hi dey do kinda hv d same ryhme,, not dat dumb a quiz i guess,, only makin ppl smarter)
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[ ] You have choked on your own spit .
[x] You have seen the Matrix and still don’t get it.
(got d 1st 2 parts... d 3rd 1 got way 2 wierd)
[ ] You’ve never seen the Matrix.
[ ] You type only with two fingers.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
(now d water gt in2 nose cos f stupid lafs)
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x] You have fallen asleep in class and fell outta your chair
(fallen asleep yes,, fell outta chair yes... but not both at d same tym.. )
[x] You stared hard at someone trying to figure whether the person was he or she
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking
[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
(some evn shake der heads wen dey knw dey gota talk 2me now :P :P)
[x] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
(dont understand d concept f inside voice tho.... depends tym 2 tym it seems)
[x] You use your fingers to do simple math
[x] You have eaten a bug
(not knowingly.. myt hv munched few at nites wid d food)
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important
(not exactly... got nothing bttr 2do if think in 1 way...n have alot f stuff 2 tk care f if think d othr way)
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it
[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand
(in hands ?? hahaha evn more funny ..as a kid wen got 2 wear d specs initially ws searching 4 my specs all arnd only 2 find myself wearing dem on d eyes wen searchin 4 it in front f d mirror :P :P... wow d quiz is made 4 me it seems :P :P)
[ ] You have ran around naked in your house.
(hahahahahha ok... hmm probably one day wen i'll hv my own house n live alone den jst myt do dis :P :P.. not run arnd tho.. walkin wud b jst fine)
[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t.
[ ] You break a lot of things.
(not alot .. but things keep breakin here n der ...)
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
(wot type of big words??..askin dat question dumb?? but still big words differ 4 all)
[x] You tilt your head when you’re confused
(well can tilt or do othr random stuf wen confused n helloo wen confused ur supposd 2do random stuff)
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before
[ ] Mistook your teacher to be a student
[x] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling or wall
(hmmm well need not specialy be lyin in bed... jst gota b vela n nothin 2do like rite now :P :P)
[x] The word “ummmmm” is used many times a day.
(it hapns most wen in viva n interviews i guess :D)
[x] Have you opened your mouth to say something but then you pretended as if you were yawning because you forgot what you wanted to say.
(smtyms not dat i 4gt but lookin at d person 2 whome ws goin 2say... decyd against sayin it ..hence d yawn or smile or random face)
TOTAL 29
I am (29/40)*100 = 72.5% DUMB!!!
chalo if not d academics ... getin a score f 70 + not bad... probably my dad wud b hapi ... hahahahhahahahah
n who i wud like 2 compare my dumbness wid... hmm guess all in d list f followers n whosoevr reading dis.. n do lemme knw once u thru wid d dumbness :P :P... n complete it soon.. d sooner u knw d bettr it is 4u my frnd,,, go chk ur dumbness... BE A MAN... or WOMAN... wotevr b ur case
Saturday, September 26, 2009
the unforgiven II
"what i've felt , what i've known
sick n tired , i stand alone
could u there?
cos am d 1 who waits 4u
or r u UNFORGIVEN too"
well dats 1 f d songs 4m metallica dat i heard wen i started listening 2 d band.. alwaz loved d song n since d tym i started bloggin had dis in mind 2 use d title as name f ne f my post.. felt it looks fine 4 wot am thinking 2 type now so jst thot wud start it off wid few lines 4m d song only... hence d para in d start.. no pun intended der.. ppl need not mk horses up der brains run wild.. 4 d post is yet 2 begin :P :P
so nehw lemme get dwn wid d post.. now smtyms it hapns dat i write n talk irrelevnt stuff.. ppl evn hv hard tym readin or getin 2 understnd wot am tryin 2 say.. funny der r tyms wen i myself find it hard 2 understnd wot am i sayin or wot do i want in life... 4 smtym now my brain has been fcukd up..refusing 2 work at all... n evn if it has been working.. only d wierdest f not so hapnin thots hv been botherin me.. n 2 mk it all worse.. i hv been devoting tym thinkin ovr dem... d things wich hv been botherin n trblin me r d most irrelevnt f stuff.. but wen ur head is 2 go wrong .. nothin can help u out.. u get stuck in d quick sand.. n d more u try 2 get outta it d more u get stk in2 it.. u try n get urself out f a tangled web n d more u struggle 2 get out d more tangled up u r in it.. probably d same hs been my case off late... d more n more i try not 2 get my brain trbld d more worse it got n blew it away at d best of tyms 2 mk d worst of situations..
