born to booze

 dis post has been in d pipelines for long now.. just thot shud get it out here n break the heavy philosophical..( depressing or full f negatvty , as some wud say) posts.

dis gvs u an insite on how i hapnd 2 get d drinking habit.. well growing up i was alwaz tot by my folks dat alcohol is bad.. n ppl who drink alcohol r evn worse... only bad ppl get drunk.. n evn d gud 1s who drink become bad... the DEMON ALCOHOL.. n d gud kid dat i was(stil am :P) i alwaz stayed away from d daru gang.. but destiny had odr plans for me.. n soon i realised how i hv been in a misconception f associating dear alcohol wid d wrong...

fisrt tym evr i ws tricked by a frnd , luckily 4me i dint get tipsy evn after 4 pegs n 2 shots f vodka.. since den der ws no looking back... vodka ws history n i soon got 2 my calling ..SCOTCH WHISKEY.. some1 askd me wots d diff btwen d 2 ,, n i gues scotch is more smoother dan whiskey.. rest who cares.. drink it n u'ill knw all d differences.. pun intended here :P

alil socialising here n der with d alcohol, so dat i bttr b sober b4 getin back home.. well, d folks still got der prejudice against d poor thing.. so bttr y mix d 2.. n on dat i remmber drink 2 health drink 2 happiness. but never mix ur drink else u drink 2 il-health... or mayb somtym u shud drink 2 il-health :P.. cos by d end of it all drinking is d only concern..

i alwaz blv dat 90% f d ppl who get drunk only act stupid n r very much aware of wot dey r upto.. some jst tk an excuse 2 act stupid n some hv it in der head dat once dey drink dey ougth 2get tipsy.. my exprnce says.. yes u talk stupid ,, or is it dat u mk lots f sense once drunk... for some call it d truth syrup... haha.. jst felt like :P but der r d real heroes who actually get sloshed bad with excess f alcohol.. n evry1 needs 2get d hero in dem out once in a while.. ;p alwaz heard of hangover remedies but d truth is none f dos evr work.. n 1 shud nvr tk any f dos.. best remedy - drink again so dat d hangovr gets drunk itself :P.. n once its ovr... get andr 1.. only if u gota get home or ofyc next day,, .. well den u gota mk use f wichevr remedy works 4u..

enuf said tho not enuf done yet.... dis post is a pictorial tribute (2d first n hopefull d last tym dat i puked)... d day indeed a rathr early day(1am) wen i got drunk so bad dat i lost 3-4 hours f memory... d fatefull day rather it started at nite ..so d fatefull nite ws one f my frnds brday/housewarming party.. now if ur drinkin n dnt hv 2go back home :P den u shud nvr stop drinking unless d drinks r all ovr.. n dat nite v tuk d onus of getin all d bottles empty... n hell yeah we did.. :P only 2 get all dizzy d next morning rathr few hours later..

u wana avoid d hangover do not sleep or rather sleep for proper long hours... so dat once u get up u r completely normal.. mayb a lil headache.. but dats worth it... i mean imagine getin up in d morning bangin in d balcony door thinkin its d loo door :P.. den finding ur belt on d floor, shoes n sox scattered... wallet n fone misplaced n if u wear specs den dos wud b mislocated 2.. n still u go hell wid it lemme sleep 4 somtym 1st.... :P can it get bttr... hmm having said dat i think it can.. probably next tym d mixing f d drinks hapn, den will knw of my next hangover.. n so will d d blosphere... :P

i guess now widout further adue i bring 2u alil insite 2d nite/early morning dat was... njy ppl :P :P

n rest r bttr kept in d closet :P :P

read it somewhere.. alcohol does not solves any problem.. but neither dos milk... so CHEERS!!!

tangled up in you

"in this world where nothing else is true... here i am..... still tangled up in u..."

finally the 3yr long MCA came 2 an end cpl of days ago.. thot f posting dis 1 dat day itself but dint really feel lyk typing den.. but d 3 yrs , dis blogshpere n d ppl abt whome d post is goin 2b desrvd dis 1...d final day f colg,, d last viva f dem all.. smthing made me feel amazing dat day.... ws happy beynd happiness...sm say how can ending f d colg can mk u feel so,, fair enuf... but dunno wot was it..

