a solitary wise advisor

Serene, elegant, exquisite. These are few of the many qualities people relate to, with just a thought of you. So it intrigued me, (for the first time in all these years that I have known/not known you) what could be the possible meaning of the name MOINCA. And believe me not, the very title of this post is what it means. Not to my or anyone else’s surprise.

You have been posting birthday blogs for others and self (once if I remember correctly) for some time now, thought would try and post one for you this time. They often say actions speak louder than words, but somehow in your world it could be the other way round. Knowing you in not knowing you, for you are one hard nut to crack (read - pulling my hair). Yet the simplicity you have, not knowing you would be to miss something beautiful in life. Like many of my post (I think), I could be contradicting my words here. Then again sometimes it’s better to leave words open ended than giving definitive conclusion (read – yes, no ,maybe and the best “i don’t know” ). As they say, the beauty of the chapter is often best while it’s still not over. What good is a mystery solved!!

Coming back to your birthday post (and refraining myself from the philosophical bakchodi), HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONICA :-) alias dadi ma alias momd alias monix (and the ones I am not aware of). I know the idea of your birthday does not excites you, but still you can’t help feeling special on this particular day. If you don’t the ones around you are going to make it that way, no matter how reluctant and uncomfortable you get. The cakes, the gifts, the flowers and all things ‘birthdayie’ shall be there.

December birthdays wishes I feel are always tricky, for people often wish “may this year be the best for you”, while technically the year calendar is about to get over. And you choose to be born in this month. Don’t you like to complicating things for people!! Everyone throws tantrums to do this, do that, get me this, get me that, for it’s my birthday. However your tantrums are don’t get me anything, don’t do nothing special, for its only my birthday!! The devilish streak in you is all time high on this day of the year I guess, for you make it difficult for people to make it special doing the usual ‘birthdayie’ (a new word learnt, eureka!!) stuff. Kuch hatt k karna padta hai everytime, because the next year you would say "yeh ni karna". Thodi daya karo bacho pe dadi ma, and normal cake cutting, flowers, chocolates type birthday for you karne diya kar. At the same time the simplest of things and stuff can make you smile the most. You leave me no choice but to be bewildered.

From the first impression of you till this day, have seen you change and evolve like no other. Yet the very virtues of being MONICA are still the same, sophisticated, moody, unreasonable (who said it was all praises ;-)), kind and a whole lot more (which I might have used before and shall do in years to come). You are weird as crazy, yet plain and composed at the same time. Well my prowess with words is not too good, only if could have taken your help here the adjectives list would have been longer. But guess even few words are enough at times. And who better than you knows that. "The girl of few words". A lot has changed; and a lot will change in the days to come. Irrespective of that, birthdays will come every year and irrespective of all the changes, some things will remain the same. You still will cut the cakes and you still will get those gifts. Let this post be my gift to you this year. For if nothing else, I know the following snapshots will make you smile. For your love of your girlfriends :-P is universal.

P.S. You might not like the birthday cakes and gifts, but I still would look forward for your birthday treat. That you can't run away from. Maybe the resto studio is where you can take me.  HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN AND HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY :)
 

bombay local

"the city never sleeps" some say. While it's  "the city of dreams" for others.'Funny though, like an oxyMORON maybe, for the city of dream never sleeps???  The usual principle would dictate one needs to sleep to dream, so just a city of day dreamers then. Or the zombies have already taken hold of the city and the idea of dead man walking has begun to spread.' The flux of thoughts were still loud in his head when suddenly he felt the commotion and realised the zombies have come to life and the race for who gets the best kill is on.

THE BOMBAY LOCAL

Railways - A humble mode of transportation suitable for all age group, taking people to their “dream destination” (well, more or less).  

Mumbai locals however seem to have evolved into a different breed altogether. It has a strange effect on the people. People who just seconds ago were civilised, well behaved (or maybe not) and 'oh so culured', are now an angry mob, not a flash mob (how aunthentic is that anyways), but a real mob. From a 6 year old to a 60 year old, the only "laksya" they see, lies with those elusive window seats. Something orgasmic about these seats maybe, for the look of satisfaction and the grin of relief/victory on the faces of the conquerors is something. 

 “It’s the life line of our city”, a proud Marathi gentleman ("gentleman"? nevermind) exclaims. “The stats say more than 6 million commuters take the locals everyday”, another proud voice among the lot.

‘But the stats also says it kill over 600 people every year. A conventional lifeline would not kill someone, but do otherwise. Then again, nothing conventional in the times we live. And the stats! Well damn the stats. They are nothing but works of a bored one trying to make a point with numbers, while others just manipulate these numbers and get their kicks out of it (those interviewers with their guesstimates, take a local ride and I will make you an estimate you cannot refuse).’

Almost a year in the city and he was still adjusting to the cultural shocks that keep running into him. While taking a public transport was never a deal breaker, it never was a preferred choice either. But the city of dreams does not leave you with many options. Irony??  The options made available, are either a waste of time or money, and mostly both.

'When did it all come to this!'

A screeching brake and the whole world goes forward, not still, but forward. Yes the train has arrived on the platform. It’s showtime. Prepare yourself for what can be the very beginning of a zombie apocalypse

”Kiska kursi ka” wouldn’t be this aggressive even in the parliament.“Come what may I shall take what’s right fully mine” (is it really?). One jump and before the suspecting/ not so suspecting ones trying to get off the train, a swing and a hit. Needless to say it goes both ways, it’s a free society after all. You got my back, I got yours.

‘Its gonna be a while to make this present the past, so one might just play along and make the most of it. Not everyone would be blessed to experience the insider story. Let's just go numb and observe the jewels one is surrounded with.’

So begins the day in the city of dreams..

wise man say.. only fool rush in.. but i cant help.. falling in love... (with u)

PreScript:  d name f d post is jst d random song i recalled while writing this.. thot y not mk it d title of this post.. (i like keeping d titles of my posts on song titles) nothing hidden btween d lines or strings attached to it :P

a random thot crossed my mind "" WHY IN ALL THE LEGENDARY LOVE STORIES THE GUY AND THE GAL NEVER ENDED WITH EACH OTHER (read romeo juliet, laila majnu .... heer ranjha.. cant remmber any other)

another random thot crossed my mind and i got the answer.. "these stories became legends cause the love always remained ....it never got over"...

hmm interesting.. now being a stronger logical analytical brains (as some stupid application on FB suggested smtym back.. well evn sm ppl say so) i have come to blv dat d only reason for that was because the relationships ended when it was at its peak.. had these guys settled with each other... married and stuff.. d love wud hv ended for sure.. hmm.. maybe its not jst random tots..but  impression f talks arnd, for lots f ppl r tokin f  d movie pyar ka punchnama.. i blv its based on similar lines.. as in how love goes in wonderland once d lovebirds end toghtr.. i hvnt seen d movie but guess dats wot its all abt.. still this post aint no revw abt d movie (havnt seen it in d 1st place...) jst thots .. plus been a while (like alwaz) dat i last blogged...so...

"wot is today .. one day will be.." nothing remains.. (unless ur some mythological god or goddess) or d soul funda of we never exist we never perish..well i dnt knw .. am jst one ordinary lesser mortal.... but unfortuntly or maybe fortunately human beings r capable f all sorts f emotions.. evn d lazy least interested ppl like me... d love bug bites all f us at sm point or d other.... turns out nice for few.. not so nice for others.. (read me :P(had too put d smiley.. else it mite sound am goin devdas here.. wich aint d case..)) but in either of d cases it ENDS.. love ka THE END (another movie hvnt seen , but d title makes it pretty clear.. probably its d air arnd.. making ppl make such movies des days.. n for ppl like me who cant mk movies.. we hv options like dis one..)

now none can challenge d laws of universe... love is a funny concept.. or maybe its jst an idea n nthng else... since d day we were born.. d love interest keeps changing in our life.. n so does d idea  n expression f love.. for a small baby.. all love means is his/her mother and father.. still more for d mother.... it starts 2 grows wid d ppl arnd who d kid stays wid d most.. be it a auties.. or uncles or grandparents... come school life n d kid has a new found attachment 4d frnds.. d previous attachmnts n love take a back seat n frnds r d only world to us... times move on n D LOVE is encountered n this is wen all other love n attachmnts fade away.. its funny how we  want d good times to alwaz remain.. but we get bttr times n d previous good times end up being jst history... funny thing in evry attachmnt n LOVE d expressing needs differ.. d way a mother loves a child no frnd can.. d way attachmnts n bonds r wid frnd no1 else can.. n d fateful D LOVE is only for dat one special to be.. (am not talking f falling in love wid evry 3rd day type f ppl here ... though dey seem to hv found n given a totaly new idea 2d idea f LOVE.. well dats there way f expression... who is anyone to say anything...evry1 loves d way they want)

is it that d love n feelings blossom wid d ones u spend most f d quality time wid?? be it a baby wid his/her mom.. or a teenager wid his/her frnds.. or d time wid dat special someone?? but change is d only constant.. can we really stagnate our lives in times?? NO CAN DO

how does d way n expression f love change?? am jst amazed at d phenomena... d gods n goddesses sure wud b laffing looking dwn at how dey hv d poor humans mixd up in des feeling f love... now a great philospher(if i may say).. a not so average human being.. and a good friend of mine, he once said love is universal.. d idea of loving jst one person or few ppl arnd us is bogus.. if u understand true love u will love evry1 n any1 arnd u.. cos d feeling of love makes u forgive evry1 n care for all.. n dats d idea f love.. to care for sm1... n d day u understnd dis.. u will get over d stupid notion ppl hv f being in love n having feeling n stuff... well as much as i respect n appreciate dis person.. am unable to apply d advice or suggestion or philosphy in my life.. probably dats part f me being a lesser mortal.. i like d idea n feel f d things he said.. but i guess i cant tk d philosphy in my life dat easily... wish i cud.. things wud hv been way easier den..