generally am not sm1 who thinks ovr certain things alot... 4me it hapns .. if its 4 my gud den alls well.. if not so gud den so b it... wud c wot nxt n gota move on, but wen d let go... n mv on phenomena keeps hapnin tym n again dats wen d funny thinking part of my brains get working.. or rathr shud i say d wierd mechanism up der starts workin.. it has been pretty rusty uptill now ,4 a long tym hasnt made use f it.. but wen it starts kickin... its like not willing 2 stop..now read dis post smwhr.. abt escapism n dunno y .. (probably i knw y) seemd as if am no gud but escaping all arnd me 2... n bein nothin but a coward by letting go n not caring much 4 all arnd me.. thot d move on n will c later attitude myt help but escapism is nvr d answer 2nething.. n extreme of nething is bein an escapist.... so got my share on tangling up in d web... n worse dat cud hapn... messd up few ,not so tangld up things n ppl arnd in d web...n dats wot makin me go mad... now dis post here is reminding me f d very 1st post dat i wrote.. d 1 wid wich i started off my bloggin career (:D ya ok... )...ws goin thru a similar phase den but still it ws diff .. only my fuckd up mood n irritable behaviour ws d same..
i pity my frnds n ppl who overlook such deeds of mine n still choose 2b my frnds... dey sure dint do no wrong 2 deserve my wrath(hmmm heavy word here .. got only dis at d tym , so will let it b).. 4 widout ne fault f ders i still go on 2 mk d atmosphere wierd 4 dem.... spoiling sm1s special day by bein d total jerk.. well not many can do dat.. but i can n hi did so wid d worst possble timings... cud i get bttr in bein worse ??? i dbt it... feel funny wen i say dis but things wich bothred me wud find appreciation in othrs eyes... now comeon how many of us wud get irritated at ppl 4 bein all mannerd n culturd n dignified.. or at d 1s who r greatest f souls arnd n overlook all flaws in ppl n still do gud evn 2 dos who do bad 2 dem?? now how many of us can get irritated 4m such acts n ppl wid such high standards in life?? well beat dis all such acts of mannerism n dignity got me iritated n 2 mk things worse.. i let it trbl me wd few of my frnds arnd... as worse as it gets .. i let my mood b fuckd up wid frnds who r in evry aspct of life far bttr souls dan me .. n if nethin i bttr get sm gud qualty f dem.. but no sir i rathr dcyd 2gt my brain fuckd up wid dem.....
remmbr last tym u were mad at sm1 n dat got u mad at ur own self .. 4 u knew dat it ws u who ws behavin wierd at bein trbld by d sincerity(or wot shud i write here??) of ppl arnd... yes i write wierd stuff.. dunno wot comes nxt aftr wat n der is no flow n probably no sense in certain statemnts i type.. but its still gud 4 i can b far more fuckd up dan dis.. so my brain goes off ...n l8r i realise how big a jackass i am by bein mad at ppl who hvnt done no wrong ... n den it gets me mad at myself 4 y am i bein such a jerk ..... spins ur head readin dis... well jst think wot i hv had been thru.... ur mad ur frustated but d only person u can tk it out on is urself.. so eithr ways ur not goin 2 get away wid dis frustations n ugly air arnd.. 4 ur d 1 havin it.... ur d 1 2b blamed 4 it ... n probabaly ur d only 1 who desrves all dis crap ... wid all dis arnd ... i start 2 wonder wot hv d 1s arnd done 2desrve all dis?? guess only fault of ders wud b dat dey knw me n still hv der concern 4 wots trblin me... now wot am i suppsd 2 say.. its my own insignificant n disturbing thots ... n if any1 needs 2b blamed its me... smhw feel its d funda of attachmnt n detachmnt dat gets my head go round n round at tyms... not many dat am attchd 2.... its not easy 4me 2gt atchd eithr.. but detachmnt is smthin dat mks it all ugly.. n if 1 cannot get detachd 4m his attchmnts den its hell waitin 4u ...
evry1 has der weak points n low in life.. probably i went thru 1f d lows f my life in d past week... now dey say no1 is perfct..well hence proved am not evn near 2 bein perfct 4 sure.. only thing i myt b perfect at wud b imperfection... but den again aint dat bad eithr.. have seen worse souls arnd.. but wen v r no gud ourself v dnt hv d rite 2 point fingers at othrs.. do v?? no v dnt..cos blame game is easy ...sit dwn n analyse stuff n it all comes dnw 2 bein ur own fault... atlst d case wid me dis tym ... goin thru such lot 4 no rhyme or reason i ended up realising jst 1 thing.... its nvr ne1 elses fault... no1 can mk ur life miserable but u urself.... if ne1 is 2b blamed 4 ur plight its u again... in d weak moments d decisions dat v tk thinkin v r strong enuf r d worst f decisions n dey only mk us realise how weak v r.. n pretending 2b all strong n unmoved by all arnd v only blow away d few who actually r d support dat v hv... but does all dis keep any meaning aftr u hv been a fool??.. spoil up things 4 ppl n den realising ur mistk wich all d tym u were aware of ,, does sayin sorry help?? very convinient word SORRY... but if v really mean it ... den y gv a chance 4 othrs 2 hear it 4m u ... cos d sorry state can nvr b gud.. n if v r in it den v r all total waste..