nostalgia has been in d air 4 smtym now.. actually i felt it started alil early 4 sm f us :P... evn now dis post myt b a lil early ,, but guess sm yrs dwn d line reading it wud mk dat NOSTALGIA factor come alive... so it comes now.. but d essence f it mite tk smtym 2 surface.. (did dat make sense?? well am not a literature guy or a english teacher soo alls well :P)

goin back 2d 1st yr f colg.. d very 1st day ..1AUG 2007 ..SAD it ws.. lookin at d classmates i ws goin 2 hv 4d next 3yrs.. made me feel "lag gayi yar.. yeh kaisa crowd hai :P".. n den d thot of ok lemme jst b wid sm studious nerds n study here 4 3long yrs n get d degree n hallelujah... but den der ws dis fimiliar face.. sm1 4m my graduation days.. sm1 i had nvr noticed b4.. sm1 i had no contact wid.. but here d face seemd like a blessing in disguise :P.. a female 4m my grad tuition days.. who i nvr interactd wid.. but here it ws lyk .."ohh i knw u " how funny is dat.. ..dey say ppl r destined 2 meet 1 way or d odr.. guess it holds true in evry aspct n way... dis very female went on 2b d gelling factor for 5 more random individuals... probably she had d eye for genuine ppl :P n ws der 4d purpose f bringing in ppl 2ghtr.. d shorter she is in strature d taller she is in her ways n ambitions... the title of "jhansi ki rani"(tho i prefer 2 cal her chotti) mite jst fit her well... 4 incite her evn alil n she will b ready 2 tk on d world.....d precision she can chew d pen n transform it in2 a small lil umbrella ws commandable :P.. n mind u alot f concentration n precision went in2 it... 1yr dwn d line,, dunno how it went by.. n she left 4 greener pastures.. but not b4 she bot sm f totaly opposite ppl 2ght... looking back in tym... doesnt seem it wud hv been posible odrwise.. but den again if things r destined 2b.. den dey will b 1 way or d odr... she still remains chotti n d jhansi ki rani spirit only growin stronger day by day... :P

den der ws D dude... d master of all n jack of none.. is der anything on dis planet dat d dude cant hv solutin 2?? NONE.. my 1st interaction wid d dude.. n he goes on 2 ask me if i smoke n i need not feel shy if i do :P... unfortunate 4d dude.. i dnt.. alot changed ove tym wid d dude.. not a bad person but guess tyms n company smtyms mks us in2 a diff person altoghtr.. d day we start thinking abt wot odrs think n not wot we think.. dat very day v lose ourselves n d result aint rosy 4 no1.. had my share of bitter sweet exprnces wid d dude... guess not all can b frnds... ppl arnt gud or bad .. but tyms can b tricky... so 3yrs gone by.... i can only wish all d very best 2d dude.. n hope rathr am sure he will do exceedingly well in wotevr he chooses 2do..

now i'v met many a individuals in my life... but nvr b4 have i come across any on d same lines as f d ones am goin 2 write abt

dey say ladies 1st.. but am gona make it a lil diff by making ladies man 1st :P.. am sure d ladies wont mind at all on dis... n am not jst sayin dis 4d heck f it... smtym dwn d road i ws enlightend wid d fact dat d persons popularity has alwaz been such... 2d extend of him being called "MM"... wich ws short of marriage material :P... gurls 4m his grad days told him how he ws d guy who dey cud tk home n introduce 2 der family... talk abt fans.. here is a superstar himself... a GEM f a person in evryway f life... ppl develop an instant liking 4him. n in d last 3 yrs not jst women but men hv been attracted 2him alike :P :P... he can very easily b a male version on meneka.. LOL... dunno.. jst felt like writing dat... d guy's philosphy leaves me wondering at tyms... his humour n timing of one liners ... not many can match his wit.. tho i try but guess its natural born talent n not all can match mine eithr :P :P.... jokes apart , a very genuine person n evn a bttr frnd.. wud go n did go totaly opposite , out f his ways 2help out ppl.. i hapnd 2hv exprncd dat 4 my own misfortune :(

but like i said its all destined so cant really run alway 4m nothin.. tyms n situations r funny..

moving ahd of d ladies man... gota get 2d ladies now... 2f der own kind... d 1st tym i got 2 knw dem... :P well d fact dey being 4m a gurls convent made me cautious... thot dey were clever n only acting 2b dumb but wid tym dey prvd me wrong :P :P... dey were neithr clever nor dumb ...while one has a childish like smile n glint in d eye... d odr has elegance n sophistications of a royal princess... while 1 is hasmukh d odr 1 is dadi ma , where ones infectious smile can brighten evn d gloomiest f atmosphere arnd, d odrs dignity n class will mk u try n b in ur best behaviour... needless 2 say both had der own huge fan following ... guys wanting 2 jst say a hi... but only managing d courage 2do d same on social networking :P :P... funny 2wrds d beginning f it all dey hated me 4my rude n to much in d face nature... i 2 dint had much likin 4d 2 eithr.. partially 4 der schooling history :P n partially f d fact dat dey dint approve f my ways f treating ppl n d dislike ws evident... but wid tym d dislikes changed in2....hmmm... appreciations lets say n not likes 2 b politically correct here :P :P.... things chngd wid tym 4 gud n d way dey stand now.. it funny thinking f how n where v started...