coming back to d random thot dat got me typing here... d eternal love stories.. none of dem had d shaadi ka rona dhona in dem.. i mean dey had rona dhona but f d other kind... jst like dey say 4a sportsman to retire wen dey r at d top... des lovers decided to retire (only in a diff kind.. n against der will i gues.. not sure.. not much int2 knwing der stories...) jst wen d whole world knew f dem being hopelessly in love.. dey got d names in history by never being toghter.. as in not on d worldy world i.e. (maybe they ended up togehter in aftr life.. but how does it mattrs.. well dats a totaly diffrnt thot.. not to mix up here... else am gona wrote a post inside des brackets :P) , dats wot made der stories special..

how many such stories wud hv been rmmberd.. if like d old hindi cinema, where hero heroine have an hapi ending were der...none wud remmber dem.. ppl hv an tendency to keep d pain n sad memories wid dem easily while 4get d gud n happy times easily.. wot were d gods thinking making dis  mankind.. jst having a good laf. .to keep demslves entertaind.. well dey gota be entertaind for they r d 1s who live forever.. so fair enuf on der part 2 mk d foolish mortals down here like dis...

D love some say is d most wonderful feeling... but its not unconditional :P... no sir.. it has the *condition applied" tag with it... its wonderful if its two sided... not one sided.. else its anything but wonderful.. infact its WONDERFOOL :P.. though personaly i say love is a domain of a fool.. n we all are fools at some point or d other in our lives... its jst dat some f us accept it.. while sm f us decide nvr to traverse d foolish ways... n be ignorant on purpose.. den der r d psycho hopelessly in love ppl.. who r making d professions f psychologist a hit... psychology hons is D in thing for ppl.. n y not.. der r fools who will get in2 depression over jst one love.. n 4get all rest f d other lovely expression d ppl arnd.. wid whome dey got to knw how it feels 2b in love.. curse D LOVE :X... how does few yrs.. or months evn days for some make rest d a life worthless?? i fail to understnd.. or maybe i dont wan2
understnd ... evn if i do.. wots d point?? for wot is , will be one day.. nothing gona last.. but philosphy teaches us.. its not d destination dat counts... but d journey.. aint dis exactly d reason y all d legendary love stories became legendary (2 much legendary.. gota be bardney from how i met your mother :P)in d 1st place?? cos they never reachd d destination.. d journey is all dey were stuck in.. had they reachd d destination.. well den by my analysis.. dat wudnt hv counted :P :P

well not much to say anymore... der is no end to this LOVE.... i dont want D LOVE to end.. am hapi in d journey.. d destination is d treasure hunt wich is enticing only till its not in hand... once we have d prize... d feeling begin to take a dwnhill slope.. let d feelings be wen dey r at d peak... y screw up wots beautiful 4 smthing dat cant be.. "a sheep in hand is bttr dan 2 in bush" dey say.. guess fair enuf.. no mattr how "truely madly deeply" in love u r.. it will end.. one way or d other.. for d lucky few its "till death do us part".. for rest f d fools .. well dey r foolish enuf 2 screw up d love demslves...

PostScript: nothing against no1 or D LOVE.. jst random thots.. hope no1 takes dis offensively.. hardly ne1 one reads.. but still..  :P
ppl who r able to be n hv D love reciprocated from D person.. lucky u.. keep it.. dnt let it die before u do :P .. d others be it d unlucky onesided fools..
or d fall in love evryday bigger fools.... jst keep d idea alive ... maybe one day u understnd d true eternal universal love like d friend f mine said..
as on now LOVE KA D END :P ;P

2D OT n back..

Have been thinking of penning down this for long now, but guess the 4 months long break has made me even more lazy


How i managed a break this long.. well take up a surgery which puts you into bed rest for straight 2 months and then requires a lot of well structured exercise , if I may say physiotherapy .. for me it was the ligament injury which got me the much needed break from the “office office” game we all play... the injury which happened somewhere in June 2009, just a day after I got back from one of the most interesting, exciting, tiring and what all of a trip with the “Sharma brothers”.. unfortunately the injury happened, but fortunately it did not happen during the travel. But like they say, it’s all destined, what has to happen, happens! Even my “janampatri” it seems had this injury written in it :P.. Probably some bad karma of mine from before this life.. who knows..

Tried every know alternative in my scope to avoid the surgery, ranging from homeopathy to alternate sciences with the HEALERS trying to heal my injury by sending energies, but nothing really worked 100%.. I’ll like to believe that all this did some good instead of thinking nothing happened. For surgery was my last resort and even the year long experiments with rest and medicines could not help me avoid it. This post is in way just for me... I want to remember these times after and during the surgery for they made me realise few things... no matter how short lived these realisations will be for me.. still wanted to pen down every detail before I forget and find it hard to recollect how things happened.. and how things happen...

Now I have never had much trips to the hospital and am one of those who hate going to the doctors.. even as a child I hated going to the doctor for when they ask questions and expect you to give exact precise answers, it scares me, what if I somehow give him a wrong answer and he gives me some medicine which might make it worse for me.. but nevertheless every time we get sick , we end up visiting the doctor... being admitted and getting a surgery done took more then an year in the making.. and now after the surgery, it’s still long before things get the way they are the best... normal as some may say..

The journey to the OT was scary and I almost gave up before the surgery began...

Being stripped to bare skin and asked just to wear to hospital clothes, the injections, the cutting of the skin, slicing of the tissues, drilling of the bone and stitching seal the deal... phewww... kudos to the doctors who do it.. but ask me, kudos to patients who go through it.. but alas we don’t even have an option ..

I almost panicked before the anaesthetics could numb my lower body... the procedure required to give me a small injection in my lower back to numb that portion and then from there put in the bigger injection into my spine and numb the lower body for the surgery...just writing this gives me goose bumps ,, but I went through all of it ... looking back I wish no one has to go through any such procedures...

To watch the whole procedure happening in front of you.. when your skin is being cut open.. the drilling machine making a hole in your bone,,, u cant feel it for the anaesthesia but the vibration can be felt by the upper body.. SCARY.. but you cant back out once it’s opened up .. it’s a one way road then.

Once the surgery was complete I realised how easy life has been and how ignorant I had been for am blessed with everything. Walking with clutches to move around.. even the most basic of human activities became a task. I won’t say I pity or sympathise with the people who live their lives on clutches, for it can’t take the pain away from them, but rather I salute them, and have upmost respect for them. It was tough, to move around minimum and with help of the clutches, the visit to the loo.. phew , and with the antibiotics not suiting with my tummy, the trips were very frequent. Not to be able to shower for a month and just do with sponge baths.. not a good feeling at all... but when the pain plays its part nothing else comes to the mind.. be it the hygiene or anything.. It shows how weak and fragile as they would say we humans are. Brings you way down to earth...

Officially (literally and otherwise) 4 long months of leave are over now... and the office working routines gona pick up soon sometime ... this aint a good feeling either but it had to resume sometime.. guess now with the money in the bank hitting all time low, gota get back to “oh so nice” corporate life. .. sigh so used to this do nothing and just lay back lifestyle now.. gona be real tough.. but gota do I gota do... let’s see what’s next in store for me...

black illusion

THE TRUTH WILL MAKE YOU FREE..
this was and still i believe is the GOLDEN rule of my school...sure the truth does makes us free.. free from almost everything but everyone gotta pay a price for this freedom to come... now when there is a cost to pay, how is the concept of "free" working with the truth ???was watching this movie "valentine's day" (and why was i watching this?? lets see, have seen almost all the good action ,thriller ,comedy movies i got , all that is left are the sappy ramonaticas.. and i dont have anything against romantic comedies..i liked "notting hill" and "sweet november"...among others... so ended up watching this one too.. besides i also saw "harry met sally"-nice movie, "serendipity"-not bad, "remmember me"- sad boring NONSENSE... in the past few weeks) and one of the lines in the movie got me wondering if this can make a blog post?? after all been long since i last visited my page..

we all encounter times in life where the so called ghosts from past or some secret/fact we prefer to stay unknown come visiting us... or atleast this sure is the case in romantic movies... things we think we can do better without, truth which we dont want to accept but cant ignore either for long... things which are not in our control.. or sometimes are our own wrong choices or decision for the times and circumstances... there are the times we gota take the wrong turn.. or some lineage you gota carry forward with you without any choices... just when you think things are going perfect for you and nothing can go wrong, the skeletons from the closet come knocking... now have i got any such closets full of ghosts am scared of?? lets c... or should i
be taking a generall perspective and take the onus of me by saying no one is perfect.. we all have our dirty closets which we dont want to clean up.. or refuse to acknowlegde most of the times... but how long before knock knock knockong on heavens' door..