behve like jerks n end up disappointing ppl... der r levels in life dat ppl maintain n if v think evn 1 level below of our mental state den v r doomed bad... imagine bein messd up wid d stuff dat u alwaz detest .... dey say dont stoop dwn ur own level but in d weakest of moments u nvr knw were u end up... probably cursing urself by d end f it all 4 bein such a trash... but no1 is perfct n its only in tyms like des wen u need 2 sit dwn n recollect urself 2b able 2 hold ur head still high.. irrespectv of wot u hv been thru 4 no fault f ne1 but ur own.. not evn a fault but only random wierd irrelevnt thots ..... so goin thru all dis i cud only gt 1 thing outta it..(wid help f few frends) 2 much of thinkin can get u mentally disturbd... 2 survive in d world u gota b able 2 maintain ur own kool n if any distrbance is 2 hapn... it bttr not involve u... nothing is permannt n humans beins r weak... u can nvr hold on2 ne1 or nething... so no point wonderin ovr wot wen u mite lose it.. thinking ovr it n losin wot u hv at present rite now 4d momnt ... damn u spoil d present 4 thinking ovr d future ,, d othr way round.. wid past exprnce ,,limiting urself in d presnt,, again so not hapnin... now i hv alwaz been told by ppl dat am jst 2 cautious at tyms n in order 2 not hurt sm1 n mk sure nothin goes wrong.. hahaha..dat extra effort screws it all up... assumptions on baseless issues mk me tk steps wich jst dnt mk no sense... n d ppl arnd me... well dey only wonder wots trbling me... while am only tryin 2 mk sure nothin is trbls dem... d problem is .. if i get slightest d idea or hint dat sm1 arnd me is not vry comfrtablr ...b it any reason.. i tend 2 gt on d backfoot n b all cautious... n being so i get uncmfrtble myself.. so ne1 arnd feeling uncmfrtble..mkes me uncmfrtble... n dat mks d air arnd wierd... n funny story..it seems d uncmfrtin issues r only baseless n non existant.. only dat ovrcautious attitude often mk me bein a total fool... tym n again i felt it is lyk dat.. but dint made sense 4 i ws pretty convncd of wot i do is rite.. but wen 1 n all hv d same opinion n say no1 can understnd d sudden chnge of behaviour.... i smhw felt probably alil dif appraoch in life wont hurt... cos its des vry ppl 4 whome i smtyms act diffrntly.. but dat dey find it wierd n dis seems wierd 2me.. 4 its all 2 mixd up... heads spinning again?? dnt wory gues am abt 2 get ovr now... so nehw... i guess i wrote wot i wanted 2... not many can mk sense of it ... n if u can den u mite b left wondering.. wotevr b d case... d gud thing is.. its d week gone by... as 4me.. wot all i typed here is only makin me smile looking at it.. have had d wierd issues screw me up enuf .. so no more its an issue... got my head all cleared up... in d process ended disappointed a few .. but feel dat disappointmnt gt dem thinkin 2 blog :P :P so hahaha... its all gud.. as 4 me yes evry1 goes thru der bad n weak phases.. i went thru mine... but now am gud again... it feels gud once again making fun f ppl :P :P.. getin 2 sport dos mean grins n finding humuor in almost abt evrything..( sm f u mite find dis wierd n read pyscho.. but haha ur free 2 think wot evr.. dnt care)
i still get 2 b wid my frnds..who hv been mature enuf n tolerated me evn in my worse of moods.. hats off 2 u guys... am pleasently surprised at how ppl can ovrlook n b all dignified.. hmm smthing i said b4 in d blog 2 dint i ??? :P :P.. d optimistc n living life d fullest is smthing i gota pik up 4m u guys... tho still i wud prefer goin on 2 mk fun f ppl.. 4 like i said no1 but ourselves n responslbe 4 our plights,.. no1 can mk fun f us unless v allow it 2 hapn ourselves... now jst 2 mk sure i dnt get attacks 4m social workers ... i dnt mean 2 disrescpect n rub ne1 of der dignity while makin fun f dem... no no not d case... but wen i comes 2 njoyin life 2d fullest.. i mite b alil mean in my own ways..... so d week gone by is past 4 me... present is all gud.. n dnt care abt d future..i'v 4goten all my stupidity... few frnds hv been mature enuf 2 let go n 4gt it 2.. alil request 2 othr few 2 4gt it n not talk abt it n keep d air heavy still.. i behvd like a total moron.. not neccsary 4u 2 behve like 1 :P :P... u alrdy gt ur point across n i understood no matter wot "widout GOPALJI koi VIKAS ni hoga" :P :P.... n othr way round "VIKAS ke liye GOPALJI zaruri hai"... hahahahhahahhaha ... lol well dis wud not mk sense 2 few... but i 1s who can understnd d lines wud defin8ly knw wot am sayin :P :P.... its has alwaz been like dat since centuaries... n will remain like dat 4 tyms 2 come....