3 long yrs made short by certain ppl... had our shares of ups n downs... d latter being few,, n former being so many dat cant count dem ....n d dwns i blv only bot us evn closer.. 4it made me realse d value n need of des ppl arnd.... remmbr d days f nonstop nonsense lafters 4 no rhyme or reason.. finding d humour in almost nething.. laffing 4 hours dat d jaw starts aching n tears start rolling dwn d cheeks.. of 1 particular individual specially...d bonding tyms at NSP or countless hours at CP...

remmbering tyms f making fun f almost evry1 :P... d way some walkd.. d way odrs used 2 talk... den d postures few used 2mk .. suggestin as if dey r asking d teachers.. "madam meri maar lo" ROFL.... giving nicknames 2 ppl... d kartik ka mahina incidences :P.. n countless such memories... guess i alone cant recollect dem all.. aftr all i ws not a only 1 ... i had my partners in crime....

i alwaz hated d class rooms n lectures,, ws on d low side f d attndence alwaz .. n cudnt stand d administration.. but still am glad i landed up in d colg dat ws ours 4d past 3 yrs... 4 i made sm frnds here who i jst cnt afford 2 lose.. each individual made me realise smthing or d odr.... my post r usually long ..dunno if dis 1 is short or long.. but it sure is very small 2 jott dwn all my memories n praises 4 des individuals.. but guess like sm things sm memories r bttr kept unsaid n unshared...

P.S. prior 2 starting dis post, jst say a dosti video upload by a talented junior.. wid d jane kyun song 4m dostana bein played in d backgrnd... d song sure fits d bill ... am not makin no radio broadcast request here.. but sure wud dedicate it 2d few close 1s who i sure cant b widout.... :P

CHEERS!!!

"how long has it been since this story line begin....... n i hope it never ends .....n goes like dis 4evr"

P.P.S. the start n end quoted lines are 4m d very same song which is d title 4dis post....

My Jekyll Doesn't Hide

stautionary warning: dis post is going 2b reminiscence of my older post....old wine in new bottle types,nothin new in it.. jst dat hvnt posted 4 long so thot will post smthing :P


smtym during my junior school day i read dis amazing story wich still fascinates me .. the story of DR JEKYLL and MR HIDE.. tho i dnt remmbr d whole story but d idea f how 1 small portion can change d respctful educated doctor in2 a lost soul rathr a wickd creature at nite is evil.. awesum isnt it...tho 2day i wonder do v really need ne such portion 2 turn in2 1such creature,, b it day or nite?? or is it sm portion dat v require so dat v can b othrWISE... PHILOSOPHY :P .. i so love d subject..specially wen i get 2 gv it 2 ppl.. n bsyds been long now since i last posted smthing her on d blogsphere... (not dat i hv disappointed ne f my fans here :P.. but still) so thot y not jott dwn smthing... this track title seemd nice thot wud mk it d title 4d post..

its been awhile n nothin really has been coming 2my head.. well actually nothing really worthwhile posting here.. d head had hundreds f things flickering evyday.. jst not having d peace 2 sort dem out.. n no hope seems 2b on d way for dat in d near future.. so gota let things b n tym play its part.. v all want d perfect world 4 ourselves n keep searchin 4 it all d tym.. smtyms v evn think v jst myt hv got dat .. but b4 v realise its tym 2 move on... in practicalty dat perfect world doesnt exists.. no mattr how hard u try 2 find it u can nvr keep it d way it is... like dey say change is d only constant ,,, so b it.. i blv in d "tym cycle" or "samay ka chakra" shud i say,, 4 wenevr thing arnt goin d rite way 4 me.. i like 2 blv tym will show d way n der is nothing dat i can do 2 mk things rite... more or less d philosphy of let tym tk control f it , is wot keeps me goin.. but dunno wen d tym mite play d spoil sport n throw d short ball wich i wnt b able 2 avoid.. well as i blv ... tym will tk cr f evn dat :P :P..

nehw coming back 2d title f d post.. wot i thot f posting here...

now for smtym (shud hv named d post tym n again or smthing like dat mayb ,nvrdless) i hv been noticing or shud i say hv been made 2 notice or realise a certain trend dat i hv had in my life for long now... i like 2 blv dis is how i hv alwaz been... but off late 2 many ppl hv been tryin 2 mk me realise how i'v been (n do i care abt des suggestion n realizations?? well dnt think i do.. but still am posting here for it seemd nice topic 2 squeeze a post out f it :P.. so gota thnx dos ppl for dis...) i am made 2 blv or shud i say i blv ;p.. dat wid me arnd der is no conversation dat remains a conversation.. n more dan often it changes in2 an argument or debate.. n bttr still (4 me atlst) it winds up wid me having d last word ;p almost alwaz.. now is it dat am gud or is it dat am suferring 4m sm disorder 2 hv d last say all d tym .. or is it sm escape routine dat i mite b on2 widout realising it... phewww dats heavy.. nvr gave it a thot but writing here it seems scary,,,, but its more scary 4d ppl arnd dan me so all gud :P or is it??? ... not many r able r handle d pressure n more dan often dey tk d back seat... a frnd rathr EX frnd once said i'll keep losing all my frnds if i dnt stop dis habit f mine... for wich i blv if my frnds cant handle my flaw (like she wud hv had liked me 2 blv it dat its a flaw) den dey arnt my frnds in d 1st place... 4me its like if u wont ovrlook a persons flaws u can nvr bfrnd dem... d sole reason y v r frnds wid ppl dat v r frnds wid is becos v dnt mind der flaws or d odr syd.. but rathr blv in dem n njy d tyms wid dem... u wnt get d diamond till u dig deep in d coal mine :P.. off course u can get d polishd custom made 1 at d stores but u gota pay heavy materialistc price 4it n dey r polishd not in d raw form.... but d 1 u find in d coal mine by all ur efforts is d 1 u gona cherish evn more... dat cost wudnt b materialstc :P :P.. (and i cant help but tap myself on d back 4 dis philosophy :P :P,, excuse me 4 dat)