how one can go on to build a perfect world by keeping one little (or more than just one in some cases) secret aside for the fear of that one things ruinung up it all.. but the great minds will say gota make the base strong and not lay the world with some skeletons underneath... in any world the ghosts will do there job and come haunting.. hmm seems am out of words and just writing the same thing in different ways.. something i picked up in my MCA days to fill up the answer sheets ;p.. but well gota be rusty writing after this long and doing nothing but lying on bed for 40 odd days now.. so anyhow what got me thinking was no matter how dark d secret, in romantic movies the ending goes happy more then often for kiss and make up and THE END..
seems the concept fits well in real life too.. not d kiss and make up but once ur meet ur THE END, people tend to forgive you and remmember only your good side ,not the not so good which you tried to avoid in the
first place.. but the same people might not be very convinced of your decisions till the time you were hanging on.. funny aint it??

so where do we set the boundaries for how much amount of not so truth should be included in the perfect worlds?? to be free from the fear of being haunted by the ghosts... or to evaluate which ghost wont be that scary and which one would be... facing our worst fear and becoming a good person , but everyone can see
there own skeleton in a light where they would feel it isnt that bad why cant people acceplt it.. but go across the table and some else's skeleton would be unacceptable to that same person.. the concept TRUST always facinates me, how people say they do.. but one small doubt and the "I DO" changes to "DO I".. no amount of trust can ever make the slightest of doubt go away.. but the vice versa can happen in a fraction on a split second... how one unknown blast from d past can lit the fire of betrayal and end up in nothing but ashes of good times.. (:P not bad.. still not that rusty am i?? or is too lame?? i'll give myself benefit of the doubt..) trust they say lays the strongest foundation for mankind.. but why the same trust has the weakest of base for itself?? like i said funny i find trust.. many times we hear people saying i trust you... the funny acts can begin then and there itself... with the other person thinking.. no you dont ur just saying.. self doubting is it?? or the person saying just for the heck of it and get away with it.. well if we doubt then trust is the land of unknown for us.
but if everything is fine and there is no doubt in anyone regarding anyone else then i believe some TRUTH can be kept at bay and done without... for in the no doubt all trust situation.. sometimes truth will be a heavy price to pay to be free.. counter me saying with that amount of trust none can shake the foundation, but that's where the human psychi comes into play and it sure is twisted.. ou never know when the best of person can become the worst of nightmares... where does the trust goes away then?? or are we too weak to acknowlegde the truth.. be it our own or someone else's?? but why does so called or framed as "betrayal" of one person matters more then some one else?? the more you count on the person the more trust-doubt-hurt factor comes in.. while the insignificant's truth remains insignificant and they still keep the same place.. guess the higher we rise the greater the fall funda plays well here...

too many question i ask in my post some say.. but never give the answers.. well if i had the answers i guess i would not be talking about things like theses in the first place.. plus we all know preaching is way more easy than to practise.. we may say great things but when gota face the situations ourselves.. who knows where we might flip out.. still i believe irrespective of the skeletons and ghosts.. somewhere down if things and people are meant to be ... none of the paranormal activies matter(please bear with my attempt at metaphors here.. only if they are.. never was into wren and martin during school) the test of one's character and relationships only make them stronger, provided they were strong enough to go through the turbulent times in the first place.... too many conditions?? philoshy-easy to preach and not so easy to practise? well what can i say.. i aint no one.. and none in this world are perfect... lets c how long before my skeletons show me the middle finger and screw things up... or do they get a middle finger from me once and for all... well my old rescuer time comes for me here and says let me take you through and when it will be right it will play the cards itself.. and my weakness allows it to plays the cards as per its convinience.. why rush in the ghosts when time is on y side :P :P.... or is it?? well only the almighty time can answer that... till then alls well with the world... AMEN

P.S. hmm not bad dint turn out that small post after all.. but some habits shuold die hard... some traits of a human being should never change... else he/she loses there own selves.. hopefully no sms style this time , tried my best to keep it out, but aint gona check for that, so let things be..

SOMETIMES TRUTH CAN MAKE EVRYTHING ELSE LOOK LIKE A LIE

(now these were the words which got this post in the making..hit me deep and got me wondering if lies can be good at times)

born to booze

 dis post has been in d pipelines for long now.. just thot shud get it out here n break the heavy philosophical..( depressing or full f negatvty , as some wud say) posts.

dis gvs u an insite on how i hapnd 2 get d drinking habit.. well growing up i was alwaz tot by my folks dat alcohol is bad.. n ppl who drink alcohol r evn worse... only bad ppl get drunk.. n evn d gud 1s who drink become bad... the DEMON ALCOHOL.. n d gud kid dat i was(stil am :P) i alwaz stayed away from d daru gang.. but destiny had odr plans for me.. n soon i realised how i hv been in a misconception f associating dear alcohol wid d wrong...

fisrt tym evr i ws tricked by a frnd , luckily 4me i dint get tipsy evn after 4 pegs n 2 shots f vodka.. since den der ws no looking back... vodka ws history n i soon got 2 my calling ..SCOTCH WHISKEY.. some1 askd me wots d diff btwen d 2 ,, n i gues scotch is more smoother dan whiskey.. rest who cares.. drink it n u'ill knw all d differences.. pun intended here :P

alil socialising here n der with d alcohol, so dat i bttr b sober b4 getin back home.. well, d folks still got der prejudice against d poor thing.. so bttr y mix d 2.. n on dat i remmber drink 2 health drink 2 happiness. but never mix ur drink else u drink 2 il-health... or mayb somtym u shud drink 2 il-health :P.. cos by d end of it all drinking is d only concern..

i alwaz blv dat 90% f d ppl who get drunk only act stupid n r very much aware of wot dey r upto.. some jst tk an excuse 2 act stupid n some hv it in der head dat once dey drink dey ougth 2get tipsy.. my exprnce says.. yes u talk stupid ,, or is it dat u mk lots f sense once drunk... for some call it d truth syrup... haha.. jst felt like :P but der r d real heroes who actually get sloshed bad with excess f alcohol.. n evry1 needs 2get d hero in dem out once in a while.. ;p alwaz heard of hangover remedies but d truth is none f dos evr work.. n 1 shud nvr tk any f dos.. best remedy - drink again so dat d hangovr gets drunk itself :P.. n once its ovr... get andr 1.. only if u gota get home or ofyc next day,, .. well den u gota mk use f wichevr remedy works 4u..

enuf said tho not enuf done yet.... dis post is a pictorial tribute (2d first n hopefull d last tym dat i puked)... d day indeed a rathr early day(1am) wen i got drunk so bad dat i lost 3-4 hours f memory... d fatefull day rather it started at nite ..so d fatefull nite ws one f my frnds brday/housewarming party.. now if ur drinkin n dnt hv 2go back home :P den u shud nvr stop drinking unless d drinks r all ovr.. n dat nite v tuk d onus of getin all d bottles empty... n hell yeah we did.. :P only 2 get all dizzy d next morning rathr few hours later..

u wana avoid d hangover do not sleep or rather sleep for proper long hours... so dat once u get up u r completely normal.. mayb a lil headache.. but dats worth it... i mean imagine getin up in d morning bangin in d balcony door thinkin its d loo door :P.. den finding ur belt on d floor, shoes n sox scattered... wallet n fone misplaced n if u wear specs den dos wud b mislocated 2.. n still u go hell wid it lemme sleep 4 somtym 1st.... :P can it get bttr... hmm having said dat i think it can.. probably next tym d mixing f d drinks hapn, den will knw of my next hangover.. n so will d d blosphere... :P

i guess now widout further adue i bring 2u alil insite 2d nite/early morning dat was... njy ppl :P :P

n rest r bttr kept in d closet :P :P

read it somewhere.. alcohol does not solves any problem.. but neither dos milk... so CHEERS!!!

tangled up in you

"in this world where nothing else is true... here i am..... still tangled up in u..."

finally the 3yr long MCA came 2 an end cpl of days ago.. thot f posting dis 1 dat day itself but dint really feel lyk typing den.. but d 3 yrs , dis blogshpere n d ppl abt whome d post is goin 2b desrvd dis 1...d final day f colg,, d last viva f dem all.. smthing made me feel amazing dat day.... ws happy beynd happiness...sm say how can ending f d colg can mk u feel so,, fair enuf... but dunno wot was it..