am glad 4 i feel i wud have had done alot of gud karmas in my past lives ..:P:P 4 in dis life i can find company f d few elite n dignified ppl who r way beyond d normal human dimensions... havin such souls as frnds is a blessing n if i cud b evn slightly like dem.. my life wud b way neat n millions f notches up 4m wot i hv... but hi not complaining... wot all is hapnin 4me is still 2 gud 4me.. n dey r d uplifted souls.. i need 2 work my way 2 match der levels... till den am glad bein stuck in dis mean bad world... 4 evn tho d world mite d evil infested .. i hv my angels arnd me 2 tk gud care f me :P :P... wid guardians like des... my life is gud... so gota cherish wot all i hv in present n not b bothrd of wot mite hapn in future wen dey wont b arnd... y think so, i say.... dey say all gud things come 2 an end.. so do all bad things.. 2 side f d coins.. y flip it n get dat 100% of d 50 %.. i say rathr roll d coin along n let d gud n bad roll along wid u... its lot eaiser 2 let d coin roll n let it dcyd 4 itself wot side its goin 2b 4us den flipping it n d thots d getin bad 1 trbling u al thru.... now i read dis msg smwhr n loved it.. cudnt b bttr timing 4me 2 come across dis... evn used it as a status msg on facebook.. n here m ending my post wid it ....now cant say hope u guys had fun readin it.. but alls well dat ends well .. quotes mk it so much easier it say stuff :P:P....
P.S. (using it 4d 1st tym in my post :P :P)thot aftr all des awrds n tags my next post wud b smthin wer i wud talk abt d tags n awrds,, but den dis post came up.. but no worries i'll probably get dat 1 here soon... cos wid tags n awrds smwhr it seems blogger has become tagger .. not dat am criticizing dat... but den again wid d amt f tags smwhr it kills d spirit of blogs .. 4 tags get u write certain formulated stuf.. n wot all i mean by dat wud get 2it later... till den i leave u wid dis
"Doubt holds you landlocked in paralysis unable to move either way. The time you spent doubting is the time you are not a...live. So, rid yourself of the doubt, take that step one way or another, your heart knows what is best, but take it right now"
sick n tired , i stand alone
could u there?
cos am d 1 who waits 4u
or r u UNFORGIVEN too"
well dats 1 f d songs 4m metallica dat i heard wen i started listening 2 d band.. alwaz loved d song n since d tym i started bloggin had dis in mind 2 use d title as name f ne f my post.. felt it looks fine 4 wot am thinking 2 type now so jst thot wud start it off wid few lines 4m d song only... hence d para in d start.. no pun intended der.. ppl need not mk horses up der brains run wild.. 4 d post is yet 2 begin :P :P
so nehw lemme get dwn wid d post.. now smtyms it hapns dat i write n talk irrelevnt stuff.. ppl evn hv hard tym readin or getin 2 understnd wot am tryin 2 say.. funny der r tyms wen i myself find it hard 2 understnd wot am i sayin or wot do i want in life... 4 smtym now my brain has been fcukd up..refusing 2 work at all... n evn if it has been working.. only d wierdest f not so hapnin thots hv been botherin me.. n 2 mk it all worse.. i hv been devoting tym thinkin ovr dem... d things wich hv been botherin n trblin me r d most irrelevnt f stuff.. but wen ur head is 2 go wrong .. nothin can help u out.. u get stuck in d quick sand.. n d more u try 2 get outta it d more u get stk in2 it.. u try n get urself out f a tangled web n d more u struggle 2 get out d more tangled up u r in it.. probably d same hs been my case off late... d more n more i try not 2 get my brain trbld d more worse it got n blew it away at d best of tyms 2 mk d worst of situations..