sarcasm n comments have become synonomous wid me now.. well dey hv alwaz been der wid me.. for me bsyds me ;p... but guess now its pinching ppl 2 much... n worst still as dey wud feel (bttr still like i wud say) it doesnt mttrs 2me if dey get pissed of... now i knw am gona get sm gyan 4 dis.. well hv been getin in d near past 2 (hmm near past sounds wierd..).. but still if ppl cant stop acting like morons n jackasses,, dey dnt expect me 2 stop torturing dem.. for dey get wot dey gv .... poor souls dey r ... for dey blv i can only strip ppl off der dignity... wot dey dont realise is .. dey alrdy r naked in dat deprtmnt... LOL n i dnt say it out f arrogance .. but i say dis 4 i hv ppl n frnds arnd who hv been der n ovrlookd d flaws (if it is i still wud say :P) n dey knw how it is wen i praise ppl.. like d post title says... MY JEKYLL doesnt HIDE... u act like an asshole arnd me n i'll b ur worst nitemare... u dnt b 1 n u'ill c i aint dat bad aftr all... well i wnt b bad but u still will b an asshole deep dwn insyd so no use...

all des philosphies hv been working fine 4 me uptill now... :-/ stepping in2 d corporate world has changed a thing or two in less dan 3 months... dunno how long n d jekyll 2 hide transition wud b complete on me... playin ofyc ofyc sure isnt easy... getin in d mud 2 wrestle d pig u hv 2 get dirty .. evn if u try 2 stay out f it.. still ur arnd n d splashes will get u dirty... no mattr where u plan 2 run away its all arnd... only d mud puddle n pigs r diff... n dey r literally licking d arse f ones in front f dem... not a game am gona play... nvr played it nvr will... dey say survival f d fittest .. u not gona get fit by licking assess assholes..

its funny how ppl change der colors in a split sec ... dis art has baffeled me alwaz.. but i nvr had 2 tk such crap in life... n now gota think 2wc b4 getin d thots across... dat scares me... gota device d ways 2 b mr hide wen in d corporate n dr jekyll wen out in d normal world... but often d portion plays 4 long n b4 v knw its mr hide who has taken ovr in all aspects f life....

evry1 has sm1 sitting on top of dem wid a stick in hand 2 spank (:p)  or d way it goes 2day bamboo 2 ahhmmm ahhmmm... nehw dats not imp how u address d issue.. wot imp is y tk dat bamboo or stick or any crap... ?? nw here d old refuge "tym "comes in2 its tricky mode n mks u do wot u nvr thot u will... all our lives v keep working hard 2 get in2 d corporate n once in der it gets evn worse.. atlst dats wot my 2 odd months f corpor8 life suggets.. now its not dat bad eithr... for i like 2 blv things cud hv been evn worse... n alwaz picture d worst case scenario 2 mk myself content wid wot is arnd... but den nostalgia f d tyms n ppl 4m dat once existent perfect world mks me wonder where am i n doin wot??

hmm how did i start n where am i goin now... (i mean 2 say dat 4d flow f d post :P) guess shud stop now.. else i'll get bored writing 4gt abt ppl reading dis... so gues aftr a long hibernation like a fellow blogger said... here is my latest post :P... dunno wen d nxt instalment wil surface.. tho ending dis smthing has alrdy croppd up in d mind.. not on des lines smthin dat most f d ppl who read my posts knw... but still myt b fun givin d photographc insite on it... chalo till den dis is all i got...

P.S. i dnt think i can stop d habit f commenting .. its deep down insyd f me ;p... bsyds i blv d 1s who cant match  d wit end up sulking sayin evrything is a topic f debate or argumnt 4me.. for der r d 1s who njy des discussions n more dan often end up outwitting me n having d last words.. :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! congratulations n celebrations....

well had nothin 2 blog of late things arnt such dat need 2b blogged down... rather dey shud  disappear smwhre in d long lost world but still dats how life is goin 2b still 2 start 4 most f us

nehw dis post isnt meant 2b abt me or how things r wid me... dis is 1f a kind u'il find on my link here..

happy brithday 2 my neice :D...