nostalgia has been in d air 4 smtym now.. actually i felt it started alil early 4 sm f us :P... evn now dis post myt b a lil early ,, but guess sm yrs dwn d line reading it wud mk dat NOSTALGIA factor come alive... so it comes now.. but d essence f it mite tk smtym 2 surface.. (did dat make sense?? well am not a literature guy or a english teacher soo alls well :P)

goin back 2d 1st yr f colg.. d very 1st day ..1AUG 2007 ..SAD it ws.. lookin at d classmates i ws goin 2 hv 4d next 3yrs.. made me feel "lag gayi yar.. yeh kaisa crowd hai :P".. n den d thot of ok lemme jst b wid sm studious nerds n study here 4 3long yrs n get d degree n hallelujah... but den der ws dis fimiliar face.. sm1 4m my graduation days.. sm1 i had nvr noticed b4.. sm1 i had no contact wid.. but here d face seemd like a blessing in disguise :P.. a female 4m my grad tuition days.. who i nvr interactd wid.. but here it ws lyk .."ohh i knw u " how funny is dat.. ..dey say ppl r destined 2 meet 1 way or d odr.. guess it holds true in evry aspct n way... dis very female went on 2b d gelling factor for 5 more random individuals... probably she had d eye for genuine ppl :P n ws der 4d purpose f bringing in ppl 2ghtr.. d shorter she is in strature d taller she is in her ways n ambitions... the title of "jhansi ki rani"(tho i prefer 2 cal her chotti) mite jst fit her well... 4 incite her evn alil n she will b ready 2 tk on d world.....d precision she can chew d pen n transform it in2 a small lil umbrella ws commandable :P.. n mind u alot f concentration n precision went in2 it... 1yr dwn d line,, dunno how it went by.. n she left 4 greener pastures.. but not b4 she bot sm f totaly opposite ppl 2ght... looking back in tym... doesnt seem it wud hv been posible odrwise.. but den again if things r destined 2b.. den dey will b 1 way or d odr... she still remains chotti n d jhansi ki rani spirit only growin stronger day by day... :P

den der ws D dude... d master of all n jack of none.. is der anything on dis planet dat d dude cant hv solutin 2?? NONE.. my 1st interaction wid d dude.. n he goes on 2 ask me if i smoke n i need not feel shy if i do :P... unfortunate 4d dude.. i dnt.. alot changed ove tym wid d dude.. not a bad person but guess tyms n company smtyms mks us in2 a diff person altoghtr.. d day we start thinking abt wot odrs think n not wot we think.. dat very day v lose ourselves n d result aint rosy 4 no1.. had my share of bitter sweet exprnces wid d dude... guess not all can b frnds... ppl arnt gud or bad .. but tyms can b tricky... so 3yrs gone by.... i can only wish all d very best 2d dude.. n hope rathr am sure he will do exceedingly well in wotevr he chooses 2do..

now i'v met many a individuals in my life... but nvr b4 have i come across any on d same lines as f d ones am goin 2 write abt

dey say ladies 1st.. but am gona make it a lil diff by making ladies man 1st :P.. am sure d ladies wont mind at all on dis... n am not jst sayin dis 4d heck f it... smtym dwn d road i ws enlightend wid d fact dat d persons popularity has alwaz been such... 2d extend of him being called "MM"... wich ws short of marriage material :P... gurls 4m his grad days told him how he ws d guy who dey cud tk home n introduce 2 der family... talk abt fans.. here is a superstar himself... a GEM f a person in evryway f life... ppl develop an instant liking 4him. n in d last 3 yrs not jst women but men hv been attracted 2him alike :P :P... he can very easily b a male version on meneka.. LOL... dunno.. jst felt like writing dat... d guy's philosphy leaves me wondering at tyms... his humour n timing of one liners ... not many can match his wit.. tho i try but guess its natural born talent n not all can match mine eithr :P :P.... jokes apart , a very genuine person n evn a bttr frnd.. wud go n did go totaly opposite , out f his ways 2help out ppl.. i hapnd 2hv exprncd dat 4 my own misfortune :(

but like i said its all destined so cant really run alway 4m nothin.. tyms n situations r funny..

moving ahd of d ladies man... gota get 2d ladies now... 2f der own kind... d 1st tym i got 2 knw dem... :P well d fact dey being 4m a gurls convent made me cautious... thot dey were clever n only acting 2b dumb but wid tym dey prvd me wrong :P :P... dey were neithr clever nor dumb ...while one has a childish like smile n glint in d eye... d odr has elegance n sophistications of a royal princess... while 1 is hasmukh d odr 1 is dadi ma , where ones infectious smile can brighten evn d gloomiest f atmosphere arnd, d odrs dignity n class will mk u try n b in ur best behaviour... needless 2 say both had der own huge fan following ... guys wanting 2 jst say a hi... but only managing d courage 2do d same on social networking :P :P... funny 2wrds d beginning f it all dey hated me 4my rude n to much in d face nature... i 2 dint had much likin 4d 2 eithr.. partially 4 der schooling history :P n partially f d fact dat dey dint approve f my ways f treating ppl n d dislike ws evident... but wid tym d dislikes changed in2....hmmm... appreciations lets say n not likes 2 b politically correct here :P :P.... things chngd wid tym 4 gud n d way dey stand now.. it funny thinking f how n where v started...

3 long yrs made short by certain ppl... had our shares of ups n downs... d latter being few,, n former being so many dat cant count dem ....n d dwns i blv only bot us evn closer.. 4it made me realse d value n need of des ppl arnd.... remmbr d days f nonstop nonsense lafters 4 no rhyme or reason.. finding d humour in almost nething.. laffing 4 hours dat d jaw starts aching n tears start rolling dwn d cheeks.. of 1 particular individual specially...d bonding tyms at NSP or countless hours at CP...

remmbering tyms f making fun f almost evry1 :P... d way some walkd.. d way odrs used 2 talk... den d postures few used 2mk .. suggestin as if dey r asking d teachers.. "madam meri maar lo" ROFL.... giving nicknames 2 ppl... d kartik ka mahina incidences :P.. n countless such memories... guess i alone cant recollect dem all.. aftr all i ws not a only 1 ... i had my partners in crime....

i alwaz hated d class rooms n lectures,, ws on d low side f d attndence alwaz .. n cudnt stand d administration.. but still am glad i landed up in d colg dat ws ours 4d past 3 yrs... 4 i made sm frnds here who i jst cnt afford 2 lose.. each individual made me realise smthing or d odr.... my post r usually long ..dunno if dis 1 is short or long.. but it sure is very small 2 jott dwn all my memories n praises 4 des individuals.. but guess like sm things sm memories r bttr kept unsaid n unshared...

P.S. prior 2 starting dis post, jst say a dosti video upload by a talented junior.. wid d jane kyun song 4m dostana bein played in d backgrnd... d song sure fits d bill ... am not makin no radio broadcast request here.. but sure wud dedicate it 2d few close 1s who i sure cant b widout.... :P

CHEERS!!!

"how long has it been since this story line begin....... n i hope it never ends .....n goes like dis 4evr"

P.P.S. the start n end quoted lines are 4m d very same song which is d title 4dis post....

My Jekyll Doesn't Hide

stautionary warning: dis post is going 2b reminiscence of my older post....old wine in new bottle types,nothin new in it.. jst dat hvnt posted 4 long so thot will post smthing :P


smtym during my junior school day i read dis amazing story wich still fascinates me .. the story of DR JEKYLL and MR HIDE.. tho i dnt remmbr d whole story but d idea f how 1 small portion can change d respctful educated doctor in2 a lost soul rathr a wickd creature at nite is evil.. awesum isnt it...tho 2day i wonder do v really need ne such portion 2 turn in2 1such creature,, b it day or nite?? or is it sm portion dat v require so dat v can b othrWISE... PHILOSOPHY :P .. i so love d subject..specially wen i get 2 gv it 2 ppl.. n bsyds been long now since i last posted smthing her on d blogsphere... (not dat i hv disappointed ne f my fans here :P.. but still) so thot y not jott dwn smthing... this track title seemd nice thot wud mk it d title 4d post..

its been awhile n nothin really has been coming 2my head.. well actually nothing really worthwhile posting here.. d head had hundreds f things flickering evyday.. jst not having d peace 2 sort dem out.. n no hope seems 2b on d way for dat in d near future.. so gota let things b n tym play its part.. v all want d perfect world 4 ourselves n keep searchin 4 it all d tym.. smtyms v evn think v jst myt hv got dat .. but b4 v realise its tym 2 move on... in practicalty dat perfect world doesnt exists.. no mattr how hard u try 2 find it u can nvr keep it d way it is... like dey say change is d only constant ,,, so b it.. i blv in d "tym cycle" or "samay ka chakra" shud i say,, 4 wenevr thing arnt goin d rite way 4 me.. i like 2 blv tym will show d way n der is nothing dat i can do 2 mk things rite... more or less d philosphy of let tym tk control f it , is wot keeps me goin.. but dunno wen d tym mite play d spoil sport n throw d short ball wich i wnt b able 2 avoid.. well as i blv ... tym will tk cr f evn dat :P :P..

nehw coming back 2d title f d post.. wot i thot f posting here...

now for smtym (shud hv named d post tym n again or smthing like dat mayb ,nvrdless) i hv been noticing or shud i say hv been made 2 notice or realise a certain trend dat i hv had in my life for long now... i like 2 blv dis is how i hv alwaz been... but off late 2 many ppl hv been tryin 2 mk me realise how i'v been (n do i care abt des suggestion n realizations?? well dnt think i do.. but still am posting here for it seemd nice topic 2 squeeze a post out f it :P.. so gota thnx dos ppl for dis...) i am made 2 blv or shud i say i blv ;p.. dat wid me arnd der is no conversation dat remains a conversation.. n more dan often it changes in2 an argument or debate.. n bttr still (4 me atlst) it winds up wid me having d last word ;p almost alwaz.. now is it dat am gud or is it dat am suferring 4m sm disorder 2 hv d last say all d tym .. or is it sm escape routine dat i mite b on2 widout realising it... phewww dats heavy.. nvr gave it a thot but writing here it seems scary,,,, but its more scary 4d ppl arnd dan me so all gud :P or is it??? ... not many r able r handle d pressure n more dan often dey tk d back seat... a frnd rathr EX frnd once said i'll keep losing all my frnds if i dnt stop dis habit f mine... for wich i blv if my frnds cant handle my flaw (like she wud hv had liked me 2 blv it dat its a flaw) den dey arnt my frnds in d 1st place... 4me its like if u wont ovrlook a persons flaws u can nvr bfrnd dem... d sole reason y v r frnds wid ppl dat v r frnds wid is becos v dnt mind der flaws or d odr syd.. but rathr blv in dem n njy d tyms wid dem... u wnt get d diamond till u dig deep in d coal mine :P.. off course u can get d polishd custom made 1 at d stores but u gota pay heavy materialistc price 4it n dey r polishd not in d raw form.... but d 1 u find in d coal mine by all ur efforts is d 1 u gona cherish evn more... dat cost wudnt b materialstc :P :P.. (and i cant help but tap myself on d back 4 dis philosophy :P :P,, excuse me 4 dat)