generally am not sm1 who thinks ovr certain things alot... 4me it hapns .. if its 4 my gud den alls well.. if not so gud den so b it... wud c wot nxt n gota move on, but wen d let go... n mv on phenomena keeps hapnin tym n again dats wen d funny thinking part of my brains get working.. or rathr shud i say d wierd mechanism up der starts workin.. it has been pretty rusty uptill now ,4 a long tym hasnt made use f it.. but wen it starts kickin... its like not willing 2 stop..now read dis post smwhr.. abt escapism n dunno y .. (probably i knw y) seemd as if am no gud but escaping all arnd me 2... n bein nothin but a coward by letting go n not caring much 4 all arnd me.. thot d move on n will c later attitude myt help but escapism is nvr d answer 2nething.. n extreme of nething is bein an escapist.... so got my share on tangling up in d web... n worse dat cud hapn... messd up few ,not so tangld up things n ppl arnd in d web...n dats wot makin me go mad... now dis post here is reminding me f d very 1st post dat i wrote.. d 1 wid wich i started off my bloggin career (:D ya ok... )...ws goin thru a similar phase den but still it ws diff .. only my fuckd up mood n irritable behaviour ws d same..
i pity my frnds n ppl who overlook such deeds of mine n still choose 2b my frnds... dey sure dint do no wrong 2 deserve my wrath(hmmm heavy word here .. got only dis at d tym , so will let it b).. 4 widout ne fault f ders i still go on 2 mk d atmosphere wierd 4 dem.... spoiling sm1s special day by bein d total jerk.. well not many can do dat.. but i can n hi did so wid d worst possble timings... cud i get bttr in bein worse ??? i dbt it... feel funny wen i say dis but things wich bothred me wud find appreciation in othrs eyes... now comeon how many of us wud get irritated at ppl 4 bein all mannerd n culturd n dignified.. or at d 1s who r greatest f souls arnd n overlook all flaws in ppl n still do gud evn 2 dos who do bad 2 dem?? now how many of us can get irritated 4m such acts n ppl wid such high standards in life?? well beat dis all such acts of mannerism n dignity got me iritated n 2 mk things worse.. i let it trbl me wd few of my frnds arnd... as worse as it gets .. i let my mood b fuckd up wid frnds who r in evry aspct of life far bttr souls dan me .. n if nethin i bttr get sm gud qualty f dem.. but no sir i rathr dcyd 2gt my brain fuckd up wid dem.....
remmbr last tym u were mad at sm1 n dat got u mad at ur own self .. 4 u knew dat it ws u who ws behavin wierd at bein trbld by d sincerity(or wot shud i write here??) of ppl arnd... yes i write wierd stuff.. dunno wot comes nxt aftr wat n der is no flow n probably no sense in certain statemnts i type.. but its still gud 4 i can b far more fuckd up dan dis.. so my brain goes off ...n l8r i realise how big a jackass i am by bein mad at ppl who hvnt done no wrong ... n den it gets me mad at myself 4 y am i bein such a jerk ..... spins ur head readin dis... well jst think wot i hv had been thru.... ur mad ur frustated but d only person u can tk it out on is urself.. so eithr ways ur not goin 2 get away wid dis frustations n ugly air arnd.. 4 ur d 1 havin it.... ur d 1 2b blamed 4 it ... n probabaly ur d only 1 who desrves all dis crap ... wid all dis arnd ... i start 2 wonder wot hv d 1s arnd done 2desrve all dis?? guess only fault of ders wud b dat dey knw me n still hv der concern 4 wots trblin me... now wot am i suppsd 2 say.. its my own insignificant n disturbing thots ... n if any1 needs 2b blamed its me... smhw feel its d funda of attachmnt n detachmnt dat gets my head go round n round at tyms... not many dat am attchd 2.... its not easy 4me 2gt atchd eithr.. but detachmnt is smthin dat mks it all ugly.. n if 1 cannot get detachd 4m his attchmnts den its hell waitin 4u ...
evry1 has der weak points n low in life.. probably i went thru 1f d lows f my life in d past week... now dey say no1 is perfct..well hence proved am not evn near 2 bein perfct 4 sure.. only thing i myt b perfect at wud b imperfection... but den again aint dat bad eithr.. have seen worse souls arnd.. but wen v r no gud ourself v dnt hv d rite 2 point fingers at othrs.. do v?? no v dnt..cos blame game is easy ...sit dwn n analyse stuff n it all comes dnw 2 bein ur own fault... atlst d case wid me dis tym ... goin thru such lot 4 no rhyme or reason i ended up realising jst 1 thing.... its nvr ne1 elses fault... no1 can mk ur life miserable but u urself.... if ne1 is 2b blamed 4 ur plight its u again... in d weak moments d decisions dat v tk thinkin v r strong enuf r d worst f decisions n dey only mk us realise how weak v r.. n pretending 2b all strong n unmoved by all arnd v only blow away d few who actually r d support dat v hv... but does all dis keep any meaning aftr u hv been a fool??.. spoil up things 4 ppl n den realising ur mistk wich all d tym u were aware of ,, does sayin sorry help?? very convinient word SORRY... but if v really mean it ... den y gv a chance 4 othrs 2 hear it 4m u ... cos d sorry state can nvr b gud.. n if v r in it den v r all total waste..