18th jan dis year she turned a whole year old :)... seems like jst yestday she ws brand new looking like dis

n now jst 2 days ago she ws cutting her 1st beday cake.. well not really d 1st 1.. she has been cuttin cakes 4 each month of completion so guess dis ws 1 thing she hs alrdy perfectd 2 perfection :P

now i can still remmbr her 4m d days she wud lie curled up, n evry1 arnd wud b waiting 2 get 1 glimpse f her wen she opens d eyes, 4 most f tym early dos days she wud b sleeping curled up like all d kiddos... infants rathr

 am scared of kids, n vice versa, we have dis mutual thing dat dey r scared f me n am not very comfrtble arnd dem eithr, n it ws d same wid my neice 2, i dint gathred d courage 2 pik her up in my arms .. not b4 she ws 6months old... dat to 4 a min or so i held her , trust me dat ws one f dos very tense minutes f my life, now am not gud wid delicate things.. n wot more delicate dan a cute lil kiddo, ws so scared if i wud drop her or held her 2 hard dat she mite cry... so alwaz admired her 4m a certain distance dat made me n her comfrtable, i said mutual 4 she 2 wud run away n hide herself in comfrt f her  mommy or her mommy's mommy  .. i dnt blame d poor kid 4 dat, 4 often evn grown up adults get intimidatd by me leave asyds infants... n am not jst sayin dat.. it is d case,,, i remmber meeting an old tym school frnd aftr 3 4 yrs while she ws takin a stroll in d park... n d way her mom gt scared thinking who is dis guy n y does my daughter knw his :P haha ya dats wot ws written on her face... tho smhw i find dat amussing :P ..i still do

so nvrmind d frnd's mom 4 d lady f d moment is sm1 else,,, sm1 who now is not scared f me anymore,, guess she has matured enuf n accptd d fact dat her uncle (mama) is alwaz goin 2b wierd like dis :P so now she does runs away rather sports a wide spread smile looking at me.. dat 1 smile of a child ,,wot wonders it does v all knw... only wen u knw d kid is smiling 4u it mks ur day evn bttr :D...

ws fun 2 watch her try n sit in her early day(well evn still she in in early days but a yr old nvrdless) but fall 2d side like dat humpty dumpty toy :P.. i knw sm mite say how rude or mean 2 compare her like dis but d fact is it ws so CUTE... ,,, wen she startd goin wayward in her walker jst bumping in2 random stuff n still b laffing cheerfull... no wonder d expression" laf like a child ".. i smhw relate 2d expression more now... cos seeing is blving :P... wonders happn n sure dey keep on hapnin wid a kid arnd... her 1st brday n she ws standing (wid a lil support negligble tho)by herself.... waiting 4d day her crawls wud b convertd 2 lil walks... d small lil words she has learnd 2 mummble... MAMA ..PAPAIYA... BUA NANA...  words v hear all our life but d same coming out f her mouth makes dem priceless,, my folks sit 4 hrs ovr d fone wen she is not arnd jst 2 listen 2 des small words 4m her n dat brightens d atmosphere arnd.. tho i find dat pretty lame :-/.. still dat lil voice on d speaker makes me smile 2 :D.. n ya i jst love n cant find nething more adorable wen she sneezes :P :P...its awesum... tho wish d cold (n odr such stuff)stay away 4m her

1 lilttle kiddo n she can capture any no f ppl in d house ,she sits in d middle n has all arnd her jst wantin 2 say der name or mk a gesture 2wrds dem or jst smile at dem.. am lucky 2 get alot f smiles 4m her... :) n often she mks u laf hard loud... does her routine of poo poo n pee pee n wen her mom will scold her 4 spoliling d clothes she wil laf n hv dat glint in d eye ..as if sayin hehe u clean my poo poo i'll jst lie here n laf :P... smtyms feels she is goin 2 grow up in2 very mischievious kiddo n y not she is alrdy pamperd 2 ervy possble extent .... loves d outdoors, jst any1 who can tk her out 4a walk,,she literally jumps in2 der arms.. n refuses 2 get dwn,, also will start crying if u stop roaming n sit dwn or stand still...

dey say kids knw all d secrets f life n death n till d tym d kiddo starts 2 speak he/she remmbers al f his/her pastlife.. evry act dey do, evry way dey behave dey r very much aware of wot dey r up2.. only cant express in words,, n slowly dis memory starts evading dem n b4 dey start 2 speak dey have der brains as brand new hard disk wid no bakcup.. dunno how much fact or fiction is associated wid dis funda.. but 1 thing 4sure kids sure knw n can sense d atmosphere arnd dem... 4 if dey knw dey r bein scolded in real dey mk d puppy face or der innocent face.. well kids alwaz look innocent .. only wot do i say wen talkin f 1.. nehw whtr der memory holds d secret or not.. 1  secret dey sure hold ,, d secret f makin ppl arnd happy on any occassion n in any circumstances.. 4 1smile n d day is goin 2b fine.. any tym f d day things go dwn jst gota b reminded f dat smling toothless jaw  :P... n ya she has 6 teeth now btw..4 in d upper jaw n 2 in d middle of d bottom 1... no more d POOPLI smile...... still it does wonders :)