sarcasm n comments have become synonomous wid me now.. well dey hv alwaz been der wid me.. for me bsyds me ;p... but guess now its pinching ppl 2 much... n worst still as dey wud feel (bttr still like i wud say) it doesnt mttrs 2me if dey get pissed of... now i knw am gona get sm gyan 4 dis.. well hv been getin in d near past 2 (hmm near past sounds wierd..).. but still if ppl cant stop acting like morons n jackasses,, dey dnt expect me 2 stop torturing dem.. for dey get wot dey gv .... poor souls dey r ... for dey blv i can only strip ppl off der dignity... wot dey dont realise is .. dey alrdy r naked in dat deprtmnt... LOL n i dnt say it out f arrogance .. but i say dis 4 i hv ppl n frnds arnd who hv been der n ovrlookd d flaws (if it is i still wud say :P) n dey knw how it is wen i praise ppl.. like d post title says... MY JEKYLL doesnt HIDE... u act like an asshole arnd me n i'll b ur worst nitemare... u dnt b 1 n u'ill c i aint dat bad aftr all... well i wnt b bad but u still will b an asshole deep dwn insyd so no use...

all des philosphies hv been working fine 4 me uptill now... :-/ stepping in2 d corporate world has changed a thing or two in less dan 3 months... dunno how long n d jekyll 2 hide transition wud b complete on me... playin ofyc ofyc sure isnt easy... getin in d mud 2 wrestle d pig u hv 2 get dirty .. evn if u try 2 stay out f it.. still ur arnd n d splashes will get u dirty... no mattr where u plan 2 run away its all arnd... only d mud puddle n pigs r diff... n dey r literally licking d arse f ones in front f dem... not a game am gona play... nvr played it nvr will... dey say survival f d fittest .. u not gona get fit by licking assess assholes..

its funny how ppl change der colors in a split sec ... dis art has baffeled me alwaz.. but i nvr had 2 tk such crap in life... n now gota think 2wc b4 getin d thots across... dat scares me... gota device d ways 2 b mr hide wen in d corporate n dr jekyll wen out in d normal world... but often d portion plays 4 long n b4 v knw its mr hide who has taken ovr in all aspects f life....

evry1 has sm1 sitting on top of dem wid a stick in hand 2 spank (:p)  or d way it goes 2day bamboo 2 ahhmmm ahhmmm... nehw dats not imp how u address d issue.. wot imp is y tk dat bamboo or stick or any crap... ?? nw here d old refuge "tym "comes in2 its tricky mode n mks u do wot u nvr thot u will... all our lives v keep working hard 2 get in2 d corporate n once in der it gets evn worse.. atlst dats wot my 2 odd months f corpor8 life suggets.. now its not dat bad eithr... for i like 2 blv things cud hv been evn worse... n alwaz picture d worst case scenario 2 mk myself content wid wot is arnd... but den nostalgia f d tyms n ppl 4m dat once existent perfect world mks me wonder where am i n doin wot??

hmm how did i start n where am i goin now... (i mean 2 say dat 4d flow f d post :P) guess shud stop now.. else i'll get bored writing 4gt abt ppl reading dis... so gues aftr a long hibernation like a fellow blogger said... here is my latest post :P... dunno wen d nxt instalment wil surface.. tho ending dis smthing has alrdy croppd up in d mind.. not on des lines smthin dat most f d ppl who read my posts knw... but still myt b fun givin d photographc insite on it... chalo till den dis is all i got...

P.S. i dnt think i can stop d habit f commenting .. its deep down insyd f me ;p... bsyds i blv d 1s who cant match  d wit end up sulking sayin evrything is a topic f debate or argumnt 4me.. for der r d 1s who njy des discussions n more dan often end up outwitting me n having d last words.. :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! congratulations n celebrations....

well had nothin 2 blog of late things arnt such dat need 2b blogged down... rather dey shud  disappear smwhre in d long lost world but still dats how life is goin 2b still 2 start 4 most f us

nehw dis post isnt meant 2b abt me or how things r wid me... dis is 1f a kind u'il find on my link here..

happy brithday 2 my neice :D...

18th jan dis year she turned a whole year old :)... seems like jst yestday she ws brand new looking like dis

n now jst 2 days ago she ws cutting her 1st beday cake.. well not really d 1st 1.. she has been cuttin cakes 4 each month of completion so guess dis ws 1 thing she hs alrdy perfectd 2 perfection :P

now i can still remmbr her 4m d days she wud lie curled up, n evry1 arnd wud b waiting 2 get 1 glimpse f her wen she opens d eyes, 4 most f tym early dos days she wud b sleeping curled up like all d kiddos... infants rathr

 am scared of kids, n vice versa, we have dis mutual thing dat dey r scared f me n am not very comfrtble arnd dem eithr, n it ws d same wid my neice 2, i dint gathred d courage 2 pik her up in my arms .. not b4 she ws 6months old... dat to 4 a min or so i held her , trust me dat ws one f dos very tense minutes f my life, now am not gud wid delicate things.. n wot more delicate dan a cute lil kiddo, ws so scared if i wud drop her or held her 2 hard dat she mite cry... so alwaz admired her 4m a certain distance dat made me n her comfrtable, i said mutual 4 she 2 wud run away n hide herself in comfrt f her  mommy or her mommy's mommy  .. i dnt blame d poor kid 4 dat, 4 often evn grown up adults get intimidatd by me leave asyds infants... n am not jst sayin dat.. it is d case,,, i remmber meeting an old tym school frnd aftr 3 4 yrs while she ws takin a stroll in d park... n d way her mom gt scared thinking who is dis guy n y does my daughter knw his :P haha ya dats wot ws written on her face... tho smhw i find dat amussing :P ..i still do

so nvrmind d frnd's mom 4 d lady f d moment is sm1 else,,, sm1 who now is not scared f me anymore,, guess she has matured enuf n accptd d fact dat her uncle (mama) is alwaz goin 2b wierd like dis :P so now she does runs away rather sports a wide spread smile looking at me.. dat 1 smile of a child ,,wot wonders it does v all knw... only wen u knw d kid is smiling 4u it mks ur day evn bttr :D...

ws fun 2 watch her try n sit in her early day(well evn still she in in early days but a yr old nvrdless) but fall 2d side like dat humpty dumpty toy :P.. i knw sm mite say how rude or mean 2 compare her like dis but d fact is it ws so CUTE... ,,, wen she startd goin wayward in her walker jst bumping in2 random stuff n still b laffing cheerfull... no wonder d expression" laf like a child ".. i smhw relate 2d expression more now... cos seeing is blving :P... wonders happn n sure dey keep on hapnin wid a kid arnd... her 1st brday n she ws standing (wid a lil support negligble tho)by herself.... waiting 4d day her crawls wud b convertd 2 lil walks... d small lil words she has learnd 2 mummble... MAMA ..PAPAIYA... BUA NANA...  words v hear all our life but d same coming out f her mouth makes dem priceless,, my folks sit 4 hrs ovr d fone wen she is not arnd jst 2 listen 2 des small words 4m her n dat brightens d atmosphere arnd.. tho i find dat pretty lame :-/.. still dat lil voice on d speaker makes me smile 2 :D.. n ya i jst love n cant find nething more adorable wen she sneezes :P :P...its awesum... tho wish d cold (n odr such stuff)stay away 4m her

1 lilttle kiddo n she can capture any no f ppl in d house ,she sits in d middle n has all arnd her jst wantin 2 say der name or mk a gesture 2wrds dem or jst smile at dem.. am lucky 2 get alot f smiles 4m her... :) n often she mks u laf hard loud... does her routine of poo poo n pee pee n wen her mom will scold her 4 spoliling d clothes she wil laf n hv dat glint in d eye ..as if sayin hehe u clean my poo poo i'll jst lie here n laf :P... smtyms feels she is goin 2 grow up in2 very mischievious kiddo n y not she is alrdy pamperd 2 ervy possble extent .... loves d outdoors, jst any1 who can tk her out 4a walk,,she literally jumps in2 der arms.. n refuses 2 get dwn,, also will start crying if u stop roaming n sit dwn or stand still...

dey say kids knw all d secrets f life n death n till d tym d kiddo starts 2 speak he/she remmbers al f his/her pastlife.. evry act dey do, evry way dey behave dey r very much aware of wot dey r up2.. only cant express in words,, n slowly dis memory starts evading dem n b4 dey start 2 speak dey have der brains as brand new hard disk wid no bakcup.. dunno how much fact or fiction is associated wid dis funda.. but 1 thing 4sure kids sure knw n can sense d atmosphere arnd dem... 4 if dey knw dey r bein scolded in real dey mk d puppy face or der innocent face.. well kids alwaz look innocent .. only wot do i say wen talkin f 1.. nehw whtr der memory holds d secret or not.. 1  secret dey sure hold ,, d secret f makin ppl arnd happy on any occassion n in any circumstances.. 4 1smile n d day is goin 2b fine.. any tym f d day things go dwn jst gota b reminded f dat smling toothless jaw  :P... n ya she has 6 teeth now btw..4 in d upper jaw n 2 in d middle of d bottom 1... no more d POOPLI smile...... still it does wonders :)

 

well c told u i did manage 2 hold her now.. only in dis particular pic she refused 2 smile :(... seems still gets scared wen comes 2 close in proximity wid my beard mayb... cos she smiles really big jst looking at me.. or mayb laffs thinkin "kya mama insaan ban jao :P apke baal toh mujhse bhi lambe hai hehe"

dunno wot goes on her mind

another picture f her ... wid d tongue teasing all arnd sayin am d kiddo  :P :P... LUV U KIDDO

she is goin 2 celebr8 her day dis saturday nite big tym only i guess i'll miss dat :(... but looking at d postv side its jst 1f d starting brdays 4her ... but she is goin 2b special on all her brday 4vr... GOD BLESS n damn am growing old....