behve like jerks n end up disappointing ppl... der r levels in life dat ppl maintain n if v think evn 1 level below of our mental state den v r doomed bad... imagine bein messd up wid d stuff dat u alwaz detest .... dey say dont stoop dwn ur own level but in d weakest of moments u nvr knw were u end up... probably cursing urself by d end f it all 4 bein such a trash... but no1 is perfct n its only in tyms like des wen u need 2 sit dwn n recollect urself 2b able 2 hold ur head still high.. irrespectv of wot u hv been thru 4 no fault f ne1 but ur own.. not evn a fault but only random wierd irrelevnt thots ..... so goin thru all dis i cud only gt 1 thing outta it..(wid help f few frends) 2 much of thinkin can get u mentally disturbd... 2 survive in d world u gota b able 2 maintain ur own kool n if any distrbance is 2 hapn... it bttr not involve u... nothing is permannt n humans beins r weak... u can nvr hold on2 ne1 or nething... so no point wonderin ovr wot wen u mite lose it.. thinking ovr it n losin wot u hv at present rite now 4d momnt ... damn u spoil d present 4 thinking ovr d future ,, d othr way round.. wid past exprnce ,,limiting urself in d presnt,, again so not hapnin... now i hv alwaz been told by ppl dat am jst 2 cautious at tyms n in order 2 not hurt sm1 n mk sure nothin goes wrong.. hahaha..dat extra effort screws it all up... assumptions on baseless issues mk me tk steps wich jst dnt mk no sense... n d ppl arnd me... well dey only wonder wots trbling me... while am only tryin 2 mk sure nothin is trbls dem... d problem is .. if i get slightest d idea or hint dat sm1 arnd me is not vry comfrtablr ...b it any reason.. i tend 2 gt on d backfoot n b all cautious... n being so i get uncmfrtble myself.. so ne1 arnd feeling uncmfrtble..mkes me uncmfrtble... n dat mks d air arnd wierd... n funny story..it seems d uncmfrtin issues r only baseless n non existant.. only dat ovrcautious attitude often mk me bein a total fool... tym n again i felt it is lyk dat.. but dint made sense 4 i ws pretty convncd of wot i do is rite.. but wen 1 n all hv d same opinion n say no1 can understnd d sudden chnge of behaviour.... i smhw felt probably alil dif appraoch in life wont hurt... cos its des vry ppl 4 whome i smtyms act diffrntly.. but dat dey find it wierd n dis seems wierd 2me.. 4 its all 2 mixd up... heads spinning again?? dnt wory gues am abt 2 get ovr now... so nehw... i guess i wrote wot i wanted 2... not many can mk sense of it ... n if u can den u mite b left wondering.. wotevr b d case... d gud thing is.. its d week gone by... as 4me.. wot all i typed here is only makin me smile looking at it.. have had d wierd issues screw me up enuf .. so no more its an issue... got my head all cleared up... in d process ended disappointed a few .. but feel dat disappointmnt gt dem thinkin 2 blog :P :P so hahaha... its all gud.. as 4 me yes evry1 goes thru der bad n weak phases.. i went thru mine... but now am gud again... it feels gud once again making fun f ppl :P :P.. getin 2 sport dos mean grins n finding humuor in almost abt evrything..( sm f u mite find dis wierd n read pyscho.. but haha ur free 2 think wot evr.. dnt care)
i still get 2 b wid my frnds..who hv been mature enuf n tolerated me evn in my worse of moods.. hats off 2 u guys... am pleasently surprised at how ppl can ovrlook n b all dignified.. hmm smthing i said b4 in d blog 2 dint i ??? :P :P.. d optimistc n living life d fullest is smthing i gota pik up 4m u guys... tho still i wud prefer goin on 2 mk fun f ppl.. 4 like i said no1 but ourselves n responslbe 4 our plights,.. no1 can mk fun f us unless v allow it 2 hapn ourselves... now jst 2 mk sure i dnt get attacks 4m social workers ... i dnt mean 2 disrescpect n rub ne1 of der dignity while makin fun f dem... no no not d case... but wen i comes 2 njoyin life 2d fullest.. i mite b alil mean in my own ways..... so d week gone by is past 4 me... present is all gud.. n dnt care abt d future..i'v 4goten all my stupidity... few frnds hv been mature enuf 2 let go n 4gt it 2.. alil request 2 othr few 2 4gt it n not talk abt it n keep d air heavy still.. i behvd like a total moron.. not neccsary 4u 2 behve like 1 :P :P... u alrdy gt ur point across n i understood no matter wot "widout GOPALJI koi VIKAS ni hoga" :P :P.... n othr way round "VIKAS ke liye GOPALJI zaruri hai"... hahahahhahahhaha ... lol well dis wud not mk sense 2 few... but i 1s who can understnd d lines wud defin8ly knw wot am sayin :P :P.... its has alwaz been like dat since centuaries... n will remain like dat 4 tyms 2 come....