 

well c told u i did manage 2 hold her now.. only in dis particular pic she refused 2 smile :(... seems still gets scared wen comes 2 close in proximity wid my beard mayb... cos she smiles really big jst looking at me.. or mayb laffs thinkin "kya mama insaan ban jao :P apke baal toh mujhse bhi lambe hai hehe"

dunno wot goes on her mind

another picture f her ... wid d tongue teasing all arnd sayin am d kiddo  :P :P... LUV U KIDDO

she is goin 2 celebr8 her day dis saturday nite big tym only i guess i'll miss dat :(... but looking at d postv side its jst 1f d starting brdays 4her ... but she is goin 2b special on all her brday 4vr... GOD BLESS n damn am growing old....

AND also... dis is not jst 1 reason 2 post 2day.. remmberd a song 4m school tym it went

if ur happy n u knw it clap ur hands

if ur happy n u knw it clap ur hands

if ur hand n u knw it n u really wan2 show it

if ur happy n u knw it clap ur hands...

CLAP CLAP CLAP

2 of my dearest friends got placed 2day :D... CONGRATULATIONS 2 both f dem ... u mk me proud:P :P...it feels happy wen ppl who deserve things n r well worthy f dem get dem...n am really glad 2day 4 not only des2 desrvd being placed dey r cpl f close few 4m d colg 4me... both f dem placed 2ghtr at d same firm n wot bttr finally a workplace near der home :P all des yrs dey had 2 travel places 2 reach colg n made words like puntuality n regularity  mk sense 4me.. tho i still cudnt mk use f dem evn aftr getin d meaing well :P :P....

 

well congrats ladies n keep smiling :D so,

CLAP CLAP CLAP

STOMP STOMP STOMP

TURN AROUND 3 times...

well d 1s who knw d song will knw wot am sayin rest can clap stomp or turn arnd or jst leave a commnt readin dis :P :P...

so congratualtions 2my sweet little kiddo 4 turning an yr old,,, n congrats 2d 2 ladies 4 turning a new stone in der lives n makin a new start 4 dem selves... celebration 4 dem n ME 4 having such wonderfull ppl arnd

3 CHEERS!!!

liFE biRtH bLoOd DooM

"what is life, except excuse for death... n death is nothing but an escape from life"

some quote i found online... d circle f life n death... well known topic.. nothin new u guys gona find in dis post..

random n irrelevent connction between sm lines u myt feel.. but kept dis in drafts 4 long ... certain hapnin in d past got me started writin dis post.. so wot evr gets 2d brain.... , am jotin it dwn... all need not b related well .. jst d idea of life n death mite revolve thruout.. so hv fun

reading dis post u mite jst feel sad n go back in tym not like d feeling... but dats not my intention here.. tho i knw its no gud writin dis post .. i personally dont like readin such works wich r talkin abt reality n philosophical stuff.. rathr wud njoy readin smthing dat can mk me smile n get me laffing.. only felt like postin here .. so got down doin dis... now d concept f evrything dat starts gota end... all is perishable, nothin remains 4vr. how many tyms v hear dis n get across such fundas in life.. but still dnt want any such thing 2 hapn wid us.. v loose wots close 2 us .. smthin or sm1 v cant think f life widout.. but d fact is v still continue 2 live ... our tym is still not ovr.. n hence v gota go on till d tym is up 4 us...

d concept of attachment detachment is funny 4 me, smhw feel dat v human being as per our convnience get attachd n detachd as n wen requird... myt not b d case wid all , but most f us n dat % f ppl including me i feel ,r nothin but polishd hypocrites ... hw does hypocrcy works here,, i dunno.. probably foolin our own selves f how detachd v r .. while d truth mayb d othr way round... i personally am kind f a person who wont b affected much or b moved by news of death n all.. smhw it seems 2me dat evntually its gona hapn.. i dunno how 2 react if sm1 says der so n so died.. i dnt understnd y ppl say sorry wen dey hear f such news?? ok u feel sory 4d persons lose, but den again u dint do no nothin n der ws nothin u cud have had done 2 stop it.. y r v sory den??is dis has now become a standard way of behaving wen smthin like dat hapns... i 2 wud jst say d same thing probably cos v realy dnt knw wot 2 say... do v say 'dats sad'.. yes it is.. is der a point askin 'r u ok'.. no u fool defintly d person is not ok... n worse still evry 3rd person walkin in ask d same ques of 'how n wen ' it hapnd

d person is alrdy messed up in der grief n u wana knw how it all hapnd? y is dat?? guess wot else do v ask den.. so standard set things ppl say n do at such situations n dats how it all goes...