AND also... dis is not jst 1 reason 2 post 2day.. remmberd a song 4m school tym it went

if ur happy n u knw it clap ur hands

if ur happy n u knw it clap ur hands

if ur hand n u knw it n u really wan2 show it

if ur happy n u knw it clap ur hands...

CLAP CLAP CLAP

2 of my dearest friends got placed 2day :D... CONGRATULATIONS 2 both f dem ... u mk me proud:P :P...it feels happy wen ppl who deserve things n r well worthy f dem get dem...n am really glad 2day 4 not only des2 desrvd being placed dey r cpl f close few 4m d colg 4me... both f dem placed 2ghtr at d same firm n wot bttr finally a workplace near der home :P all des yrs dey had 2 travel places 2 reach colg n made words like puntuality n regularity  mk sense 4me.. tho i still cudnt mk use f dem evn aftr getin d meaing well :P :P....

 

well congrats ladies n keep smiling :D so,

CLAP CLAP CLAP

STOMP STOMP STOMP

TURN AROUND 3 times...

well d 1s who knw d song will knw wot am sayin rest can clap stomp or turn arnd or jst leave a commnt readin dis :P :P...

so congratualtions 2my sweet little kiddo 4 turning an yr old,,, n congrats 2d 2 ladies 4 turning a new stone in der lives n makin a new start 4 dem selves... celebration 4 dem n ME 4 having such wonderfull ppl arnd

3 CHEERS!!!

liFE biRtH bLoOd DooM

"what is life, except excuse for death... n death is nothing but an escape from life"

some quote i found online... d circle f life n death... well known topic.. nothin new u guys gona find in dis post..

random n irrelevent connction between sm lines u myt feel.. but kept dis in drafts 4 long ... certain hapnin in d past got me started writin dis post.. so wot evr gets 2d brain.... , am jotin it dwn... all need not b related well .. jst d idea of life n death mite revolve thruout.. so hv fun

reading dis post u mite jst feel sad n go back in tym not like d feeling... but dats not my intention here.. tho i knw its no gud writin dis post .. i personally dont like readin such works wich r talkin abt reality n philosophical stuff.. rathr wud njoy readin smthing dat can mk me smile n get me laffing.. only felt like postin here .. so got down doin dis... now d concept f evrything dat starts gota end... all is perishable, nothin remains 4vr. how many tyms v hear dis n get across such fundas in life.. but still dnt want any such thing 2 hapn wid us.. v loose wots close 2 us .. smthin or sm1 v cant think f life widout.. but d fact is v still continue 2 live ... our tym is still not ovr.. n hence v gota go on till d tym is up 4 us...

d concept of attachment detachment is funny 4 me, smhw feel dat v human being as per our convnience get attachd n detachd as n wen requird... myt not b d case wid all , but most f us n dat % f ppl including me i feel ,r nothin but polishd hypocrites ... hw does hypocrcy works here,, i dunno.. probably foolin our own selves f how detachd v r .. while d truth mayb d othr way round... i personally am kind f a person who wont b affected much or b moved by news of death n all.. smhw it seems 2me dat evntually its gona hapn.. i dunno how 2 react if sm1 says der so n so died.. i dnt understnd y ppl say sorry wen dey hear f such news?? ok u feel sory 4d persons lose, but den again u dint do no nothin n der ws nothin u cud have had done 2 stop it.. y r v sory den??is dis has now become a standard way of behaving wen smthin like dat hapns... i 2 wud jst say d same thing probably cos v realy dnt knw wot 2 say... do v say 'dats sad'.. yes it is.. is der a point askin 'r u ok'.. no u fool defintly d person is not ok... n worse still evry 3rd person walkin in ask d same ques of 'how n wen ' it hapnd

d person is alrdy messed up in der grief n u wana knw how it all hapnd? y is dat?? guess wot else do v ask den.. so standard set things ppl say n do at such situations n dats how it all goes...

now ppl wont eat, as in wen sm1 expires arnd dem.... dey wont feel like goin ne whr aftr getin 2knw such news... dey instantly get sad n feel its all over ... n dis is not dat sm near n dear 2 dem died.. but any1 dey knew 4m smwhr... dats bein sensitv 2d news n behaving like a human being i guess... but dis is wot gets me wondering... mayb smthin wrong wid me?? am i 2 insensitve 2wards ppl n life ?? cos if i get 2 hear such news .. i tend 2 b in d same frame f mind dat i ws proir 2 it.. i wnt stop eatin.. or stop wot i ws goin 2do d next moment...well dats me....

dey say as v grow up, v ourselves start understndin wots hapnin arnd.. v become more n more sensitv 2 such tyms.... but dunno wots wrong wid me.. i hear news of sm1 passing away n am unmoved... b it sm1 i barely knew.. or sm1 i knew well.. or sm1 i dint know at all.. its d same reaction 4 me... 'OK' .. does dat means am 2 insensitv 2b a human bein ?? i hope not... does dat means losing ne1 close 2me wont affct me eithr.. i feel not... cos d idea f losing sm1 who mttrs 2me,, mks me jittery.. knowin its all gona end n death is d final destination of life.. wich v all will 1 day or d othr reach,, but d only way i feel i can cope up wid losing my dear 1s is dat i die b4 dat.. dats how strong n detached i am... or how insecure n weak i am.. hmm dats only 4 tym 2 tell..... but its funny cos smhw i cannot relate 2 any situations or ceremonies wich mk ppl go on extremes... i dnt like goin 2 cremenations.. n i dnt like attendin marriages eithr.. but at tyms v r complied 2do so... der is no comparison btween d emotions invld in d 2 ceremonies.. but neithr of dem mks me feel like bein der.. call me weird but dat hw it is 4me...antisocial mayb.. but wot can i do if such emotions dnt come natural 2me.. or mayb i'v conditiond myself wid tym..not 2 react much n b cold 2 all such evnts... tho smtyms it shakes me bad.... imagine v decide not 2 get in touch wid sm1 again in our live n less v knw , it jst mite b d case... how does it feels wen u hv argumnt wid sm1.. u develop  grudges 4 certain ppl n decide 2 stay away 4m dem 4 alwaz... but if it so hapns dat u get d news d der demise .... how do u feel.. its like d last confrontation wid dat person ws a fite.... now d person is gone 4 real n in dis life v arnt getin in touch again wid dem.. (xactly wot v decideed,, only not dis way),wot if v feel smwhr it ws our fault n shud hv got d records strait wid dat person.. or evn if it ws dat both d parties were at fault, wot gud is it doin 2 dcyd not 2 get in each odrs way in dis life tym ?? so v dcyd 2 set things asyd but b4 v knw.. its 2 late now.. n wot r v left wid,,, a guilt insyd cursing our ownselves ..d last words u had wid d person were smthin dat jst myt haunt u 4evr.... so jst 2 mk sure no such thing hapns..shud v b leting morons be demselves d bearing wid dem.. cos v dnt want 2 regrets later??? or do v doom dem 2 hell n keep dem asyd , live our lives peacefully???   den der r chances f u hatin a person n evry1 knws wot d jerk he/she ws in der lifetym but wen dey die.. well ,,,all go on sayin wot a wonderfull person he or she ws.... n how dey wud b missd.. but bringing forth d truth wud b rude n bad.. 4 not 2 tk bad of sm1 who is dead... isnt it so? but wen d person ws alive.. curse him/her like hell.. wot a wonderfull concept v ppl have... respect d dead n mock d living...

sm say d ultimate way f life is bein detachd n not feeling nethin.. but lyk i said v nvr knw wen n wot will get us attchd 2 it or dem.. lookin at d world arnd wot do v get 2 keep wid us... wot all can v possbly gain... in d same aspct... wot can v possbly loose....hmm heavy stuff isnt it ... n dnt v all like 2 talk n sound philosophical.. but hw many f us practice wot v preach?? i dbt not many.. 

dnt hv much 2 rite now... guess wud leave dis here only.. dis mite b 1f d short post 4d readers .. so wont get dem complaining...

d TAG of innocent guilt...

anothr of tags i got, kinda strnge dis 1 .. did not get it in d 1st go.. aftr askin d tagger it seems here v hve certian questions n gota gv 1 word ans 2 dem...where innocent says no n guilty means yes in d tag... so will get ovr wid dis now..  not much 2do in dis tag... dey say tags r gr8 way 2knw more f ppl... well go ahd knw more f me..

MONICA @ http://ruminationsmyspc.blogspot.com/  tagged me.

RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.