am glad 4 i feel i wud have had done alot of gud karmas in my past lives ..:P:P 4 in dis life i can find company f d few elite n dignified ppl who r way beyond d normal human dimensions... havin such souls as frnds is a blessing n if i cud b evn slightly like dem.. my life wud b way neat n millions f notches up 4m wot i hv... but hi not complaining... wot all is hapnin 4me is still 2 gud 4me.. n dey r d uplifted souls.. i need 2 work my way 2 match der levels... till den am glad bein stuck in dis mean bad world... 4 evn tho d world mite d evil infested .. i hv my angels arnd me 2 tk gud care f me :P :P... wid guardians like des... my life is gud... so gota cherish wot all i hv in present n not b bothrd of wot mite hapn in future wen dey wont b arnd... y think so, i say.... dey say all gud things come 2 an end.. so do all bad things.. 2 side f d coins.. y flip it n get dat 100% of d 50 %.. i say rathr roll d coin along n let d gud n bad roll along wid u... its lot eaiser 2 let d coin roll n let it dcyd 4 itself wot side its goin 2b 4us den flipping it n d thots d getin bad 1 trbling u al thru.... now i read dis msg smwhr n loved it.. cudnt b bttr timing 4me 2 come across dis... evn used it as a status msg on facebook.. n here m ending my post wid it ....now cant say hope u guys had fun readin it.. but alls well dat ends well .. quotes mk it so much easier it say stuff :P:P....
P.S. (using it 4d 1st tym in my post :P :P)thot aftr all des awrds n tags my next post wud b smthin wer i wud talk abt d tags n awrds,, but den dis post came up.. but no worries i'll probably get dat 1 here soon... cos wid tags n awrds smwhr it seems blogger has become tagger .. not dat am criticizing dat... but den again wid d amt f tags smwhr it kills d spirit of blogs .. 4 tags get u write certain formulated stuf.. n wot all i mean by dat wud get 2it later... till den i leave u wid dis
"Doubt holds you landlocked in paralysis unable to move either way. The time you spent doubting is the time you are not a...live. So, rid yourself of the doubt, take that step one way or another, your heart knows what is best, but take it right now"
Saturday, September 19, 2009
AWARDS SEASON in d blogsphere....
2 more awards... ok... am starting 2 wonder how gud my blogs r... or r dey?? cos off late its not much of blog but tags n awrds.. so d real bloggin is not here ,only posting... smthing cooking up in d mind so probably wud mk it in a post soon...
well coming 2 dis.. pleasent surprise.. only recently came across dis fellow blogger n she has been generous enuf 2 gv me 2 awrds so am flatterd... like i said b4.. many more desrving bloggers.. (hmmm will mk a post soon on all dis...) ya ok... but appreciation in any form in welcome.. infact appreciatd ..now i dnt mind getin awrds but its intersting wen u gt 2knw wot post or posts made sm1 gave u dat awrd.... cos den it wud feel more deserving .. but a n awrd is an awrd after all... so will accpt it wholeheartedly n a big :D... it feels nice ..tho my brain n funny way f thinking alwaz makes me c an opinion not many wud agree on or like... so dat opinion n dos thots wud b up in some post soon.... 4d tym am gona proudly display d awrds on my page n thank hapibirdie 4 bein so kind.... n will tk d opportunity 2 gv it away 2 sm i find desrving of dis awrd far more dan me .. tho dey alrdy mite hv it ..still gota pass 2d blogs dat mk me feel dey gota hv dis on der display...