now ppl wont eat, as in wen sm1 expires arnd dem.... dey wont feel like goin ne whr aftr getin 2knw such news... dey instantly get sad n feel its all over ... n dis is not dat sm near n dear 2 dem died.. but any1 dey knew 4m smwhr... dats bein sensitv 2d news n behaving like a human being i guess... but dis is wot gets me wondering... mayb smthin wrong wid me?? am i 2 insensitve 2wards ppl n life ?? cos if i get 2 hear such news .. i tend 2 b in d same frame f mind dat i ws proir 2 it.. i wnt stop eatin.. or stop wot i ws goin 2do d next moment...well dats me....

dey say as v grow up, v ourselves start understndin wots hapnin arnd.. v become more n more sensitv 2 such tyms.... but dunno wots wrong wid me.. i hear news of sm1 passing away n am unmoved... b it sm1 i barely knew.. or sm1 i knew well.. or sm1 i dint know at all.. its d same reaction 4 me... 'OK' .. does dat means am 2 insensitv 2b a human bein ?? i hope not... does dat means losing ne1 close 2me wont affct me eithr.. i feel not... cos d idea f losing sm1 who mttrs 2me,, mks me jittery.. knowin its all gona end n death is d final destination of life.. wich v all will 1 day or d othr reach,, but d only way i feel i can cope up wid losing my dear 1s is dat i die b4 dat.. dats how strong n detached i am... or how insecure n weak i am.. hmm dats only 4 tym 2 tell..... but its funny cos smhw i cannot relate 2 any situations or ceremonies wich mk ppl go on extremes... i dnt like goin 2 cremenations.. n i dnt like attendin marriages eithr.. but at tyms v r complied 2do so... der is no comparison btween d emotions invld in d 2 ceremonies.. but neithr of dem mks me feel like bein der.. call me weird but dat hw it is 4me...antisocial mayb.. but wot can i do if such emotions dnt come natural 2me.. or mayb i'v conditiond myself wid tym..not 2 react much n b cold 2 all such evnts... tho smtyms it shakes me bad.... imagine v decide not 2 get in touch wid sm1 again in our live n less v knw , it jst mite b d case... how does it feels wen u hv argumnt wid sm1.. u develop  grudges 4 certain ppl n decide 2 stay away 4m dem 4 alwaz... but if it so hapns dat u get d news d der demise .... how do u feel.. its like d last confrontation wid dat person ws a fite.... now d person is gone 4 real n in dis life v arnt getin in touch again wid dem.. (xactly wot v decideed,, only not dis way),wot if v feel smwhr it ws our fault n shud hv got d records strait wid dat person.. or evn if it ws dat both d parties were at fault, wot gud is it doin 2 dcyd not 2 get in each odrs way in dis life tym ?? so v dcyd 2 set things asyd but b4 v knw.. its 2 late now.. n wot r v left wid,,, a guilt insyd cursing our ownselves ..d last words u had wid d person were smthin dat jst myt haunt u 4evr.... so jst 2 mk sure no such thing hapns..shud v b leting morons be demselves d bearing wid dem.. cos v dnt want 2 regrets later??? or do v doom dem 2 hell n keep dem asyd , live our lives peacefully???   den der r chances f u hatin a person n evry1 knws wot d jerk he/she ws in der lifetym but wen dey die.. well ,,,all go on sayin wot a wonderfull person he or she ws.... n how dey wud b missd.. but bringing forth d truth wud b rude n bad.. 4 not 2 tk bad of sm1 who is dead... isnt it so? but wen d person ws alive.. curse him/her like hell.. wot a wonderfull concept v ppl have... respect d dead n mock d living...

sm say d ultimate way f life is bein detachd n not feeling nethin.. but lyk i said v nvr knw wen n wot will get us attchd 2 it or dem.. lookin at d world arnd wot do v get 2 keep wid us... wot all can v possbly gain... in d same aspct... wot can v possbly loose....hmm heavy stuff isnt it ... n dnt v all like 2 talk n sound philosophical.. but hw many f us practice wot v preach?? i dbt not many.. 

dnt hv much 2 rite now... guess wud leave dis here only.. dis mite b 1f d short post 4d readers .. so wont get dem complaining...

d TAG of innocent guilt...

anothr of tags i got, kinda strnge dis 1 .. did not get it in d 1st go.. aftr askin d tagger it seems here v hve certian questions n gota gv 1 word ans 2 dem...where innocent says no n guilty means yes in d tag... so will get ovr wid dis now..  not much 2do in dis tag... dey say tags r gr8 way 2knw more f ppl... well go ahd knw more f me..

MONICA @ http://ruminationsmyspc.blogspot.com/  tagged me.

RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.