Asked someone to marry you? Innocent.
Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent.
Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent.
Ever told a lie? Guilty.
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty.
Kissed a picture? Innocent.
Slept in until 5 PM? Guilty.
Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty.
Held a snake? Innocent.
Been suspended from school? Guilty.
Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent.
Stolen from a store? Guilty.
Been fired from a job? Innocent.
Done something you regret? Guilty.
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent.
Kissed in the rain? Innocent.
Sat on a roof top? Guilty.
Kissed someone you shouldn't? Innocent.
Sang in the shower? Guilty.
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.
Shaved your head? Innocent.
Had a boxing membership? Innocent.
Made a boyfriend cry? Innocent.
Been in a band? Innocent.
Shot a gun? Innocent.
Donated Blood? Guilty.
Eaten alligator meat? Innocent.
Eaten cheesecake? Innocent.
Still love someone you shouldn't? Innocent.
Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.
Liked someone, but will never tell who? Innocent.
Been too honest? Guilty.
Ruined a surprise? Guilty.
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn't walk after wards? Guilty.
Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty.
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent.
Joined a pageant? Innocent.
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Innocent.
Had communication with your ex? Innocent.
Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Guilty.
Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty.

as 4 taggin ppl... guess whosoevr wants 2 do it...

DUMB DUMB DUMB....

THE dUMB dUMBER dUMBEST QUIZ. seems like d funny quizzes have had alrdy made der way in2 blogger 4m facebook n all.. got 2do dis 1 by monica... lets c wot i score


Here's the quiz

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking
(worse still d gum got stuck in my hair, hair on d head, thot shud specify :P...)

[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking

[ ] You have ran into a glass/screen door

[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle
(jumping of d moving bus qualifies i guess)

[x] You have thought of something funny while walking by yourself
(hapns alot..)

[x] Laughed, then watched people give you weird looks
(hapns all d tym)

[x] You have run into a tree/bush.

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
(hahaha dint knew dat.. )

[x] You have tried to lick your elbow… a few times
( :P jst tried after reading d above statement, no success tho)

[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little star have the same rhythm.

[x] You just tried to sing them.
(hi dey do kinda hv d same ryhme,, not dat dumb a quiz i guess,, only makin ppl smarter)

[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.

[ ] You have choked on your own spit .

[x] You have seen the Matrix and still don’t get it.
(got d 1st 2 parts... d 3rd 1 got way 2 wierd)

[ ] You’ve never seen the Matrix.

[ ] You type only with two fingers.

[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire

[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
(now d water gt in2 nose cos f stupid lafs)

[x] You have caught yourself drooling.

[x] You have fallen asleep in class and fell outta your chair
(fallen asleep yes,, fell outta chair yes... but not both at d same tym.. )

[x] You stared hard at someone trying to figure whether the person was he or she

[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking

[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about

[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
(some evn shake der heads wen dey knw dey gota talk 2me now :P :P)

[x] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
(dont understand d concept f inside voice tho.... depends tym 2 tym it seems)

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math

[x] You have eaten a bug
(not knowingly.. myt hv munched few at nites wid d food)

[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important
(not exactly... got nothing bttr 2do if think in 1 way...n have alot f stuff 2 tk care f if think d othr way)

[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it

[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand
(in hands ?? hahaha evn more funny ..as a kid wen got 2 wear d specs initially ws searching 4 my specs all arnd only 2 find myself wearing dem on d eyes wen searchin 4 it in front f d mirror :P :P... wow d quiz is made 4 me it seems :P :P)

[ ] You have ran around naked in your house.
(hahahahahha ok... hmm probably one day wen i'll hv my own house n live alone den jst myt do dis :P :P.. not run arnd tho.. walkin wud b jst fine)

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t.

[ ] You break a lot of things.
(not alot .. but things keep breakin here n der ...)

[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
(wot type of big words??..askin dat question dumb?? but still big words differ 4 all)

[x] You tilt your head when you’re confused
(well can tilt or do othr random stuf wen confused n helloo wen confused ur supposd 2do random stuff)

[x] You have fallen out of your chair before

[ ] Mistook your teacher to be a student

[x] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling or wall
(hmmm well need not specialy be lyin in bed... jst gota b vela n nothin 2do like rite now :P :P)

[x] The word “ummmmm” is used many times a day.
(it hapns most wen in viva n interviews i guess :D)

[x] Have you opened your mouth to say something but then you pretended as if you were yawning because you forgot what you wanted to say.
(smtyms not dat i 4gt but lookin at d person 2 whome ws goin 2say... decyd against sayin it ..hence d yawn or smile or random face)

TOTAL 29

I am (29/40)*100 = 72.5% DUMB!!!

chalo if not d academics ... getin a score f 70 + not bad... probably my dad wud b hapi ... hahahahhahahahah
n who i wud like 2 compare my dumbness wid... hmm guess all in d list f followers n whosoevr reading dis.. n do lemme knw once u thru wid d dumbness :P :P... n complete it soon.. d sooner u knw d bettr it is 4u my frnd,,, go chk ur dumbness... BE A MAN... or WOMAN... wotevr b ur case

the unforgiven II

"what i've felt , what i've known
sick n tired , i stand alone
could u there?
cos am d 1 who waits 4u
or r u UNFORGIVEN too"

well dats 1 f d songs 4m metallica dat i heard wen i started listening 2 d band.. alwaz loved d song n since d tym i started bloggin had dis in mind 2 use d title as name f ne f my post.. felt it looks fine 4 wot am thinking 2 type now so jst thot wud start it off wid few lines 4m d song only... hence d para in d start.. no pun intended der.. ppl need not mk horses up der brains run wild.. 4 d post is yet 2 begin :P :P

so nehw lemme get dwn wid d post.. now smtyms it hapns dat i write n talk irrelevnt stuff.. ppl evn hv hard tym readin or getin 2 understnd wot am tryin 2 say.. funny der r tyms wen i myself find it hard 2 understnd wot am i sayin or wot do i want in life... 4 smtym now my brain has been fcukd up..refusing 2 work at all... n evn if it has been working.. only d wierdest f not so hapnin thots hv been botherin me.. n 2 mk it all worse.. i hv been devoting tym thinkin ovr dem... d things wich hv been botherin n trblin me r d most irrelevnt f stuff.. but wen ur head is 2 go wrong .. nothin can help u out.. u get stuck in d quick sand.. n d more u try 2 get outta it d more u get stk in2 it.. u try n get urself out f a tangled web n d more u struggle 2 get out d more tangled up u r in it.. probably d same hs been my case off late... d more n more i try not 2 get my brain trbld d more worse it got n blew it away at d best of tyms 2 mk d worst of situations..


generally am not sm1 who thinks ovr certain things alot... 4me it hapns .. if its 4 my gud den alls well.. if not so gud den so b it... wud c wot nxt n gota move on, but wen d let go... n mv on phenomena keeps hapnin tym n again dats wen d funny thinking part of my brains get working.. or rathr shud i say d wierd mechanism up der starts workin.. it has been pretty rusty uptill now ,4 a long tym hasnt made use f it.. but wen it starts kickin... its like not willing 2 stop..now read dis post smwhr.. abt escapism n dunno y .. (probably i knw y) seemd as if am no gud but escaping all arnd me 2... n bein nothin but a coward by letting go n not caring much 4 all arnd me.. thot d move on n will c later attitude myt help but escapism is nvr d answer 2nething.. n extreme of nething is bein an escapist.... so got my share on tangling up in d web... n worse dat cud hapn... messd up few ,not so tangld up things n ppl arnd in d web...n dats wot makin me go mad... now dis post here is reminding me f d very 1st post dat i wrote.. d 1 wid wich i started off my bloggin career (:D ya ok... )...ws goin thru a similar phase den but still it ws diff .. only my fuckd up mood n irritable behaviour ws d same..

i pity my frnds n ppl who overlook such deeds of mine n still choose 2b my frnds... dey sure dint do no wrong 2 deserve my wrath(hmmm heavy word here .. got only dis at d tym , so will let it b).. 4 widout ne fault f ders i still go on 2 mk d atmosphere wierd 4 dem.... spoiling sm1s special day by bein d total jerk.. well not many can do dat.. but i can n hi did so wid d worst possble timings... cud i get bttr in bein worse ??? i dbt it... feel funny wen i say dis but things wich bothred me wud find appreciation in othrs eyes... now comeon how many of us wud get irritated at ppl 4 bein all mannerd n culturd n dignified.. or at d 1s who r greatest f souls arnd n overlook all flaws in ppl n still do gud evn 2 dos who do bad 2 dem?? now how many of us can get irritated 4m such acts n ppl wid such high standards in life?? well beat dis all such acts of mannerism n dignity got me iritated n 2 mk things worse.. i let it trbl me wd few of my frnds arnd... as worse as it gets .. i let my mood b fuckd up wid frnds who r in evry aspct of life far bttr souls dan me .. n if nethin i bttr get sm gud qualty f dem.. but no sir i rathr dcyd 2gt my brain fuckd up wid dem.....