n thnx 2d birdie again..b hapi alwaz
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(i) The person who tagged you: happy birdie
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(iii) Date when you were tagged: 17 September 2009
1) monica @ http://ruminationsmyspc.blogspot.com/... most deserving candidate in my list
2) sugandha @ http://whysoserioustoday.blogspot.com/... funny blogs she rites at tyms.. n fun blogs r best read 4me
3) parul @ http://rambble-on.blogspot.com/... not many blogs by her.. but fun she is... n ya her brday 2mrw...so here is alil gift :P :P hapi brday.. n get more motivated by dis n start up sm serious fun bloggin
4) roshmi @ http://notapennyformythoughts.blogspot.com/... mythology n history ... dis is ur link
5) kasab iangurl @ http://kasabiangirl.blogspot.com/... now dats a hardcore blogger... alrdy many awrds 4 her... probably dis 1 mite b repeated .. but all gud
6)hapibirdie @ http://hitaishi9.blogspot.com/... giving it back 2 whome i gt it 4m... read a few post f her n dey were fun.. so nw dat i can gv away d awrds... she gets it 4m me 2
7) rane @ http://soulofawoman-rane.blogspot.com/ .. now amm not much in2 reading poetry .. but certain posts f her made me go hahaha.. well i hv dis nack of goin hahahaha on almost evrythin .. n nething wid few obvious excption.. so guess wud gv her d awrd 2..
8) grl nxt door @ http://moments-i-will-cherish.blogspot.com/.. now few f her posts dat i read , gv a picture of how it is 2b getin in d corporate world n workin out der... n ne awrd wich can mk me :D.. gets sm appreciations 4m me..
n now d awards dat d birdie gave 2me
:P :P .... dis is kool.. 2 in 1 awrds.. kinda excited how gud a blogger i am :P :P 4 ppl deceiding 2 gv such awrds.. indeed it seems lyk an awrd season in d blogsphere 2me...
well coming 2 dis.. pleasent surprise.. only recently came across dis fellow blogger n she has been generous enuf 2 gv me 2 awrds so am flatterd... like i said b4.. many more desrving bloggers.. (hmmm will mk a post soon on all dis...) ya ok... but appreciation in any form in welcome.. infact appreciatd ..now i dnt mind getin awrds but its intersting wen u gt 2knw wot post or posts made sm1 gave u dat awrd.... cos den it wud feel more deserving .. but a n awrd is an awrd after all... so will accpt it wholeheartedly n a big :D... it feels nice ..tho my brain n funny way f thinking alwaz makes me c an opinion not many wud agree on or like... so dat opinion n dos thots wud b up in some post soon.... 4d tym am gona proudly display d awrds on my page n thank hapibirdie 4 bein so kind.... n will tk d opportunity 2 gv it away 2 sm i find desrving of dis awrd far more dan me .. tho dey alrdy mite hv it ..still gota pass 2d blogs dat mk me feel dey gota hv dis on der display...
n thnx 2d birdie again..b hapi alwaz
And The Rules
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Post this in one or all of your blogs.
Answer the four questions following these Rules.
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Questions & Your Answers:
(i) The person who tagged you: happy birdie
(ii) His/her site's title and url: http://hitaishi9.blogspot.com/
(iii) Date when you were tagged: 17 September 2009
1) monica @ http://ruminationsmyspc.blogspot.com/... most deserving candidate in my list
2) sugandha @ http://whysoserioustoday.blogspot.com/... funny blogs she rites at tyms.. n fun blogs r best read 4me
3) parul @ http://rambble-on.blogspot.com/... not many blogs by her.. but fun she is... n ya her brday 2mrw...so here is alil gift :P :P hapi brday.. n get more motivated by dis n start up sm serious fun bloggin
4) roshmi @ http://notapennyformythoughts.blogspot.com/... mythology n history ... dis is ur link
5) kasab iangurl @ http://kasabiangirl.blogspot.com/... now dats a hardcore blogger... alrdy many awrds 4 her... probably dis 1 mite b repeated .. but all gud
6)hapibirdie @ http://hitaishi9.blogspot.com/... giving it back 2 whome i gt it 4m... read a few post f her n dey were fun.. so nw dat i can gv away d awrds... she gets it 4m me 2
7) rane @ http://soulofawoman-rane.blogspot.com/ .. now amm not much in2 reading poetry .. but certain posts f her made me go hahaha.. well i hv dis nack of goin hahahaha on almost evrythin .. n nething wid few obvious excption.. so guess wud gv her d awrd 2..
8) grl nxt door @ http://moments-i-will-cherish.blogspot.com/.. now few f her posts dat i read , gv a picture of how it is 2b getin in d corporate world n workin out der... n ne awrd wich can mk me :D.. gets sm appreciations 4m me..
n now d awards dat d birdie gave 2me
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