Asked someone to marry you? Innocent.
Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent.
Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent.
Ever told a lie? Guilty.
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty.
Kissed a picture? Innocent.
Slept in until 5 PM? Guilty.
Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty.
Held a snake? Innocent.
Been suspended from school? Guilty.
Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent.
Stolen from a store? Guilty.
Been fired from a job? Innocent.
Done something you regret? Guilty.
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent.
Kissed in the rain? Innocent.
Sat on a roof top? Guilty.
Kissed someone you shouldn't? Innocent.
Sang in the shower? Guilty.
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.
Shaved your head? Innocent.
Had a boxing membership? Innocent.
Made a boyfriend cry? Innocent.
Been in a band? Innocent.
Shot a gun? Innocent.
Donated Blood? Guilty.
Eaten alligator meat? Innocent.
Eaten cheesecake? Innocent.
Still love someone you shouldn't? Innocent.
Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.
Liked someone, but will never tell who? Innocent.
Been too honest? Guilty.
Ruined a surprise? Guilty.
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn't walk after wards? Guilty.
Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty.
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent.
Joined a pageant? Innocent.
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Innocent.
Had communication with your ex? Innocent.
Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Guilty.
Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty.

as 4 taggin ppl... guess whosoevr wants 2 do it...

DUMB DUMB DUMB....

THE dUMB dUMBER dUMBEST QUIZ. seems like d funny quizzes have had alrdy made der way in2 blogger 4m facebook n all.. got 2do dis 1 by monica... lets c wot i score


Here's the quiz

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking
(worse still d gum got stuck in my hair, hair on d head, thot shud specify :P...)

[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking

[ ] You have ran into a glass/screen door

[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle
(jumping of d moving bus qualifies i guess)

[x] You have thought of something funny while walking by yourself
(hapns alot..)

[x] Laughed, then watched people give you weird looks
(hapns all d tym)

[x] You have run into a tree/bush.

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
(hahaha dint knew dat.. )

[x] You have tried to lick your elbow… a few times
( :P jst tried after reading d above statement, no success tho)

[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little star have the same rhythm.

[x] You just tried to sing them.
(hi dey do kinda hv d same ryhme,, not dat dumb a quiz i guess,, only makin ppl smarter)

[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.

[ ] You have choked on your own spit .

[x] You have seen the Matrix and still don’t get it.
(got d 1st 2 parts... d 3rd 1 got way 2 wierd)

[ ] You’ve never seen the Matrix.

[ ] You type only with two fingers.

[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire

[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
(now d water gt in2 nose cos f stupid lafs)

[x] You have caught yourself drooling.

[x] You have fallen asleep in class and fell outta your chair
(fallen asleep yes,, fell outta chair yes... but not both at d same tym.. )

[x] You stared hard at someone trying to figure whether the person was he or she

[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking

[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about

[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
(some evn shake der heads wen dey knw dey gota talk 2me now :P :P)

[x] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
(dont understand d concept f inside voice tho.... depends tym 2 tym it seems)

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math

[x] You have eaten a bug
(not knowingly.. myt hv munched few at nites wid d food)

[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important
(not exactly... got nothing bttr 2do if think in 1 way...n have alot f stuff 2 tk care f if think d othr way)

[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it

[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand
(in hands ?? hahaha evn more funny ..as a kid wen got 2 wear d specs initially ws searching 4 my specs all arnd only 2 find myself wearing dem on d eyes wen searchin 4 it in front f d mirror :P :P... wow d quiz is made 4 me it seems :P :P)

[ ] You have ran around naked in your house.
(hahahahahha ok... hmm probably one day wen i'll hv my own house n live alone den jst myt do dis :P :P.. not run arnd tho.. walkin wud b jst fine)

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t.

[ ] You break a lot of things.
(not alot .. but things keep breakin here n der ...)

[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
(wot type of big words??..askin dat question dumb?? but still big words differ 4 all)

[x] You tilt your head when you’re confused
(well can tilt or do othr random stuf wen confused n helloo wen confused ur supposd 2do random stuff)

[x] You have fallen out of your chair before

[ ] Mistook your teacher to be a student

[x] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling or wall
(hmmm well need not specialy be lyin in bed... jst gota b vela n nothin 2do like rite now :P :P)

[x] The word “ummmmm” is used many times a day.
(it hapns most wen in viva n interviews i guess :D)

[x] Have you opened your mouth to say something but then you pretended as if you were yawning because you forgot what you wanted to say.
(smtyms not dat i 4gt but lookin at d person 2 whome ws goin 2say... decyd against sayin it ..hence d yawn or smile or random face)

TOTAL 29

I am (29/40)*100 = 72.5% DUMB!!!

chalo if not d academics ... getin a score f 70 + not bad... probably my dad wud b hapi ... hahahahhahahahah
n who i wud like 2 compare my dumbness wid... hmm guess all in d list f followers n whosoevr reading dis.. n do lemme knw once u thru wid d dumbness :P :P... n complete it soon.. d sooner u knw d bettr it is 4u my frnd,,, go chk ur dumbness... BE A MAN... or WOMAN... wotevr b ur case