remmbr last tym u were mad at sm1 n dat got u mad at ur own self .. 4 u knew dat it ws u who ws behavin wierd at bein trbld by d sincerity(or wot shud i write here??) of ppl arnd... yes i write wierd stuff.. dunno wot comes nxt aftr wat n der is no flow n probably no sense in certain statemnts i type.. but its still gud 4 i can b far more fuckd up dan dis.. so my brain goes off ...n l8r i realise how big a jackass i am by bein mad at ppl who hvnt done no wrong ... n den it gets me mad at myself 4 y am i bein such a jerk ..... spins ur head readin dis... well jst think wot i hv had  been thru.... ur mad ur frustated but d only person u can tk it out on is urself.. so eithr ways ur not goin 2 get away wid dis frustations n ugly air arnd.. 4 ur d 1 havin it.... ur d 1 2b blamed 4 it ... n probabaly ur d only 1 who desrves all dis crap ... wid all dis arnd ... i start 2 wonder wot hv d 1s arnd done 2desrve all dis?? guess only fault of ders wud b dat dey knw me n still hv der concern 4 wots trblin me... now wot am i suppsd 2 say.. its my own insignificant n disturbing thots ... n if any1 needs 2b blamed its me... smhw feel its d funda of attachmnt n detachmnt dat gets my head go round n round at tyms... not many dat am attchd 2.... its not easy 4me 2gt atchd eithr.. but detachmnt is smthin dat mks it all ugly.. n if 1 cannot get detachd 4m his attchmnts den its hell waitin 4u ...

evry1 has der weak points n low in life.. probably i went thru 1f d lows f my life in d past week... now dey say no1 is perfct..well hence proved am not evn near 2 bein perfct 4 sure.. only thing i myt b perfect at wud b imperfection... but den again aint dat bad eithr.. have seen worse souls arnd.. but wen v r no gud ourself v dnt hv d rite 2 point fingers at othrs.. do v?? no v dnt..cos blame game is easy ...sit dwn n analyse stuff n it all comes dnw 2 bein ur own fault... atlst d case wid me dis tym ... goin thru such lot 4 no rhyme or reason i ended up realising jst 1 thing.... its nvr ne1 elses fault... no1 can mk ur life miserable but u urself.... if ne1 is 2b blamed 4 ur plight its u again... in d weak moments d decisions dat v tk thinkin v r strong enuf r d worst f decisions n dey only mk us realise how weak v r.. n pretending 2b all strong n unmoved by all arnd v only blow away d few who actually r d support dat v hv... but does all dis keep any meaning aftr u hv been a fool??.. spoil up things 4 ppl n den realising ur mistk wich all d tym u were aware of ,, does sayin sorry help?? very convinient word SORRY... but if v really mean it ... den y gv a chance 4 othrs 2 hear it 4m u ... cos d sorry state can nvr b gud.. n if v r in it den v r all total waste..

behve like jerks n end up disappointing ppl... der r levels in life dat ppl maintain n if v think evn 1 level below of our mental state den v r doomed bad... imagine bein messd up wid d stuff dat u alwaz detest .... dey say dont stoop dwn ur own level but in d weakest of moments u nvr knw were u end up... probably cursing urself by d end f it all 4 bein such a trash... but no1 is perfct n its only in tyms like des wen u need 2 sit dwn n recollect urself 2b able 2 hold ur head still high.. irrespectv of wot u hv been thru 4 no fault f ne1 but ur own.. not evn a fault but only random wierd irrelevnt thots ..... so goin thru all dis i cud only gt 1 thing outta it..(wid help f few frends) 2 much of thinkin can get u mentally disturbd... 2 survive in d world u gota b able 2 maintain ur own kool n if any distrbance is 2 hapn... it bttr not involve u... nothing is permannt n humans beins r weak... u can nvr hold on2 ne1 or nething... so no point wonderin ovr wot wen u mite lose it.. thinking ovr it n losin wot u hv at present rite now 4d momnt ... damn u spoil d present 4 thinking ovr d future ,, d othr way round.. wid past exprnce ,,limiting urself in d presnt,, again so not hapnin... now i hv alwaz been told by ppl dat am jst 2 cautious at tyms n in order 2 not hurt sm1 n mk sure nothin goes wrong.. hahaha..dat extra effort screws it all up... assumptions on baseless issues mk me tk steps wich jst dnt mk no sense... n d ppl arnd me... well dey only wonder wots trbling me... while am only tryin 2 mk sure nothin is trbls dem... d problem is .. if i get slightest d idea or hint dat sm1 arnd me is not vry comfrtablr ...b it any reason.. i tend 2 gt on d backfoot n b all cautious... n being so i get uncmfrtble myself.. so ne1 arnd feeling uncmfrtble..mkes me uncmfrtble... n dat mks d air arnd wierd... n funny story..it seems d uncmfrtin issues r only baseless n non existant.. only dat ovrcautious attitude often mk me bein a total fool... tym n again i felt it is lyk dat.. but dint made sense 4 i ws pretty convncd of wot i do is rite.. but wen 1 n all hv d same opinion n say no1 can understnd d sudden chnge of behaviour.... i smhw felt probably alil dif appraoch in life wont hurt... cos its des vry ppl 4 whome i smtyms act diffrntly.. but dat dey find it wierd n dis seems wierd 2me.. 4 its all 2 mixd up... heads spinning again?? dnt wory gues am abt 2 get ovr now... so nehw... i guess i wrote wot i wanted 2... not many can mk sense of it ... n if u can den u mite b left wondering.. wotevr b d case... d gud thing is.. its d week gone by... as 4me.. wot all i typed here is only makin me smile looking at it.. have had d wierd issues screw me up enuf .. so no more its an issue... got my head all cleared up... in d process ended disappointed a few .. but feel dat disappointmnt gt dem thinkin 2 blog :P :P so hahaha... its all gud.. as 4 me yes evry1 goes thru der bad n weak phases.. i went thru mine... but now am gud again... it feels gud once again making fun f ppl :P :P.. getin 2 sport dos mean grins n finding humuor in almost abt evrything..( sm f u mite find dis wierd n read pyscho.. but haha ur free 2 think wot evr.. dnt care)

i still get 2 b wid my frnds..who hv been mature enuf n tolerated me evn in my worse of moods.. hats off 2 u guys... am pleasently surprised at how ppl can ovrlook n b all dignified.. hmm smthing i said b4 in d blog 2 dint i ??? :P :P.. d optimistc n living life d fullest is smthing i gota pik up 4m u guys... tho still i wud prefer goin on 2 mk fun f ppl.. 4 like i said no1 but ourselves n responslbe 4 our plights,.. no1 can mk fun f us unless v allow it 2 hapn ourselves... now jst 2 mk sure i dnt get attacks 4m social workers ... i dnt mean 2 disrescpect n rub ne1 of der dignity while makin fun f dem... no no not d case... but wen i comes 2 njoyin life 2d fullest.. i mite b alil mean in my own ways..... so d week gone by is past 4 me... present is all gud.. n dnt care abt d future..i'v 4goten all my stupidity... few frnds hv been mature enuf 2 let go n 4gt it 2.. alil request 2 othr few 2 4gt it n not talk abt it n keep d air heavy still.. i behvd like a total moron.. not neccsary 4u 2 behve like 1 :P :P... u alrdy gt ur point across n i understood no matter wot "widout GOPALJI koi VIKAS ni hoga" :P :P.... n othr way round "VIKAS ke liye GOPALJI zaruri hai"... hahahahhahahhaha ... lol well dis wud not mk sense 2 few... but i 1s who can understnd d lines wud defin8ly knw wot am sayin :P :P.... its has alwaz been like dat since centuaries... n will remain like dat 4 tyms 2 come....

am glad 4 i feel i wud have had done alot of gud karmas in my past lives ..:P:P 4 in dis life i can find company f d few elite n dignified ppl who r way beyond d normal human dimensions... havin such souls as frnds is a blessing n if i cud b evn slightly like dem.. my life wud b way neat n millions f notches up 4m wot i hv... but hi not complaining... wot all is hapnin 4me is still 2 gud 4me.. n dey r d uplifted souls.. i need 2 work my way 2 match der levels... till den am glad bein stuck in dis mean bad world... 4 evn tho d world mite d evil infested .. i hv my angels arnd me 2 tk gud care f me :P :P... wid guardians like des... my life is gud... so gota cherish wot all i hv in present n not b bothrd of wot mite hapn in future wen dey wont b arnd... y think so, i say.... dey say all gud things come 2 an end.. so do all bad things.. 2 side f d coins.. y flip it n get dat 100% of d 50 %.. i say rathr roll d coin along n let d gud n bad roll along wid u... its lot eaiser 2 let d coin roll n let it dcyd 4 itself wot side its goin 2b 4us den flipping it n d thots d getin bad 1 trbling u al thru.... now i read dis msg smwhr n loved it.. cudnt b bttr timing 4me 2 come across dis... evn used it as a status msg on facebook.. n here m ending my post wid it ....now cant say hope u guys had fun readin it.. but alls well dat ends well .. quotes mk it so much easier it say stuff :P:P....

P.S. (using it 4d 1st tym in my post :P :P)thot aftr all des awrds n tags my next post wud b smthin wer i wud talk abt d tags n awrds,, but den dis post came up.. but no worries i'll probably get dat 1 here soon... cos wid tags n awrds smwhr it seems blogger has become tagger .. not dat am criticizing dat... but den again wid d amt f tags smwhr it kills d spirit of blogs .. 4 tags get u write certain formulated stuf.. n wot all i mean by dat wud get 2it later... till den i leave u wid dis


"Doubt holds you landlocked in paralysis unable to move either way. The time you spent doubting is the time you are not a...live. So, rid yourself of the doubt, take that step one way or another, your heart knows what is best, but take it right now"